Letting Go of the Attachment of Making Decisions for Others
(Clearwisdom.net) A few days ago, I discovered in myself an attachment of making decisions for others. If others did not follow my advice, I would be upset. My parents would not withdraw their membership from the Communist party, so I blamed them in my heart. If my friends didn't agree with me, I would think they are not my true friends. I thought I have provided the best thing to them, but they are reluctant to accept it. My husband is not diligent in cultivation, and I would think he is deeply lost among ordinary society. The other day, when I handed out flyers for the New Year Spectacular in front of a theater, I could not focus and I was not balanced in my mind.
Yesterday, I realized that I have an attachment to making decisions for others, which had been covered up by my mentality to showing off, my attachment to zealotry, jealousy and more. It took me a long time to discover these attachments. When I again attempted to stop my husband from going out for recreation yesterday, my face turned red with embarrassment, realizing that I was trying once again to control others.
Today, I handed out flyers again in front of the theater and my mind was calm and serene. When I was asked to keep a distance from the entrances, I didn't feel offended. After I went back home, I recalled Master's Fa and asked myself "If Master were to take us up to heaven now, would I go or not? Did I really believe in heaven? Did I really want to get rid of my attachments and to eliminate all evil substances from the other dimensions?" The essential issue is whether or not I firmly believe in the Fa.
Regarding the wildfires in California recently, I was thinking about how I would react and what I would bring with me if I needed to evacuate. Of course, it must be my Dafa books and Dafa materials. But these thoughts still do not meet the standard because, in fact, during the incident, none of the houses owned by Dafa practitioners were damaged. One practitioner's house was directly in the fire zone. A tree, only half a foot away from their white wall, was on fire; their neighbor's house was burned as well, but their house was not damaged even a bit. The walls around their house are still white, not affected at all by the smoke. Yet, the surrounding vegetation was totally destroyed by the fire.
"The above are the two reasons for not being able to increase gong. Without knowing the Fa at high levels, one cannot practice cultivation. Without cultivating one's inner self and one's xinxing, one cannot increase gong. These are the two reasons." (Lecture One in Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
As Falun Gong practitioners, we need to cultivate ourselves by looking within and believe in the Fa. The Fa is the universal law; it is serious and compassionate.