(Clearwisdom.net) When I reflect on the path I have traveled over the past decade, I know that I have made it through only because of Master’s guidance and selfless help from fellow practitioners. At the same time, I have walked my own path. Even though it was bumpy, I want to share what I have learned from my experience over the past year or so.
A phone conversation between another practitioner and me was tapped during early October 2009. The other practitioner’s child was a student at a university in Beijing, and she was planning to accompany her child back to school. The local officials eavesdropped on her phone calls, and feared that she and I would go to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong. They ordered my work superiors to put us under house arrest during the holiday between October 2 and October 7, 2009. We exposed their illegal act on the Minghui website, and other practitioners made flyers and distributed them with the officials’ names on them, including our section head. He responded by calling the police, and I was arrested. I talked to everyone about Falun Gong wherever I was taken to and helped many people quit the Party when I was held at a custody center.
They attempted to sentence me to prison after 15 days of detention. I realized that it was the pursuit of comfort and lust on my part that led to this persecution. I sent righteous thoughts to disintegrate the evils persecuting me. My belief in Dafa never wavered, even when the guards hit me so hard that blood gushed from my mouth. I thought, “Let the pain go back to the assailants,” and I shouted, “Falun Dafa is good” all night long.
Other practitioners sent righteous thoughts and encouraged my parents to demand my release; they went to the police department several times. Later on an official told them that my case had been submitted to an agency at a higher level, and the only thing left was to wait for a sentence. My parents hesitated at that point, but other practitioners kept encouraging them, asking them not to believe the lies and press on. Eventually they did. They told the officials what a good daughter I was. The police had already learned a great deal about Falun Gong due to continuous efforts from practitioners over the past several years, so they actually protected me and thereby chose a good future for themselves. I was unconditionally released several days later.
My parents changed their attitude after I returned home. They were moved by the selflessness of Dafa practitioners. They told me, “They were sending righteous thoughts in front of the police station in the bitter cold.” They didn’t know what “sending righteous thoughts” meant, but they knew it was to help me. They were touched that everyone pulled together to help me. My father also said, “Someone came to our home several times.”
This incident shows that if we do well, our families will work with us, and if the incarcerated practitioner has powerful righteous thoughts, then he or she can get out. It is also a process of rescuing the practitioner’s family members. If we do well, we can rescue more people. On the surface it looks like my parents, who are in their 70s, went to the police department over and over, which moved the police chief, but in fact we all worked together and disintegrated the evil in other dimensions. This outcome was the cumulative effect of practitioners exposing the evil over the years.
Whenever there is an incident of persecution, we would always expose it--no matter how small, and overseas practitioners would call the perpetrators. In the meantime we handed out flyers and put up posters to suppress the evil. Because we did well in exposing the evil, the police know that we are good people and no longer actively persecute us. One practitioner was sentenced to forced labor in 2008 and was already sent to the labor camp when our local Domestic Security Section deputy head told the labor camp doctor that she was in poor health. The camp officials did not admit her. Later on, other practitioners spoke with this deputy section head and helped him quit the Party. He recently applied for and received a transfer from the domestic security section, so he is no longer involved with the work unit in charge of persecution.
After I returned to work, my superior's attitude had changed. When I had previously spoken with him, he always refused to listen, but during my detention he got dozens of text messages and phone calls from other practitioners, which had a big impact on him. He said, “You guys are good people.”
This tribulation made me realize my gap. All the tests I encountered during cultivation were caused by lust. I did not eliminate it with righteous thoughts, so the evil seized the opportunity to persecute me. Master told us to completely negate everything arranged by the old forces and not even acknowledge their existence. I keenly feel the incredibly serious nature of cultivation after the problems that have occurred over the past year--that one can self-destruct if a single thought goes astray. The reason some major problems happened to me during this final phase of Fa rectification are due to my poor Fa study and lack of sending righteous thoughts frequently enough, which means I failed in doing two of the three things; the outcome of the third thing, truth clarification, would then automatically be affected.
Right now the practitioners in my area are sending righteous thoughts between 8 p.m. and 9 p.m. daily, to disintegrate all of the brainwashing centers in the country. I am also participating. The evil factors used to exist in my dimension and were persecuting me and other practitioners because I did not send enough righteous thoughts. How can I say that I’ve done well assisting Master to rectify the Fa when I slacked off on such an important task?
I have provided technical support for local practitioners over the past two years. Over time, others have come to rely on me, which may be another reason for the persecution against me. It is now easy to have machines repaired in stores, and safety is no longer an issue. Moreover, other practitioners need to walk their own paths, and Dafa material production sites need to identify their own problems and become self-reliant.
The fact that I was persecuted twice was quite unsettling to some who used to think I had cultivated well and were surprised to see that I actually had such huge gaps. I dug deeper and found I was also giving technical work priority, which took time away from Fa study and sending righteous thoughts. It could not go on like that for the aforementioned reasons. If all production sites were independent and everyone was using their own machines, i.e. Fa weapons, then there would be less problems. Also, the evil would no longer focus on tech support practitioners, who would otherwise affect a large area if persecuted.
Now I spend more time on Fa study, doing the exercises and sending righteous thoughts. Certain things still require special knowledge, such as installing a satellite dish for NTDTV reception and voice message support, but they are not difficult. The more people participate, the safer it is for everyone.
I mostly use my cell phone to tell people about the persecution, as it is easy for people to accept the truth from that angle. I also ask them to read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and to withdraw from the Party’s organizations.
We should do our best with all projects. I had a breakthrough this year with online truth clarification after I upgraded my equipment and Internet speed, and I massively emailed information in the form of pictures, because visual materials are direct and effective. I also added the Nine Commentaries and anti-Internet blocking software as email attachments. Continuously doing away with the information blockade is also a cultivation process, during which I have improved my xinxing.
I have also matured doing other things, such as face-to-face truth clarification and handing out flyers. However, I am still not doing everything I can to rescue people and am easily satisfied with my results, which falls short of Master’s requirements. I will completely disintegrate all of the evil’s arrangements through Fa study, send righteous thoughts and rescue more sentient beings to fulfill my mission of assisting Master to rectify the Fa.
