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I grew up in a family with strong ties to the CCP (Chinese Communist Party) Army and Political departments, so I was poisoned by the Party culture since childhood.
I was the first group of youngsters who joined the Young Pioneers after the CCP seized power in China. Blind worship of the Party and its doctrines of atheism were deeply rooted in my mind. I used to firmly believe in the evil CCP, was loyal to it, and would have given my life for it.
It might seem impossible for a person like myself, who grew up in such an environment, to suddenly start practicing Falun Dafa.
I was not well-educated as a child and was plagued by bad habits and bad thoughts. I lost my mother when I was very young. My father was imprisoned and could not teach me. Because of my high-ranking family background, I was arrogant. I fought, brought much trouble upon myself, and had a strong heart for revenge. But the book Zhuan Falun completely changed me and truly enlightened me.
After I took up the practice of Falun Dafa, I benefited both physically and mentally, and I became a completely different person. If I did not cultivate Dafa, I cannot imagine what I would have become. Maybe I wouldn't have managed to survive until today.
Losing My Desire for Revenge
During the Cultural Revolution, my father was imprisoned. Although he was released later, he developed many diseases due to having been imprisoned. So, I longed for the opportunity to get my revenge against the enemy who sent my father to prison. After I started to cultivate Falun Dafa, I was finally relieved from such strong hatred and the combative mentality. I got rid of my ignorant atheist ideology and understood the Fa principles of the universe. Master said,
“When people do bad things they lose virtue. How do they lose it? When a person insults somebody, he thinks he’s come out on top and let off steam. But there’s a law in this universe, called "a person doesn’t gain anything if he doesn’t lose"—to gain, you have to lose, and if you don’t lose you’ll be made to lose. Who enforces this? It’s the nature of the universe that does. So only wanting to gain just won’t do it.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I believe in the heavenly principle that good will be rewarded with blessings and evil will receive retribution. I am very grateful for Master's compassionate salvation. My gratitude cannot be expressed by any language.
Passing Many Tests
Since I started practicing Falun Dafa on March 22, 1997, I have firmly believed in Master and Dafa. I went through many tribulations and passed many tests. I'd always wanted to share my cultivation experiences, but I did not know where to start and was afraid that I could not write very well. So I missed many opportunities to submit my articles to various Fa conferences. Finally I wrote down my experiences and did so easily. This is also my cultivation report to Master.
I am over 70 years old. I am healthy and walk with ease, not like an elderly person at all. The CCP started to persecute Falun Gong in 1999. I have been detained at a detention center a few times and my home has been ransacked many times, all because I practice Falun Gong. No matter how brutal the evil is, I firmly believe in Master and the Fa. No power can move my firm determination of cultivating Falun Dafa. I never complied with the police officers' demands, I never wrote any repentance letter, never said a single word of disrespect about Master and Dafa, and never revealed any practitioner's information to them. I did not advocate myself, but only validated that Dafa can indeed change everything. Dafa's mighty virtue and Master's compassionate salvation allowed me to have a firm belief in the Fa. Below are a few of my experiences.
Experiencing Many Miracles
Before I practiced Falun Dafa, I had smoked for over 40 years. After I finished watching Master's lectures on video, I immediately quit smoking. How could I quit smoking so easily after having smoked for such a long time? This was a miracle brought about by Dafa.
When I first finished watching Master's lectures and walked out of the conference center, I felt I had diarrhea and immediately looked for a restroom. After that, I felt my entire body was very light and relaxed. Master purified my body. I felt this was really a miracle.
In the fall of 2000, I was deceived by the CCP and picked up. On the way to a brainwashing center, the person who deceived me got out of the car for some other business. I jumped out of the car and ran home. They chased me in their car, but couldn't catch me. I climbed up three floors to my home. The chief of the police branch almost caught me. After I got home, I locked the security door. Later, people all talked about it as though it was so amazing. Some told me with smile, “You are really brave. You even dared to race a police vehicle and play hide and seek with the chief.” I knew this was all because Dafa had strengthened me.
Although the police weren’t able to catch me, they never gave up. One day, the chief of the police department and other officers surrounded my home. They claimed that they would break my door down and arrest me. Two police vehicles parked in front of the building where I lived, and 12 officers patrolled day and night. That evening, however, I climbed down the water pipe on the side of the building and walked away in front of their eyes. When I climbed down the pipe, I felt my body was very light. But actually I was over 60 at that time and weighed over 75 kilograms (roughly 165 pounds). The next day, the police hired several farmers to break into my home, but I had already left. I truly experienced what Master said,
“The cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master.” (The First Talk, Zhuan Falun)
When I was detained at the detention center, I also experienced more amazing things.
Once, before I was transferred from the detention center to a forced labor camp, they took me to the hospital for a physical. When the doctor was about to take my blood pressure, I asked for Master's help in my heart, “Esteemed Master, I am your disciple. Please help me.” My blood pressure registered really high. The police could not believe it and asked the doctor check it again. This time my blood pressure went up 10 more points. But even so, the police still took me to the forced labor camp. The labor camp guards took my blood pressure again and it was another 10 points higher--220. He said the forced labor camp could not accept me if my blood pressure was higher than 180 and told me to go home. The police officer who took me home was so astonished that he asked me what I ate. I also felt it was miraculous that my blood pressure went higher and higher, since my blood pressure was never overly high. I thought that asking for Master's assistance really helped. No wonder Master told us that if we disciples ever encounter something dangerous, we can just call out Master's name and ask for help.
The police in my local area said I was stubborn. Afterwards, they still did not give up. They took me to the city brainwashing center first and planned to send me to the forced labor camp again a month later if my blood pressure dropped. But for four months, my blood pressure remained at 180. The local financial bureau allocated 8,000 yuan to “transform” me, but their efforts were all in vain. At the brainwashing session, I told the head of the city 610 Office, “I will never give up Falun Dafa, even if I lose my life.” He admired my firm belief. The provincial 610 Office leader and the CCP central government 610 Office leader also interrogated me. I said, “Having belief is a freedom, not a crime. I believe in Falun Dafa.”
They said they appreciated my straightforwardness. Later, officials at the brainwashing center wanted to send me home, but the local CCP committee said, “We would rather spend more money than let him go.” I told myself that only Master's arrangements counted. I was released before the Chinese New Year.
Another time, some CCP officials came to the detention center and asked me, “Is Falun Gong good or not? Are you still practicing Falun Gong? Let me warn you. If you say Falun Gong is good and you still practice Falun Gong three more times, I will sentence you to three years of forced labor.” I said "Falun Gong is good" ten times. In the end they really sentenced me to three years of forced labor. I thought that was really ridiculous. Just because I said "Falun Gong is good," they sent me to a forced labor camp. When I was sent to the provincial forced labor camp, my blood pressure was again checked. At that time, I did not have enough righteous thoughts and I thought it might not work if I asked for Master's help again, since the forced labor camp had already admitted me. This time my blood pressure was 160, which was within the camp's requirement. It was really as Master said,
“A good or bad outcome comes from one thought.” (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
In the camp, I had to stand for 90 days, 20 hours every day. I thought I could not wait to be persecuted to death by the evil like this. Then my nose started to bleed and I was sent to the forced labor camp hospital. I asked for Master's help again, “Esteemed Master, I am your disciple. Please help me.”
The doctor measured my blood pressure and it was 220. The police forced me to take two pills to reduce my blood pressure. I spat out the pills when no one was around. Twenty minutes later, they measured my blood pressure again and it was 240. The police captain got really scared. He called the chief of the forced labor camp to come over. The police then wanted to give me an injection. I shouted, “If you give me an injection, I will bang my head against the wall.” The chief said, “If you can just say you won't practice Falun Gong anymore, I will immediately send you home.” I said, “I absolutely won't say that. Even if I die, I will still achieve consummation.”
The police and the doctor all praised me quietly. The chief lied to me, saying that they would send me back to the forced labor camp. But instead they hospitalized me in the camp hospital. I stayed there for ten days and quietly spat out all the medicine they forced me to take. The police did not give me any injections, fearing I might bang my head against the wall. In addition, my heart stopped beating for one minute every 20 minutes. Ten days after I was sent back to the forced labor camp, I was released. During my hospitalization, my body experienced many miraculous occurrences. I can't document them all, but they allowed me to truly experience the magnificence of Dafa cultivation and witness Master's constant compassionate protection of His disciples.
Everything I did well, and every change validated Dafa's mighty virtue and Master's compassionate salvation. I still have many things to improve upon. Due to my upbringing, as well as having been heavily indoctrinated by the CCP when I was young, I still have many human notions to get rid of, such as the combative mentality, hatred, and showing-off, among others. I've already realized these shortcomings and I cultivate diligently to get rid of those attachments and rectify myself.
Above are just my personal understandings. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
Thank you, esteemed Master!
