New Practitioner: Upgrading Myself by Clarifying the Truth
(Clearwisdom.net) I am a new Falun Dafa practitioner who learned Dafa in 2008. At first I wasn't diligent enough in studying the Fa and doing the exercises, and had all the kinds of attachments. Especially when it came to improving my moral character, I found it very hard to do.
My mother, who is a veteran practitioner, told me that Teacher Li said, that new practitioners should share their experiences on the Minghui/Clearwisdom website. This was really hard for me to do because I had not talked to many people about Falun Dafa or the persecution in China. After studying the Fa, my mother used to give both my sister and my daughter (who are both practitioners) some flyers to hand out. We always relied on her to hand out Falun Gong materials. When I read about new practitioners clarifying the facts to so many and so well, and our fellow practitioners being persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), I felt terrible. This realization woke me up, and I wanted to help make truth-clarifying materials. Teacher Li also said that truth-clarifying materials production sites should blossom across China.
I haven't worked for many years, and my husband is the only breadwinner in our family, so I decided to discuss this with him first. I told him that I was blessed because I learned Falun Dafa. All my gynecological diseases and dizziness that I had before disappeared, and our daughter's rhinitis was gone after learning Falun Gong. I asked if we could buy a printer to print Falun Gong materials.
I thought that he would be angry, since my mother had been illegally persecuted several times, but instead he said yes immediately and bought me a printer that afternoon. I realized that once you have this one pure wish to help, this great Fa will help you all the way.
I didn't know how to use the printer, so I asked my uncle (also a practitioner) for help. In the beginning because of my ignorance, an ink cartridge was wasted without producing any usable materials. After that I printed my first copy and felt it was such a treasure. Only when I had to print all by myself was I able to understand fellow practitioners' diligence. It helped me to give up the attachment of being irresponsible and for that I am truly grateful.
I can now give my mother and my sister Falun Gong materials that I make myself. In the evening, when my husband and I are taking a walk, I always have the materials with me and give them out door to door. My daughter is sometimes with me to hand out the materials too. When we go shopping during the daytime, I put them in stores where people can find them. I also put out truth-clarifying stickers whenever I have time.
Sometimes I feel afraid when I give out truth-clarifying materials. But my husband always says to me, "What have you to fear! You are here to help them understand so they have no regrets in the future about this deadly persecution." He also applies the stickers with great pride. I feel happy that all the members of my family are aware of Dafa's goodness.
Before producing the materials I would say in my heart to Teacher, "I still can't clarify the truth face to face right now, but I can distribute materials. I will help people learn the facts. People will read the materials and realize the truth about Dafa and the persecution. That will make it a lot easier for fellow practitioners to clarify the truth to them face to face."
Now I only think about how to do my best as a practitioner by looking within to eliminate my attachments and constantly improve.