Righteous Thoughts Changed My Home Environment
(Clearwisdom.net) I have been practicing Falun Dafa since1996. I have persevered through many difficulties and followed Teacher to today. I was reborn: I went from being an ignorant person to one of Teacher's Dafa disciples. Before, I had many difficulties for almost my entire life. I pursued things that I wanted but got nothing in the end. All of my struggling throughout my life eventually led to my developing many illnesses. I hated society, as well as my life, and dreamed about another way to live. After learning Falun Dafa and starting to cultivate myself according to Dafa's principles, I realized I had found my Teacher and the true path for my life that I had dreamed about every day before. Heaven had bestowed great fortune upon me, and I suddenly felt that I was incredibly lucky. I made up my mind to cultivate diligently and return home with Teacher no matter how many difficulties or tribulations I encountered on my journey of cultivation.
In the beginning of my cultivation, I couldn't imagine how difficult the path of cultivation would be. At first I thought the leg pain during the sitting meditation was already very difficult, but later I realized that cultivating one's xinxing is even more difficult to endure than pain in the legs. On July 20, 1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began persecuting Falun Dafa practitioners. Practitioners cultivate themselves diligently while peacefully resisting the persecution. No one could ever imagine how difficult it is unless he truly cultivated himself in this environment. During the past ten years, the practitioners in China have constantly faced the test of life and death with every step they take forward. I would like to share my experience of making a breakthrough in my home environment and overcoming illness karma on my journey of validating the Fa.
I am the only person in my entire family who cultivates in Falun Dafa. My husband and my children have each read Zhuan Falun and know that Falun Dafa is good, but they did not start practicing. On July 20, 1999, the CCP's persecution of Falun Dafa started. My family was filled with fear. I was recognized as a good person at home and at work before, but suddenly I became everyone's enemy. My husband gave me the cold should and shouted at me every day. My children were also discriminated against at work. They were frequently sent home from work, and they were forced to try to persuade me to give up Falun Dafa. After I began practicing, I didn't need a single pill or need to spend a penny on medical expenses. My illnesses, from which I suffered for dozens of years, had all disappeared. I am very healthy now and I can do any type of work. Nonetheless, my employer sent three people to watch me every day and reported everything I did. They also tried to force me to write a so-called repentance statement promising to give up my practice every week. I remained very calm about all of this because I had experienced the CCP's political persecution in the past, and I knew this was how they persecuted people. No matter what they did, I continued studying the Fa and practicing the exercises every day, just as before. I didn't stop for a single day, and I had no doubts about Dafa at all.
On September 9, 1999, I was reported to the police, arrested, and taken to the police department, because I read lectures that were passed from another practitioner. (Afterward it was confirmed that it was a fake lecture.) An officer interrogated me, "Do you know that you broke the law by reading the Falun Gong lectures?" I said, "Even a normal person should have a conscience. I didn't spend a penny, but my Teacher cured all of my illnesses. I will never forget that Teacher saved me." The officer then said, "Yes, I agree." I was surprised to hear what he said. Then I understood that he was also benevolent. I was finally released that same night.
I later started going out to distribute truth-clarifying materials and post fliers. I was under a lot of pressure and interference from my family. My husband, my three children, their spouses, and I all earned salaries. My husband was afraid that they might be implicated due to my practice, which would cause them to lose their wages. He firmly prevented me from going out and forced me to write two proof letters, to him and to my children. They planned to use the letters to apply for a formal separation from me and thus not be implicated. Only then was I given a little freedom. I was sad that, due to the pressure of the persecution, my family chose money and self interest instead of their family member. However, Teacher saw my firm belief in Dafa. During the next few years, I even ran into a few dangerous situations, but I remained safe with Teacher's protection. In late 2004, the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published. I had my family members read it. They all said that the Nine Commentaries was excellent and that Falun Gong was really great, so I took this opportunity to clarify the truth to them and let them read Teacher's new articles. I also successfully persuaded them to quit the CCP and its related organizations.
In 2005 we started to massively distribute the Nine Commentaries. In my local area, the practitioners printed the book at a large materials production site, but we couldn't find a safe place to bind the book. I decided to do the binding at my home. In the evening, I discussed the idea with my husband. He immediately got very angry and said, "You really don't care about your life? If the CCP catches you, they will kill you. It is absolutely not possible." I did not sleep well at all that night. However the next morning when my husband got up, his attitude had changed completely. He said, "You can do it at our home. I will find another place to hide." So we bound the Nine Commentaries and other truth-clarification materials at my home for over a year. Later my husband occasionally helped us to do the grocery shopping, cooking, and transporting of the materials. My husband had a bad temper and often got angry at me. In the past, I argued with him when he got angry, but after practicing Falun Gong, I tried to maintain my xinxing and did not argue with him. Sometimes I could not control my heart and argued with him, but I took the initiative to apologize to him afterward. Sometimes I could not easily communicate with him so I wrote a letter to him and calmly clarified the truth in the letter. He said that what I wrote was right and he was very affected by my letter. During the past few years I often wrote letters to my husband and my children, putting the informational materials on their bags to read. They gradually came to understand the truth about the persecution more and more, as well as the greatness of Falun Dafa and the evil of the CCP.
In 2009, my husband changed, almost as if he had become a different person. Every day he voluntarily prepared meals, did the grocery shopping, purchased materials, and cleaned the floor. I wanted to do it myself but he said, "You don't need to do this. You did too much in the past. I need to make up for what I owe you. You only need to do your things well (meaning the three things). More encouragingly, he learned how to look inward. Every time he felt unwell, he said he must have done something wrong or said something wrong before, which generated the karma, and he said that Teacher was eliminating his karma. I took this opportunity to encourage him, buy him new things, and make him happy every day. When he was out and bumped into an acquaintance, the acquaintance asked him how I was doing. He said that I practiced Falun Gong and was very healthy. When he watched TV, he talked to himself saying, "There are few good people in the world. People either steal money or cheat each other out of money. Falun Gong practitioners are the best people. They spend their own money to save people, and they do it day and night."
During past few years, my husband has become very healthy. He has a physical exam every year, and all his tests are normal. I told him, "Dafa bestowed good fortune on you. You see, our entire family gets along well, and the children are very filial. Our grandsons and granddaughters are all good students. This is all because of Dafa. One person in the family cultivates Dafa and the whole family benefits from it." He agreed sincerely. As long as we clarify the truth with our true hearts, Teacher will help us. Dafa is rectifying the cosmos and the sentient beings' hearts. We are helping Teacher with the Fa-rectification.
In April 2006, I suddenly had the symptoms of illness karma. I had had a kidney infection when I was young and nearly lost my life, but after practicing Falun Gong, my illnesses all disappeared and I became very energetic. However, this sudden illness karma struck me down. I lay in bed and felt very ill. The second and third day, there was blood in my urine. I had the symptoms of fever and my body trembled. I realized it was interference caused by the evil. I started to look inward and realized that I had recently done some things and had some human notions that did not comply with the Fa. Even though I had found the reason, I didn't even have the strength to send forth righteous thoughts. I was in a lot of pain and had to stay in bed. My husband was scared when he saw me like this. He asked me to go to the hospital, but I refused. He then took a sample of my urine to the hospital without telling me. The test results showed that my white blood cell count was extremely high. He asked my son to bring medicine home for me, but I firmly refused to take it. I knew that this was not an illness. They didn't force me take the medicine. During the night, I couldn't take it any longer. I tried very hard to get up and position myself in front of Teacher's photo. I pressed my hands together in front of my chest in the heshi position and asked Teacher for help. I firmly denied the old forces' persecution. I firmly made up my mind to do what Teacher asked us to do and follow Teacher during Fa-Rectification. I then laid down on the bed again, but I suddenly realized that I couldn't lay down. I needed to sit up and study the Fa.
"When disciples have ample righteous thoughts
Master has the power to turn back the tide"
("The Master-Disciple Bond," from Hong Yin Vol. II)
I held the book Zhuan Falun in both hands, which were shaking. I couldn't even see the characters in the book clearly. However, I was very familiar with Zhuan Falun, and I was able to read for over a hour, by which time my hands shook less. After studying the Fa for two to three hours, my hands stopped shaking altogether, and I could feel I was a little stronger. From 3:00 a.m. until 8:00 p.m. that night, I read the entire book. My illness karma was then eliminated. Teacher saved my life again.
I am a senior Falun Dafa practitioner. I cannot neglect my cultivation and I cannot deviate from the Fa. The old forces' persecution of Dafa disciples is a difficult test to overcome. I even saw a few senior practitioners lose their lives due to the old forces' persecution. We must walk on the righteous path and we must have strong righteous thoughts. We must do the three things well and can't just go through the motions. Otherwise, we will have deceived ourselves and deceived Teacher. It is my wish that all practitioners will advance diligently together as one body.