College Junior: Enlightenment and Gratitude That Came Late
(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Dafa in March of 2010, and I am a college junior. Although I have only practiced for one year, during this year I transformed myself into a pure and clean Falun Gong practitioner. I feel very light-hearted. I was cleansed both physically and mentally. There have been fundamental changes to the way I perceive the world. My perception of life and my values have changed. Dafa has answered many questions that I had. My horizon and my heart have broadened, and I have learned how to be a sincere, kind, and tolerant person. At the same time, I learned about what I was living for and why I came to this world. I no longer live in confusion. It is difficult to describe with words my gratitude towards Master for his compassionate salvation.
Actually, I first heard of Falun Gong when I was in grade 1 or 2. At that time, the persecution against Dafa had not started. My sister was the first one in my immediate family to start cultivating. Before she started practicing Falun Dafa, my sister had to stop school and rest at home due to a medical condition. The doctors were unable to diagnose the illness. She took many medicines, saw many doctors, and tried many treatments, but did not get better. She found it difficult to withstand the mental pressure. Fortunately, during this period, our cousin introduced Falun Gong to her, and my sister started practicing. Master helped to cleanse her body. Now, whenever she recalls how Master helped to cleanse her body, how He pulled her out of hell, and then cleansed her, she still cries. Later, my sister miraculously recovered. It was like she had a new lease on life and was full of energy. She returned to school and successfully finished her university studies.
My whole family witnessed the miracle that my sister experienced. My mother and two aunts also started practicing Falun Gong. At that time I was still very young, but with their encouragement, I also started to do the exercises with them. I would go with them to watch Master’s lectures. I did not understand the content at the time, but a seed had been planted in my heart.
Soon after, the persecution started, and we lost the environment and freedom to practice. My sister went with fellow practitioners to Beijing to appeal and was sentenced to three years in prison. My family withstood the pressure and persecution from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Due to this pressure, my father did not allow my mother and me to continue our practice. At that time, we did not know to study the Fa, and we also did not know what it meant to be steadfast. We did not even understand what cultivation was. My sister was later released, but she went to Shenzhen to explain the facts about Falun Dafa and was once again sentenced to three years of imprisonment. During the Chinese New Year in 2008, she managed to leave with righteous thoughts. The whole family was shocked. This is because a few days earlier, our family had gone to visit her, and the 610 Office police still had her detained in a brainwashing facility. The police told us that if she did not write the guarantee letter, she would not be released. However, she did not write the letter, yet she was released so soon in a righteous manner. As a result, I saw some kind of strength in her. Although I found it difficult to describe the strength, I felt that she was extraordinary.
During the period when my sister was imprisoned, I gradually grew up. However, due to the constant lies spread by the evil Party, I did not have an understanding of Buddhas, deities, and gods. I felt that practical, material things were the only real things in life. When my sister urged me to renounce my membership in the Party's affiliated organizations, I found it unbelievable. Because my mind was poisoned by the CCP's lies, I was like many other university graduates in China who had lost their fundamental ability to differentiate bad from good and kindness from evil. Even my morals, conscience, and righteousness were buried. If the matter did not affect me directly, I would not be concerned. I was unwilling to understand what was happening in society, and I could not recognize the evil nature of the CCP. But in my heart I had this thought: “Falun Gong is good.” This was because I could sense it from my sister; I could also tell that Falun Gong is good, but exactly why Falun Gong is good, I did not know. I could still remember the exercises very clearly. But I felt that there was a wall blocking me.
In March 2010, Master compassionately woke up the side of me that understood things. Before then, I had the same dream many times: I dreamt that I fell from a very, very high place, and I was very frightened. Each time after I had this dream, I woke up in fear. After studying the Fa, I slowly understood that perhaps the dream was Master trying to enlighten me. Thus I had this wish that I wanted to cultivate. At that time, I actually had an impure human heart and purpose; subconsciously I felt that Dafa could help me become healthy. When the winter holidays ended and I returned to school, I brought the book Zhuan Falun with me. In this way, it seemed very natural, but I had finally come back to Dafa.
Master’s compassion and the miracles of Dafa were experienced by me within a few days after I returned to cultivation. I witnessed it first hand, and I really felt it. Before, I was one of those students who got up late. One reason was because I was lazy. The other reason was that I lacked energy. I always felt dizzy, and when I was studying, I felt sleepy. But after I started to practice the exercises for 2-3 days, this sleepiness disappeared all at once, without me noticing it. From then on, I was the first to wake up in my building. My quality of sleep was amazingly good. When I was in class, my brain did not feel tired, and my study efficiency was very good. I no longer thought about the messy things I did before, and my heart was calm and peaceful. I never felt so lighthearted. This kind of fundamental change really surprised me. The miracle of Dafa gave me a kind of excitement that is difficult to describe with words. I felt joy, and I felt like shouting to the whole world, “Falun Dafa is good! I am so fortunate!”
There was one occasion when I was blow-drying my hair, and suddenly the hair dryer was smoking and shooting electric sparks. There was a burning smell, and I still had no idea what was happening when an energy very quickly made me put down the hair dryer. The electric sparks were still flashing on my fingers, yet I was not hurt, and I was not frightened. All the electrical appliances in the whole building were affected during this incident. However, I was safe and sound. I knew that it was Master’s compassion and protection, and that I had repaid a debt. Later with more Fa-study and exercise, I felt that I was bathing in the compassion of Buddha every day. I felt very joyful. Master gave me a healthy body and taught me how to be compassionate.
The drastic changes in me, physically and mentally, made my understanding of Dafa remain on the emotional plane. I was thankful to Master due to the physical benefits I experienced. As I studied the Fa more, I realized that I should improve my understanding to the rational and mental plane. I should understand the Fa from Fa’s perspective. When I read the articles on the Clearwisdom website written by such pure and kind practitioners, I am very moved. Although I was late in starting my cultivation, I was touched by the practitioners’ compassion and selflessness. At the same time, I saw the gap between myself and them. I could only transfer my self-reproach of starting cultivation late to become my driving force to be more diligent in cultivation. I will not let Master down.