Minghui Fahui | Enduring So Many Hardships to Attain Dafa
(Minghui.org) I am a new practitioner. I attained Dafa at the end of 2010. Though my understanding of the Fa is still not very deep and I am new to cultivation, I truly feel that my xinxing, body, and wisdom are continuously improving through cultivating the Dafa of the cosmos. I have written down my cultivation experiences from the last two years to validate the extraordinary nature of Dafa. Fellow practitioners, please point out my gaps.
Looking back at my experiences, it was quite difficult for me to get in the door of Dafa. After graduating from high school, I went to a city to work. I worked in a barber shop in 2003. Later I met a senior practitioner, an older woman, who told me the truth about Dafa and helped me to quit the Communist Youth League. She also told me to repeat, “Falun Dafa is good!” So I said it often. Until 2010, though I kept reciting the words, I didn't know what Dafa was or why it was good. I just felt that she was very kind and very nice, so I said it.
In 2010, I suddenly started to have strange symptoms. I would get dizzy when cutting my clients' hair. Though I spent quite a bit of money and went to see many doctors, the symptoms persisted, and the dizziness became worse and worse. Eventually I started to faint while I was walking. I was only 24 at the time and was just starting to be an adult. Before then, I was quite lost in the complex society: I smoked and drank, I dyed my hair strange colors, and I went to Internet cafes, bars, and other bad places. I thought this was the lifestyle that people should pursue. I created a lot of karma and also brought many health problems upon myself, such as gastritis, bronchitis, headaches, dizziness, and insomnia.
I was unhealthy before I cultivated Dafa and took medicines all the time. When my parents called me on the phone, the first thing they asked about was my health. At the age of 24, I finally started to understand that I should take care of myself and to think about having a family. I met my current fiancée who is now also a practitioner. I decided to settle down. But then I developed this trouble. I tried everything I could think of to cure it, and even thought about killing myself. I felt that I would not be able to take care of a family and didn't know how to face my fiancée.
When I was totally desperate, that older woman practitioner visited me. She gave me an MP4 player that had Teacher's Fa lectures and Dafa disciples' music on it. She told me to listen to it carefully and said repeatedly that one would gain naturally while pursuing nothing. She told me that listening to the MP4 carefully would cure my illness.
Thus I treated it as a treasure and used my heart to look at it and listen to it. I first watched the Tianyin video. The lyrics and pictures touched the very depths of my heart. I was often in tears in those days, especially when Teacher's picture showed up in the video. I felt excited and suddenly I would feel pain in my chest, and tears would pour out nonstop. I was a grown man and felt embarrassed about crying. I just felt that Teacher was so kind, that I wanted to see Teacher so much, and that I had seen Teacher somewhere before. Now I know that Teacher was at my side all the time.
“Oh how many the years, looking for the master,
Finally the day has arrived to meet him.
Cultivate and return, the Fa now gained,
And follow your master to return, consummated.” (“Destined Return for the Holy Fruition,” Hong Yin).
At that time I had a hard time falling asleep. When I couldn't sleep I just listened to Teacher's Fa lectures all night. I listened to them during the day, too. Because I had many human hearts, I had a very shallow understanding of the Fa. I felt that Teacher's Fa was very good and very profound. I wanted to cultivate to return to my origin. But I also worried about whether Teacher would take me as his disciple since I hadn't seen him in person. Thinking back, my enlightenment quality was quite low.
Of course Dafa disciples all know, and fellow practitioners also reminded me, that as the Fa-rectification was approaching its end, it was hard to get in the door of Dafa and the old forces would do all they could to keep me out. So I had to be very strong and determined! Looking back, it was just like that. There were many kinds of interference and many bad thoughts told me to return the book. I endured a lot of painstaking interference and even thought of giving up Dafa. But deep in my heart I couldn't let it go, because Dafa had taken root in my heart in a very ancient time. I knew that losing Dafa would be more horrible than dying and that it would cause total desperation and pain in the depths of my soul, the like of which I had never experienced. So I told myself, “No matter what, I will keep reading the Dafa book. I must cultivate!” because I knew that without cultivation there is no real meaning in life! “Having heard the Dao in the morning, one can die in the evening.” (“Melt Into the Fa,” Essentials for Further Advancement).
Of course, during this process, I wouldn't have been able to succeed without Teacher's help. I also want to thank those practitioners who shared their experiences with me frequently and patiently helped me to improve. Together with Teacher and fellow disciples, the group's power helped me to overcome the evil!
I formally started cultivation in 2011. I started to understand Dafa and get rid of my attachments in real life. I got rid of all my bad habits, and my entire personality changed dramatically.
One night in 2011, while I was sleeping, I felt that Teacher opened my celestial eye. I saw that everything was golden in front of my eye. Later I saw Falun rotating in the sky. Teacher purified my body. I felt that my body in another dimension was unlinked from my current body and flew up. I saw many Faluns, big and small, rotating around my body. I knew that Teacher had sent out many Faluns to fix my body. I kept crying because my knowing side knew that Teacher was enduring the hardship for me. I told myself that I must cultivate well. Since then I haven't taken any medicine. I knew what it felt like to be free of illness. I knew that a true cultivator has no illnesses.
My fiancée also was frequently sick before she started cultivating. After she read a few pages of Zhuan Falun, Teacher started adjusting her body, which gave her some uncomfortable feelings that she didn't understand, so she bought some medicine. It wasn't until she threw up the medicine that she got the message and didn't take any medicine after that. For more than a year, we haven't had any illnesses. Our friends witnessed the changes in us. They said that it was amazing, and that I had changed “from a bad guy to a good guy,” had stopped smoking and drinking, and had stopped swearing. They understood the truth about Dafa from my experiences and also quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
A few months ago, I had a dream. In my dream, I was living during the time of the Tang Dynasty. Both civil and military ministers stood in Emperor Taizong's grand hall. In the center of the hall stood a young general in full armor. He was full of righteous energy. I knew he was my fiancée in this life. At that time, I recommended him to Taizong and all the ministers liked him. Then I walked towards him and said what I say to her now, “You must cherish the opportunity and must read the book often!” Then I woke up. I couldn't help laughing: It was hard to imagine that she, such a gentle lady, had such a glorious history.
Later when I shared with fellow practitioners, they were also impressed. Each Dafa disciple should not underestimate himself, nor should we underestimate our fellow practitioners. We need to cherish the precious relationships. Regardless of my cultivation state, I sincerely hope that those practitioners who were not diligent enough to let go of their human attachments that have bothered them for so long, will find their true self and assist Teacher in saving sentient beings, so that we can all reach Consummation and return home with Teacher.