Overcoming an Illness Tribulation with Righteous Thoughts
(Minghui.org) One April morning in 2012, my husband, also a practitioner, suddenly started to experience severe illness karma. He told me, “Don't worry. I am a being created by Dafa. I don't fear death, but I cannot die because my life is needed to validate the Fa.”
“We have said that good or evil comes from a person’s spontaneous thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four inZhuan Falun)
Because of this thought, one of the most prestigious hospitals in our city got to witness a miracle.
Our First Response
Around 2 that afternoon, my husband went into a coma. Around 10 in the evening, he was in a deep coma. At 5 the next morning, he was still in a deep coma. What should I do? It was a public holiday, and we had planned to dine with my parents-in-law, who were ordinary people and might not understand the situation. If they saw my husband, nobody could prevent them from taking him to the hospital.
I knew my husband's righteous thought meant he would be okay, but I needed to be considerate of ordinary people. Going to the hospital did not necessarily mean that we were seeking help from the doctors.
So I decided to take him to the hospital. I also notified his younger brother-in-law. As my husband was wheeled in to the CT exam room, I said to myself, “Master, we will walk the path you arranged for us regardless of the exam result.” According to the doctor, my husband had no hope at all because it was a large scale hemorrhage in his brain stem. The attending physician did not even recommend hospitalization and said it was useless at that point.
However, the doctors were wrong. They did not know that people have no say over life and death and that a Dafa disciple is protected by Master. Fellow practitioners were all confident and knew what to do.
The first day in the hospital, his brother-in-law suggested we start preparing for the funeral. My husband told him not to worry. His brother-in-law did not believe it and sent for one of his friends, who was a specialty physician from another hospital. This physician told me, “If you have any belief, please pray.” She knew modern medicine could not save my husband and that the only thing left to do was to pray to higher beings for help. I told her, “I practice Falun Gong.” She said, “OK, then you should pray your way. His life is now up to his own luck.” Thus the first day passed.
The second day, as the doctor did the routine exam, he told us to prepare for my husband's passing.
My husband's brother-in-law started worrying, “Let's prepare for the funeral. Otherwise it will be too late.” Other practitioners and I said, “Don't worry. He will be okay.”
Around noontime, a fellow practitioner was sending righteous thoughts by my husband's bed when he woke up and said to everyone in the room, including other patients and caregivers, “My life is given by Falun Dafa.” Although his voice was not clear, everyone heard him correctly.
On the third day, the doctor came for the routine daily exam and left without saying anything about getting prepared for a funeral.
That night my husband kept moving and the intravenous needle fell out of his hand several times. The other two practitioners and I did not know what was happening and asked my husband, “What are you trying to do?” He replied with all his strength, “Go home.” I heard him clearly, so I asked the nurse to remove the intravenous needle. After she did, my husband fell asleep easily. It was after 11 p.m. The nurse asked me to go see the doctor on duty to sign some paperwork. I did not read it carefully, thinking it was probably just some kind of liability waiver.
When my husband's blood pressure climbed to over 200, I was a little worried. I looked inside and realized I was too attached to the importance of the blood pressure as an indicator of his health. Blood pressure might be important for ordinary people, but it was an illusion to test practitioners. As I let go of the attachment and started sending righteous thoughts with the other practitioners, my husband's blood pressure dropped from over 200 down to 190 and then to 170.
The fourth day, as I talked to my husband's brother-in-law about checking him out of the hospital, he started to curse at me and even threatened to kill me. I was not affected by his negativity and violence. Instead, I thought about how to save him as a sentient being. In the end, he decided to ask my husband's mother. When she arrived at the hospital, she was unsettled. After discussing it with my husband, they reached an agreement that my husband would stay in the hospital for two more days and then go home.
Maintaining Righteous Thoughts
Regarding whether to go home or not and whether to discuss the decision with ordinary people, fellow practitioners had differing opinions at the time. I knew that all our fellow practitioners wanted was to safeguard the Fa and Dafa disciples, and help us not to deviate from the Fa. I want to hereby thank them for their sincerity and kindness.
At the time, some practitioners told me that I should not listen to anyone else and that I should take my husband home right away. I listened but did not talk with them too much about it. I recalled a teaching:
“Gods are different. A god looks at, within the scope of his abilities, the outcomes of what will happen with all the particles in the cosmos as they relate to one thing. They look at things multi-dimensionally and from all perspectives, and that's why multiple goals are achieved by the things they arrange.” ("Teaching the Fa at the Meeting with Asia-Pacific Students" in Teaching the Fa at the Conference VI)
I did not fear that my husband's life would be in any danger, and I knew his recovery was a matter of time. So I mainly thought about letting ordinary people witness the miraculous nature of Dafa. I said to myself, “I am here to save sentient beings, not to destroy them. I must be considerate of their attachments in order to save them.”
Challenges Back Home
After getting home, the environment became better, but the Fa's requirements were no less strict. Ordinary people and practitioners often have different views about things and do things differently, too. It is a difficult task for us practitioners to conduct ourselves so that ordinary people would understand and, at the same time, we don't go against Dafa's principles. One of the issues was whether to take medicine.
At the time of checkout, the doctor prescribed some medications mainly to control my husband's blood pressure. I did not want to give them to my husband, but his family did not understand. Although his family had witnessed the miracle of his preliminary recovery, it was hard for them to completely agree to practitioners' views. Fellow practitioners discussed it with my husband and told him to be steadfast on the issue. And the fellow practitioners increased the frequency and length of sending righteous thoughts to clear up the field and eliminate various interferences.
Initially I would watch my mother-in-law to make sure she was not giving my husband any medicine. Later, my husband told me, “You and Mom are too much at odds with each other. Let me handle this.” I looked inside and found the attachment of fear, the fear of the negative impact of ordinary people's medications.
“Yet cultivation practice is to improve yourself: You are already able to abandon the attachment, so why not also abandon the fear of attachment, itself? Isn’t abandonment without omission a higher sacrifice?” ("Non-Omission" in Essentials for Further Advancement)
I eventually let go of the attachment.
Later, fellow practitioners and my husband discussed the issue with my mother-in-law, and successfully persuaded her to let my husband choose whether or not to take medication.
Another issue was that my husband could not move, urinate, or have a bowel movement. Through sending righteous thoughts, studying the Fa, and experience sharing, the issue was resolved quickly. We became more and more clear on our understanding of the Fa. My husband gradually increased the length of the time he could do the exercises. Often after he finished the exercises, there was a puddle of sweat on the floor. His strong willpower soon broke through the evil's resistance. He could walk again. A month later, he could drive again.
Awareness and Gratitude
Having witnessed the whole process and the miraculous nature of Dafa, the whole family changed and were grateful to fellow practitioners for their selfless help. Furthermore, my husband's brother-in-law changed completely. He said to us, “I did not understand Falun Gong before. Now I truly understand you. Your fellow practitioners are so sincere and kind. They don't have their own interests in mind. What they did was beyond our family's ability.”
I came to the understanding that, facing a tribulation, we should submit everything to Master's arrangement. Only with Master's strengthening and protection, as well as the guidance of Master's Fa, could I achieve the state of diamond-like solidity.
Endless thanks to great Master for his benevolent protection and guidance. What did I do myself except endure the pain when getting rid of my attachments? I also want to thank fellow practitioners who helped me in my most difficult time.
Above is my limited understanding at my current level. Fellow practitioners, please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
I want to end my sharing with a quote from "Cautionary Advice" in Essentials for Further Advancement:
“If every one of you can understand the Fa from the depths of your mind, that will truly be the manifestation of the Fa whose power knows no boundary—the reappearance of the mighty Buddha Fa in the human world!”