Master said,

"always cultivating as if you were just starting will surely result in achieving your ultimate rank."

("Fa Teaching at the 2009 Greater New York International Fa Conference," June 7, 2009)

Master also said,

"One must begin by being a good person. One should always improve xinxing, always suffer hardships, ascend constantly in cultivation, and always seek to upgrade xinxing, even though one cannot see one's own gong. Cultivating is most difficult for such a person, and he or she must be someone with great inborn quality. This person will practice cultivation for many years without knowing anything." ("Lecture Nine" of Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)

My recent cultivation state has been like this. I feel very numb on the matter of saving people. I have been feeling myself and wanting to get some relief. I am attached to time, leading me to feel that that there is still a while before the end of Fa rectification, thus I have the incorrect thought that it is alright for me to rest a bit. Initially, this attachment was minor. As time passed, though, it gradually became worse and in the end, this demonic thought started to directly project itself into my mind, leading to sluggishness in my cultivation. Although this state lasted only several hours each time, it recurs once a while. This is something that I have never before experienced on my cultivation path.

In my fellow practitioners' eyes, I am diligent and steadfast. With things that Master wants us to do, even the more difficult of them, I always charge to the forefront and work on them without concern for myself. I always said, "I do whatever Master wants us to do. Regarding the persecution, this thing or that thing, I have no time to think about them. I want to finish the work first." For example, each time I take with me several hundred copies of the truth-clarification materials and finish distributing them all at once. Next time, I again take several hundred copies and still finish without stopping. When rescuing detained practitioners, I rely on my instant spurts of courage. Under Master's protection, I have gone through years of cultivation like this. It is by charging forward without hesitation and relying on short-term courage that I have "spurted" and "braved" in past years. But now I have started to slack off and my pursuit of comfort has surfaced. This, in fact, is because I have failed to cultivate myself sufficiently while doing Dafa work.

Of course, I have persevered with my journey of cultivation because part of me steadfastly believes in the Fa. Now as I notice this shortcoming, I need to eliminate it in order to walk my future path steadily, be a qualified particle of Dafa, and be able to validate the Fa and save more sentient beings.

July 22, 2009