The Environment Changes According to One's Cultivation State
(Minghui.org) When I started practicing Falun Dafa, I thought that it is great and wanted to help more people learn about the practice. I never missed any opportunities to validate the Fa. My thoughts were completely on the Fa and I believed that this was being diligent.
However, my understanding of the Fa principles was on a perceptual level, and as time went on, I gradually slacked off in my Fa study. I couldn't focus while studying Teacher's lectures and dozed off at times. I was unable to look inward and didn't do well with the three things that practitioners are supposed to do. After so many years, I still didn't know how to cultivate and did not measure up to the Fa's standards.
I needed to solidly study the Fa, understand the Fa on a rational level and cultivate myself well. Once I understood this, my main consciousness became stronger, and I was able to study the Fa with a calm mind. I came to understand the Fa more and was then able to look inward and enlarge the capacity of compassion in my heart - everything was getting better.
When I was sharing experiences of our Fa study group with other practitioners one time, one practitioner from the local area, whom I have a very close relationship with, suddenly yelled at me in rage: “Others don't learn as well as you? What's so amazing about you...?”, and shouted many other words that were difficult to listen to. I was shocked, and thought: “What is happening? How did I provoke her?” I was upset, but then realized that she was helping me to improve my xinxing.
“But normally when a problem arises, if it does not irritate a person psychologically, it does not count or is useless and cannot make him or her improve.” (Zhuan Falun)
I didn't say anything to this practitioner, and decided to look inward. I was not very solid in my Fa study, and became upset whenever I thought about the incident.
Another time, when I was discussing things related to cultivation, the same practitioner shouted at me, as she thought that I was picking on her, bullying her. She was very upset, and I felt sorry for her. I didn’t know what was wrong or understand how I had provoked her again.
Since I am a practitioner, I should not blame other practitioners, so it must be something that I didn't do well. I needed to find out what it was and then rectify myself according to the Fa's principles.
I remembered Teacher's words:
“...from now on when you come across a conflict you should not consider it a coincidence. This is because when a conflict occurs, it will take place unexpectedly. But that is not a coincidence - it is for improving your xinxing. As long as you treat yourself as a practitioner, you can handle it properly.” (Zhuan Falun)
I calmed down rather quickly, and deeply understood that we should study the Fa more and truly cultivate ourselves.
As a result of elevating my xinxing through Fa study, everything is changing around me, including the environment. My family is now living a harmonious life; we respect each other and discuss things before decisions are made. My daughter-in-law began taking care of our daily needs and often bought clothes for us. Also, the practitioner who once shouted at me and I now get along very well. We study the Fa and diligently cultivate together.
Please kindly point out any shortcomings.