(Clearwisdom.net) Last evening when I studied the Fa at 11:00 p.m., I felt sleepy and I could not concentrate. I thought that it was my thought karma that was making me drowsy. My human notions surfaced. I did not eliminate them, but instead, thought that I should simply take a nap and then get up to send forth righteous thoughts. I lay down and fell asleep. As a result, I did not wake up when the alarm clock rang.
When I sent forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m., my state was not good at all as I still felt sleepy like I did the previous evening. After I sent forth righteous thoughts for a while with my eyes opened, my mind was still not clear. I did not fortify my will to continue sending forth righteous thoughts, but instead I went back to sleep.
I immediately had a dream. I dreamed that I was in a strange city and wanted to go home, but I could not find a bus that would take me home, no matter how hard I tried. I cried loudly and felt very sorrowful. When I woke up, my head felt very heavy.
I think that Master used this dream to give me a hint that if I slack off in my Xinxing cultivation, I would not be able to return home.
I started to read Zhuan Falun. I flipped to one page and a section of Master's Fa came to my eyes,
"Furthermore, I am telling you that because you are Falun Dafa disciples, I will tell you these words: 'Never read those crooked qigong books.' I am not referring to the foregoing classic texts, but to those sham qigong books written by people today. You should not even open them. If the idea flashes in your mind that 'well, this sentence seems reasonable,' with this, the possessing spirits or animals in the book will attach to your body." (Zhuan Falun)
I have understood from the Fa that being Fa-rectification Dafa disciples, our acknowledging everyday people's thoughts, notions, and attachments is like a cultivator's reading crooked qigong books and then incurring animal or spirit possessions, after which demons would come to interfere with our doing the three things. If we cannot correct our inappropriate thoughts according to the Fa and let them run rampant, the evil will find a chance to exploit the opportunity to persecute us. If we pursue comfort and do not let go of this attachment, we will not be able to go home or assist Master in the human world.
I wrote this article, on one hand, to strengthen my own righteous thoughts and on the other, to remind those practitioners who have similar notions that we should not slack off on our requirements for ourselves, as cultivation is really a very serious matter.
