Letting Go of Grudges and Treating Fellow Practitioners Benevolently
(Clearwisdom.net) When I read "Be More Diligent," I was quite moved when Teacher said:
"...the number of lives to be saved before the final moment arrives has not reached the amount it should; and that there is still a portion of Dafa disciples that hasn't kept up. That is the key reason why the end of this undertaking still hasn't been enacted."
I then thought about what the consequences might be for practitioners who don't do well during the Fa rectification.
I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1998, but because my belief in Teacher and Dafa wasn't strong enough, I was arrested and persecuted. Due to the pressure and torment I received in prison, I did something a practitioner should not do. I not only said bad words about Teacher, but also revealed the names of fellow practitioners to the authorities. When I was released from prison, I kept thinking, "No one will ever forgive me." I thought that I was the most unforgivable being who had ever existed.
I was very scared when the police arrested me at home. When I was interrogated at the police station, and I was told who had informed on me. I was shocked, because this practitioner was the one I most trusted and respected. He was considered to be the most diligent practitioner among us. I later met up with him at a detention center, as the two of us were locked in the same cell. He admitted that he had given my name to the police, and tried to explain why he had done it. My heart was broken. I lost my righteous thoughts, and hatred and many other negative thoughts raged in my mind.
Whenever I thought of that practitioner, hatred enveloped me. Sometimes I asked myself, "Do you want to keep going on like this? I can't let go of the hatred in my heart, but I should be cultivating myself!" After studying the Fa, and with help from fellow practitioners, I gradually improved my understanding of the Fa. After many years, the hatred dissolved and my attachments disappeared.
I found that selfishness was still deeply rooted in me and realized it was the nature of the old forces. From the very beginning, I had not considered the other practitioner's perspective. His nature had an element of cowardice, and he couldn't let go of the attachment to his wife, whom he had just married. All these human attachments that he hadn't eliminated gave the old forces the ability to persecute him.
If all practitioners had used their righteous thoughts to help him, the results would have been different. When he did something against practitioners and Dafa, he must have suffered deeply. Besides, my trust and respect for him also contributed to his tribulations, because there should be no emotional feelings among practitioners. Only when we continually cultivate our minds and look within whenever we face difficulties and tribulations, can we remain steadfast and calm.
Fellow practitioners who stepped on the wrong path, I hope your hearts are on the Fa. Don't forget our prehistorical vows. Let us walk well on our paths during the final stage of the Fa rectification and follow Teacher home.