(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Dafa practitioner, 39, and a village woman in Jilin Province, China. Before I started practicing Dafa in 2004, I had lymphoma, a type of cancer. I had surgery in 2003, but the tumor reappeared seven months later. In the city hospital in Changchun, the capital of Jilin Province, the tumor proved to be lymphatic cancer. At that time, I completely lost hope.

In November 2004, while I was waiting to die, my elder sister and her family came to see me. She brought me the Dafa book Zhuan Falun and asked me to become a practitioner. At that time, I believed the propaganda on television smearing Falun Gong. I even said something against our great Teacher and the Fa. I was afraid of seeing my sister at that time, thus I had no courage to read Zhuan Falun; my husband and I were afraid of having a Dafa book in our home.

Later on, when I called my sister-in-law, she said, "Since your elder sister believes in Falun Gong, why can you not do the same?" I said, "I'm scared." She said, "You already have that terrible sickness, what are you still afraid of? Why don't you find out what's in the book?" She then hung up the phone.

On second thought, she was right, and I did what my elder sister asked of me. Before opening the book, I washed my hands. My heart beat violently and my hands were shaking as I opened Zhuan Falun. When I looked at Teacher's image, I thought he looked so amiable, with such kind eyes, nothing terrible like what was said on television. Before finishing the first lecture, I felt the greatness of this book. Teacher started eliminating karma for me that same night.

Due to my poor enlightenment, I thought I was getting seriously sick again. My husband was so worried that he even wanted our daughter to stay with her grandmother, fearing that if anything bad should happen to me, it might scare her. But before long and beyond my expectations, the miracle happened--I felt no pain anymore and was able to eat. I made up my mind instantly that I would stick to this Fa.

On the following day, I continued studying the Fa. Since I wasn't well educated, I had to consult the dictionary for words that I didn't recognize. Thus, with lots of difficulty, I finally finished my first reading of Zhuan Falun. Reading the book showed me that Dafa teaches people to be good based on Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. Whenever coming across anything, we should look within ourselves, making sure to be a noble person with a standard of "others first, ourselves second" as well as "don't hit back when attacked and don't scold back when smeared." I don't have any idea why a big nation such as China still harms people and sentient beings with lies.

Breaking Through Sickness Karma

Later on, through continuous Fa study, sharing with my elder sister, and reading the Minghui Weekly brought to me by fellow practitioners from distant areas, I was much inspired and encouraged. I was seriously sick a few times, so sick that I was almost near death, and I even thought about committing suicide. Of course, I rejected that bad notion, realizing that if I did, my family members, relatives, friends, and neighbors would have a misunderstanding about Dafa, because they all knew that I was a practitioner. I had to believe in Teacher and trust the Fa, and with this thought I went tumbling through one sickness karma to the next. I was well aware that it was always Teacher who suffered to enable me to break through all the barriers. What Teacher did strengthened my confidence on the rocky path of my cultivation.

Learning to Look Within Myself

Being a bad tempered, self-willed, and contentious person unwilling to suffer losses, I never wanted to listen to anyone. After becoming a Dafa practitioner, I realized that all these characteristics were my attachments. I was willing to eliminate them, but it was hard, because I couldn't control myself. Through continuously studying the Fa, I learned to control myself by thinking about what Teacher said in Zhuan Falun, "Lecture Nine," "If your temper is not good, you should change it, for a practitioner must be tolerant."

Due to trivial matters in the family, I hadn't visited my in-law's home for seven years. To celebrate my father-in-law's 60th birthday in 2008, my brother-in-law arranged a dinner party and invited lots of relatives and friends. At that time I was thinking quite a bit with human notions, wondering if I should join them or not. Since I'd learned to look within myself after studying the Fa, I wondered what others would think of me if I didn't go. How would they judge me as a Dafa practitioner with a mission to save sentient beings? Everyone was pleased to see me at the party. I took the opportunity to clarify the truth about Dafa, and many relatives quit the Chinese Communist Party.

From then on, I have greatly improved myself. Even though I still don't control myself sometimes, I've been able to quietly think about myself. In the process of telling people the facts about Dafa, I've been able to patiently answer questions. And I know to look within myself on everything.

I haven't taken any medicine for more than four years since 2004. I'm healthy, have a job, and have earned more than 10,000 yuan. I paid off my debts and still have a little extra. My folks know that Teacher and Dafa made all these things possible. When my mother had a stroke, she knew that Dafa was good, so she withdrew from the CCP, Youth League, and Young Pioneers. Since she always reads Zhuan Falun, she's now completely recovered and is able to do many things. Our whole family has once again witnessed the supernatural power of Dafa. At present, both my older brother and his wife, my younger brother, and younger sister have all quit the CCP and its affiliates. Although my older brother's wife is still not a practitioner, she respects Dafa very much and is not afraid of saying good things about Dafa. Our whole family benefits from Dafa a great deal.

This is just a little of my understandings and experiences. Please kindly correct my errors.

October 3, 2009