My Cultivation Experience Over the Last Year
(Clearwisdom.net) I began practicing about one year ago. Under the encouragement of fellow practitioners, I wrote down my cultivation experience to share with others.
For a very long time, because my husband had an affair and because of the heavy burden of family, I became tired of this world. I did not know the point of living. Amidst the pain, I wished that I could become a piece of stone that has no feeling. However, I could not break away from the entanglement of sentimentality and pain. In my bewilderment, I had gone through one year after another until the day when I made up my mind to cultivate. Master had arranged for me to attain the Fa.
In the beginning, because of my attachment to emotion, I did not cultivate myself diligently and thus wasted several months of valuable time. One morning, I was still so sleepy that I did not want to get up and practice the exercises, so I lay back down. Then a voice came to my mind, "Wasn't your waiting for eight hundred or one thousand years just for today?" I was shocked, knowing that it was Master who was giving me the hint. Ever since then, under Master's protection, I have finally started my genuine Dafa cultivation.
After a period of cultivating with a clean mind, I felt huge changes in my mind and body. In that period of time, I felt the joy and wonderfulness of Dafa cultivation. However, just like Master has said,
"By the time the gong reaches his xinxing level, the gong has also increased up to that level. If he wants to continue increasing his gong, the conflict will also become very serious, as it requires him to keep upgrading xinxing." ("Lecture Four" in Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
Before long, a tribulation came. Last year, a month before the Chinese New Year, my house caught on fire. This caused the loss of several tens of thousands of yuan for me. For an ordinary farming family, this loss was huge as I do not have a formal job and my income is very small. At that time, I felt at a loss and great mental pressure. Through studying the Fa, I came to understand that this happened because my attachment had been taken advantage of by the evil. After my husband started having an affair, he had not lived with me for four years. I wanted to get divorced, but I was afraid that my child and I would not have a place to live. So I wanted to have a house to live in. I thought that he was unreasonable, as it is I who have taken care of the family, including the children of his former wife as well as my child. Therefore, he should give the house to me. I had completely used an ordinary mindset to handle this issue. I got very attached and felt very unbalanced in my mind. As a result, I felt a lot of pain. At that time, Master let me (in my dream) see my predestined relationship with my husband in my last life. After I woke up, I had tears in my eyes while practicing the exercises. Master said,
"In cultivation practice, there may be two scenarios when dealing with specific conflicts or when others treat you badly. One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, "How can this person treat me like this?" Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work." ("Lecture Four" in Zhuan Falun)
Master also said,
"How should you view the tribulations and trials that you experience? I can tell you that if a person doesn't have that much karma, he absolutely won't have tribulations that severe." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference," October 21, 2000)
Thereafter, when I encountered tribulations and tests, I would remember this paragraph of Fa. Over a period of more than one year, I have come to the present day although I keep tripping and falling. I could not make every step of mine without Master's compassionate protection. I have made an oath in front of Master's photo of His law body, "I will certainly cultivate myself diligently and live up to Master's compassionate salvation."
Validating the Fa
Through studying the Fa, I know that Master is rectifying the Fa, I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple, and I should follow Master's requirements to validate the Fa, offer sentient beings salvation, and do well the three things. I use the ways suitable for me to clarify the facts about the persecution. I prepared envelopes with the truth-clarification materials sealed inside and pasted a piece of double-sticky tape onto each envelope. I rode a bicycle to paste the envelopes onto the trees by the busy roads. Many times after I pasted the envelopes along the road, when I came back, I found that those envelopes had already been taken away by people. At that time, I was moved to tears; people are really longing to learn the facts and be saved. When I do not have truth-clarification materials on hand, I would buy some double-sticky tape, paste one side of the tape onto the wall, and then stick white papers with truth-clarification sentences or poems written in colored pens on the other side of the tape.
Over a period of time, I believed that I did not have fear while distributing truth-clarification materials as my mind was very righteous, "I come to save the sentient beings." Therefore, I was candid even while distributing the materials in the daytime. However, one time this summer, just after I finished distributing my truth-clarification materials, a police vehicle stopped by me. A policeman came out and walked toward me. My heart then started to beat rapidly, and I felt at a loss. That policeman walked by me and entered a drug store. So it was a false alarm for me. Later, I thought about this incident and felt that Master was using this format to let me see my deeply-hidden attachment of fear, so as to let me eliminate it. In fact, many times, it is my own human thoughts that are intimidating me, and it is my human notions that are hindering me. On the path of assisting Master in Fa-rectification, I have realized that as long as we have the heart to save the sentient beings, it is Master who is doing the work of saving people. As long as we have the heart to save people, Master will strengthen our righteous thoughts.
Fa-rectification has almost reached the end. We must cultivate ourselves diligently without slacking off. We should not cause Master to urge us again.
I want to say to Master, "Master, please be assured that I will certainly do my best to do the "three things" and not let Master be worried about me, and I will live up to Master's benevolent salvation."
October 5, 2008