I Know It Is Difficult to Obtain the Fa and I Must Cultivate Diligently
1. Obtaining the Fa
I am a new practitioner who obtained the Fa in March, 2011. Each day, I improve under the light of Master's compassion. I feel as though every molecule and particle in me is filled with joy and happiness. I thank Master for not giving up on a being like me, who was so poisoned by the lies instilled by the evil Party. I also want to thank my fellow practitioners, who did not give up on saving me.
Prior to obtaining Falun Dafa, I had always believed that I was protected by gods and Buddhas. I remember that there was a time when I accidentally dropped a knife from the table to the ground. The knife was going straight into my foot. As the knife was about to hit my foot, it turned so that I was hit with the other side of the knife. It only caused a little scratch and a bit of bleeding. Now I understand that Master has always been looking after me, even before I obtained the Fa. Later, someone asked me to worship in a particular religion. I refused and said, “I only believe in gods and Buddhas.”
I had a colleague whom I'll refer to here as “A.” Everyone knew that she practiced Falun Gong. She was very kind and gentle. She was over 40 years old, but her skin looked soft and rosy. She always had a smile on her face. She didn't seem to have any worries. All of my colleagues liked her and wanted to be with her. I was one of them. But when we talked about spiritual beliefs and similar matters, I changed the topic, because what I saw on TV was all negative news. I had a friend whose wife was jailed for practicing Falun Gong. When she was released, she went around and told people about the persecution of Falun Gong. My family had always tried to tell me to cherish life and live well. Gradually, I was blocked by all kinds of worries, and I began distancing myself from her and eventually avoided her altogether.
When my mother was still alive, she worshiped all kinds of spirits. I knew I had spirit possession. My face looked dark and yellowish. I felt very tired every day and only wanted to sleep. I sometimes wanted to sleep even when I stood still. I had nightmares. I couldn't focus at work and oftentimes showed up late. My speech was illogical. My colleagues didn't like to chat with me. It was only colleague A who didn't mind talking to me. She sometimes showed me some poems from her cell phone (I later learned they were written by Master). I sometimes felt shocked by what I read. At times, I got lost. I sometimes felt asleep as I was reading them.
Although I worked with colleague A for several years, I didn't obtain the Fa. In March 2011, I ran into some personal problems. I felt as though I was collapsing. Colleague A took my hand and said, “Do you believe me? If you do, recite 'Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!' Everything will be taken care of.” She continued, “I know you have spirit possession. It is dangerous for you to continue living like this.” I began to believe what she said and started to recite 'Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!' Miracles appeared! That night, I had a dream. I dreamed about a huge snake being severed into a few segments, which were still crawling. The dream was so vivid. Next morning, I told Practitioner A what I dreamed last night. She said that Master had helped me cleanse my body (of the spirit possession). She was very happy for me.
Practitioner B, who had also recently obtained the Fa, frequently told me about the beauty of Dafa. One day, practitioner A brought me an MP3 player which had Master's lectures on it. I listened to the lectures three times in a row. I had different feelings each time I listened to them. I felt as though I was bathed in Master's great compassion. I couldn't put into words how wonderful that feeling was. I went to practitioner A's house and learned the fifth exercise. That day, I felt I had a Falun rotating in my abdominal area. I also borrowed Zhuan Falun from her and thirstily began reading it.
2. Studying the Fa
I study the Fa every day. Often, as I was reading, I felt very regretful that I obtained the Fa late. How wonderful Dafa is! I kept reading and reading. I sometimes read until midnight. Tears streamed down my face. I thought about how I had accumulated a lot of karma in the past and how Master has suffered for us. Why was I so lost? Why didn't I obtain the Fa earlier? When I fell asleep that night, I felt a gush of heat traveling through my whole body, from top to bottom. I knew it was Master who performed Guan Ding for me to purify my body. I also dreamed about a swamp gully being filled by a big bulldozer, leaving only a little bit unfilled. There were small shrimps and fish in the water. There were four big pillars next to it. A huge snake was nailed to two of the pillars. Now, I realize that Master had purified my entire body.
One day, I respectfully put my Dafa book on the table. I burned three sticks of incense and said to Master, “Thank you Master, for waking up a lost life like me. I will strive vigorously in my cultivation!” After that, I turned around and saw my 9-year-old son standing behind me. He asked, “Mom, whom did you just burn incense to?” I was taken off guard. Because of my notion and attachment, I told him, “Mom burned incense for a god.”
One day, after I got home from work, I saw some smoke coming out of my room. My son was imitating me and burning incense. I asked him, “Son, what are you doing? Whom are you burning incense to?” He smiled and said, “I am also burning incense to whoever Mom was burning them to!” I came to the understanding at once that my son also wanted to obtain the Fa!
I started telling my son how I obtained the Fa and how wonderful Dafa is. He was eager to read Master's books. Since then, he wants to read Dafa books before he does his homework. One day, he read three lectures. The next day, he scored 98 out of 100 on his math exam. His average score in math was around 70 to 80 in the past. We truly felt the supernatural power of Dafa.
One day, I was studying the Fa with my son. I found a lot of golden threads around him. They were glittering and bright under the light. When I examined him closely, I didn't see anything. I enlightened that Master had let me see something from another dimension to encourage us to do better. We have bathed in the beauty of Dafa everyday.
My husband could naturally sit in a double-lotus posture. Sometimes when he chatted with his friends, he sat in a double-lotus position and said it was more comfortable for him to sit that way. I know he has a good base for practicing cultivation. I have repeatedly spoken with him about the beauty of Dafa, but because he was deeply poisoned by the evil party's indoctrination, he is temporarily unable to start cultivation in Dafa. He sometimes creates problems for us. But I know it is my xinxing test and I must not be too pushy. On the day I learned the fifth exercise, my husband had a dream. He dreamed about an old immortal who gave him a round thing. He received it with both hands. I have faith that one day, he will obtain the Fa.
In order to create a cultivation environment for new practitioners like me, our compassionate Master arranged for a fellow practitioner who had also obtained the Fa recently to move and live next to me as my neighbor. Because of this, we both had the environment to “Study the Fa and gain the Fa, Focus on how you study and cultivate,” as said in “Solid Cultivation”, Hong Yin. We go to work and get off work together. We study the Fa and practice the exercises together. We also have a veteran practitioner (Practitioner A) who is ready to help and guide us whenever we need her. We go to her house to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts every week. We strive forward rigorously and diligently in cultivation. I was barely able to sit in the single-lotus posture a while ago, but now I can sit in double-lotus for an hour. We go out together to clarify the truth and save people everyday. We try to convince them to quit the evil Chinese Communist Party. One lady started cultivation as a result of our truth-clarification to her. I always feel as though I don't have enough time and I still have a lot of Dafa books left unfinished. I feel a sense of urgency.
On May 13, 2011 (Master's birthday), as a fellow practitioner and I were walking home after work, we were reciting “Hong Yin.” All of a sudden, we saw a huge Falun rotating on our right side until we went into our houses. Later on, the fellow practitioner came out of her house and she still saw the Falun, which looked brighter than a flashlight, rotating on the top of the tree next to her house. We knew it was Master who was encouraging us to do well.
After I started cultivation, I underwent a lot of changes. My skin looks soft and bright. I feel very energetic, even if I just sleep for five or six hours. The low self-esteem I used to have disappeared. My mind is clear and logical. My colleagues are all greatly surprised by the changes I have undergone. I proudly tell them that all these changes come from my practicing cultivation in Dafa. This has also helped to clear away the misconceptions they have about Dafa. At home, I get along well with my mother-in-law and live harmoniously with everyone under the roof. My son also uses the Fa principles to measure his conduct. One day, as I was clarifying the truth to an ordinary person, he thought I had a lot of knowledge and an advanced degree. In fact, I only have a middle school diploma. I know all of this wisdom came from my compassionate Master and Dafa. Being bathed in Dafa has made me one of the most blessed persons in the world. Everything that happens to me is wonderful, including the tribulations I encounter with my colleagues or family members.
I can never repay Master's grace. I will not let Master down and do the Three Things well. Again, my utmost gratitude to Master and fellow practitioners who have assisted me along the way.