My Environment Changes as I Cultivate Myself
(Minghui.org) I was addicted to using the Internet a few years ago, and therefore failed to study the Fa well and send forth righteous thoughts sufficiently. My producing truth-clarification materials was done as if doing ordinary work. Therefore, my loopholes were taken advantage of by the old forces. I was arrested and sentenced to several years in prison, where I was almost tortured to death.
After I was released from prison, people from the neighborhood committee and the police harassed me frequently, creating a very stressful cultivation environment for me. Through constant Fa study and righteous enlightenment, I managed to break out of the situation. Here I'd like to share my cultivation experience. Please point out anything improper.
The day I returned home from prison, I stayed up until midnight to send forth righteous thoughts with practitioners globally. On the third day, I picked up Dafa books from a fellow practitioner's home and started studying the Fa again. I would send forth righteous thoughts, join in group Fa study and participate in truth-clarification projects. I was working very hard to make up for the losses I caused by being persecuted in the prison.
Someone from the neighborhood committee told me one day that I had to attend a brainwashing class. My immediate thought was that I should clarify the facts to them. But due to my lack of righteous thoughts and confidence, I eventually chose to leave home to avoid further persecution.
After being away from home for a few days, I came to understand that this was not the right path for practitioners to take, and that I should go back home. But I still lacked confidence and was afraid to return. Through Fa study, I came to understand that all people have a knowing side, and only through thorough truth-clarification can their knots be untied and for them to be saved. Therefore, I wrote a long letter to the officials at the neighborhood committee to clarify the facts to them. I wrote about the physical changes I experienced through practicing Falun Gong, the elevation of my moral standards, the compassionate way I treat people who had hurt me before, and the popularity and proclamations Dafa has received around the world.
In the process of writing the letter, fear often surfaced in my mind. I thought, “I didn't go to their brainwashing class. Wouldn't they want to persecute me even more?” Master's words then came to my mind:
“Wherever there's a problem, that is where you need to clarify the truth and save people. Don't take a detour when you run into difficulties.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Washington, D.C. Fa Conference”)
I came to understand that everyone at the neighborhood committee and the police station needed to be saved. It was no coincidence for them to keep coming after me, as they need to be saved by me. I then let go of my fear, and believed that these people would know what to do after understanding the facts about Falun Gong. With righteous thoughts, I finished my letter in one go and didn't even need a re-draft.
People from the neighborhood committee and police station read my letter and told my family members that they would not harass me anymore, and that I should return home. Some fellow practitioners thought it was a trick and told me not to go back, but I believed they would keep their word after understanding the truth. So I went back home. They indeed didn't harass me. It was Master who gave me righteous thoughts, wisdom and helped me pass the test of fear.
I went out to clarify the facts everyday with a fellow practitioner and help people quit the Chinese Communist Party. One time, Master hinted me not to go out, but I didn't follow the hint and still went out. Someone reported us to the police and we were arrested. On the way to the police station, the fellow practitioner and I constantly sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Master to strengthen us. After arriving at the police station, an officer said a few words to us and then let us go. We bid farewell by shaking hands with him and told him that he would be rewarded for treating practitioners nicely. Under Master's merciful protection, we came out of the police station in less than 15 minutes and returned home safely.
Some people told me that officials from the 610 Office learned about the incident and were planning to take us to a brainwashing facility. They also wanted to confiscate our car if we refused. I was planning to leave home again to avoid persecution. But then I thought: “Why should I leave home so casually? What if they come to get me again?” I realized that they won't stop coming until they understand the facts about Falun Gong. So I knew that I could not leave and must clarify the facts to them when they come. Fear surfaced a few times, but every time it did, I would think of Master's words:
“... sometimes when a Dafa disciple’s thoughts are quite righteous, there is a righteous god or righteous elements present, serving to reinforce his righteous thoughts.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa - Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
I would immediately negate the old forces' arrangement by thinking: “I am a Dafa disciple. What am I afraid of?” My fear disappear immediately after these thoughts emerged. I became more steadfast in my belief, my righteous thoughts became stronger and my energy field became larger. As it turned out, the attempt to send us to a brainwashing center ended in vain.
However, when people from the neighborhood committee checked on me to make sure I was at home, I was somewhat submissive.
“After all, a cultivator is not an ordinary human. So why doesn’t the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa?” (“Expounding on the Fa” in Essentials for Further Advancement)
I came to realize that those from the neighborhood committee often harassed me at home because I had allowed the old forces to come to me. So when they came the next time, I told them sternly, “Your frequently checking on me is a violation of the law. I am a law-abiding citizen and did not violate the law. What you're doing is illegal. You monitor people who strive to become better people by practicing Falun Gong, leaving those who are doing bad things alone.” They left in silence and never showed up at my home again. Later on people from the neighborhood committee and police station greeted me when they met me on the street.
In the process of breaking out of the evil interference, I have cultivated a steadfast faith in Master and the Fa. Every step of mine was under Master's merciful protection and guidance.
The Fa-rectification has not ended and many sentient beings are waiting to be saved. In the limited time remaining, I will conduct myself with righteous thoughts and righteous actions, put my heart into everything I do, walk every step steadily and fulfill my mission faithfully. I bow to our Esteemed Master!