My Cultivation Path in Fa-Rectification
Greetings, Revered Master! Greetings, Fellow Practitioners!
1. Obtaining the Fa
I am a young professional who was introduced to Falun Dafa cultivation in 1996. During the early winter of 1998 I was fortunate to find the local group exercise site. The first evening they happened to play Master's video lecture, and played another each night thereafter for nine evenings. I attentively listened to every word Master said and felt that this was exactly what I had been looking for.
During the latter phase of my personal cultivation I melded with the local group exercise site. I studied the Fa and practiced the exercises every day. I went with fellow practitioners to the local towns and villages to spread the Fa. When I first went out I felt embarrassed since I was young and highly educated. Many people knew who my father was. When I met people I knew I often felt embarrassed. Eventually I thought of Master teaching "selflessness and altruism." I got to know this great Fa through others. I should also tell this to other predestined people and let go of embarrassment. I started spreading the Fa with other practitioners in the local town market. There were once over one hundred practitioners in the market.
In the afternoon on July 20, 1999, fellow practitioners and I went to Beijing to speak out on behalf of Falun Dafa. Our hearts were pure. All we wanted was to let people know the truth about the Fa. We encountered many difficulties and challenges on our way there due to the Party's interference and police blockade.
After I returned, the media slandered Dafa 24 hours a day, non-stop. Following the morning meeting after my first day back on the job I said to everyone, "I would like several minutes to talk about something important." Because I am usually a very quiet person, people all looked at me in surprise. "You all know that I am a Falun Gong practitioner. Falun Gong requires practitioners to follow the principles of 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance' and be a better person. Now, on TV and radio they slander and defame Falun Gong. We should all think about it rationally. The government is persecuting so many good people. Falun Gong is innocent. Please do not believe the media's lies. This is another political movement. Falun Gong is good." It was so quiet in the room. Everyone, including my manager, listened attentively.
Following that, people from my workplace, from upper echelons, from the police department, and from the Labor Bureau and the Party Disciplinary Committee arrived one after another to converse with me. I remained determined in my belief and firmly believed in Dafa and Master. I said to them, "In the past several years, they always said Dafa is good on TV or in the newspaper. This is still the same cultivation way. How did it become bad overnight? The nation has always recognized Falun Gong. How come it has been defamed overnight? There must be some hidden reasons here." The person from the Party Disciplinary Committee smiled without saying anything. Someone told me that after I left one person said, "She is so stubborn."
At that time, the country was blanketed with evil lies. I felt great pressure and could not eat or sleep. As soon as I got off work I wanted to know what had happened to fellow practitioners who had not yet come home. My heart was so heavy. I thought about Master and Dafa being slandered and defamed. I often shed tears.
In the spring of 2000 a police officer who previously used to come to my workplace and home several times came to me again. He and I knew each other. He was assigned to monitor me. But he seemed reluctant every time he showed up. "We are here to see if you are at work. Do not go to Beijing to appeal." I immediately responded, "Don't you see that I am working? I have a family and have a busy work schedule. Why are you here to bother me? Whether or not I go to Beijing, Falun Gong practitioners will never do things that are against the law. I am very busy now. Please do not come here to bother me any more." From then on, he never came back again. I had then not yet realized the meaning of not cooperating with the evildoers. Now that I think about it, it was just like Master said, "If thoughts are righteous, evil will collapse" ("What's to Fear" in Hong Yin II)
3. Sickness Karma
Some practitioners gave up their belief during the worst time of the persecution. Those practitioners who remained determined distributed materials explaining the facts and making banners to validate Dafa.
However, I made a fatal mistake: because I lost the group Fa study environment, I slacked off in Fa study and practicing the exercises. Hence, my desire for recognition and money plus my emotions--all of which were subdued before--all emerged. There was a good job opportunity at work presented to me as well. The attachment to lust also rose up in me. In order to do well at work I tried my best, regardless of how much work I took on. But I became busier and busier. I forgot about the seriousness of cultivation. I forgot that "One should return to one's original, true self; this is the real purpose of being human." (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
Later I realized that the evil is watching practitioners very closely. As soon as we slack off, it will take advantage of us. The spring of 2001 I suffered from serious sickness karma for over a month. I was diagnosed with acute leukemia.
At the time, my calmness surprised my family and colleagues. But because I seldom studied the Fa and did not have a good understanding of the Fa principles, I went to some fellow practitioners for help. Most of them said, "You are going through karma elimination." But I gradually could not hold up any more. My husband and the family sent me to a well-known hospital. But my mind was always clear. I asked to take several Dafa books with me. My husband agreed because the family did not think I would live too much longer.
I truly understood then that everything in the human world is an illusion. I thought about my child, my siblings, and my parents. They all have their own fates. Nobody could change them. I did not have to worry about them at all. But how about myself? It was not easy for me to get this human body. I was fortunate enough to obtain Dafa. Due to not being diligent enough in my cultivation, I would not be able to walk to consummation. I was leaving this world while still young. What a pity!
I thought later that I had already obtained the Fa . Even if I lost this human body I would still not go to hell. Beginning right now, I would make full use of my time to study the Fa and cultivate, every day for the rest of my life. I would truly treat myself as Master's disciple.
I started calmly studying the Fa. The attachments to recognition, money, and emotions were all gone.
Deep in the night, after everyone else had fallen asleep, I went into the bathroom and practiced the exercises for a while. Sometimes I put a newspaper on the floor and did the meditation exercise. Due to the intensive chemical and radiology treatments, I suffered unbearable eye pain. My sight became very poor. I was unable to see people's faces clearly even if they were one meter away from me. I became deaf due to water in my ears. My internal organs were damaged enough to make me suffer greatly. But I never gave up on Fa study. I was able to memorize Hong Yin in three days.
The doctor advised me, "You must not read, or you will become blind." I thought, "What I read is the Great Law of the universe. My worldly eyes can assimilate within Dafa every day. They are fortunate. I will not be blind." The words were initially blurry, but gradually they became more and more clear. Eventually I established an environment in my room to practice the exercises for a while every evening. After only a few movements I would be tired and breathing heavily and would have to sit down. My heart beat faster. After resting a while, I continued to practice.
Through calmly studying the Fa I realized, "A hospital is not the place I should be. I should go home." Because my treatments had gone so well, the doctor agreed to let me go home. But the doctor advised me over and over again, "You have to come back after two weeks. Otherwise, your life will be at risk."
After I returned home, I stopped taking medicine. I had a rash all over my body except on my face, hands, and feet. It itched almost unbearably. When I could not stand it, I used a metal brush to scratch it. I was bleeding all over. The skin became hard. I did not sleep because of the itching. After more than two months I slowly recovered. My hearing and sight returned to normal as well. Two months later I went back to work.
Several months later I suddenly started having diarrhea. It was all black water. I could not eat or drink. But nothing could stop the diarrhea. I was exhausted. My husband could not understand: "Where did the black water come from? You have to get some injections, or you will get dehydrated." Right after he set up the injection for me and left, the medicine bottle and the support where the medicine bottle was hung fell to the floor. I pulled the needle out immediately. I realized that it was Master who was taking care of me again. Master was purifying my body for the second time. I was full of tears. Our benevolent Master still had not given up on me. I swore to Master, "Master, you gave me my second life. I will live for the Fa and assist Master in Fa-rectification for the rest of my life." After three days of diarrhea, everything went back to normal.
4. Melting into the One-body, Clarifying the Truth
The miracle of Dafa giving me my second life had a huge impact on people around me. When I returned to society and started working again, I quit the satisfactory job I had before. With Master's arrangement, I took another job where I have my own office. I am no longer buried by the work of running between offices. From then on, my office has become a great environment for me to tell people the facts.
Because I am diligent at my work and nice, people have a good impression of me and are usually receptive when I explain the facts to them. Some people said, "Our guess is that you must be a Buddhist because you look so kind and you are different and treat us so well." I told them that Dafa requires me to follow the principles of "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance." Falun Gong practitioners are all good.
I usually explain the truth to people from an angle that they can accept and also help them to understand that Dafa is good. Sometimes, while waiting, their families come into my office as well, additional opportunities for me. I try to never let any opportunities go by.
In the past several years I have explained the facts about Dafa to factory workers, farmers (the majority), teachers, soldiers, government officials, lawyers, judges, police officers, bankers, a businessman, local officials, professors, professionals, retired people, religious leaders, and many more. I remember two sisters in particular. The younger sister was a Buddhist. The older sister looked very kind. After they heard about the true situation in my office, the sisters held hands and said the words I told them, "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good. Falun Dafa is good." They turned around at the door and asked if they had said it correctly. I smiled, "Yes." They continued saying it as they walked out.
I remember an Army man. While he was in the Army in 1999, he had participated in arresting practitioners who appealed. When I told him the truth of the situation he said, "People like me did actually think about this afterwards, that the CCP regime was merely using us. But at that time we did not know the truth. We were just following orders 'from above.'" This person understood the truth and quit the CCP. While a nurse did her hospital internship, she participated in force-feeding practitioners. She said the hospital nurses did not want to do it themselves, so they had the interns do. it After she knew the real situation, she quit the Communist Youth League.
When I spoke with a lawyer from a city, he revealed to me some unpleasant inside information about his profession. But he chose to do those things for his career and for the money. When I tell people like him the facts about Falun Dafa, I usually try to help them really understand. As long as they have a correct understanding of Dafa, they will be fine.
"In human society nowadays there are a lot of bad phenomena, bad people, and bad behavior, which completely depart from what is human, even to the point that some people not only have warped mentalities, but also enormous demon nature. So what should we do about this situation? I'll tell you: nothing. Why? Dafa disciples' magnificence is connected to the Fa-rectification of the cosmos, and your greatest mission is to safeguard the Fa." ("Fa-lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A")
I am so grateful that Master gave me the wisdom that helped me proclaim the truth very effectively. Lawyers are usually very articulate. However, Dafa is supernatural, as are Falun Gong practitioners. He kept nodding and acknowledged Dafa. He was saved.
Teachers that I talked to to all stated at the end that they would not tell their students that Dafa is not good. They knew that "Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance" is good. They understood that Falun Gong practitioners are good people.
In the past several years, Master has emphasized the importance of studying the Fa more. I realized that studying the Fa well guarantees our clarifying the truth well. Therefore, no matter how busy or how tired I am, I have studied the Fa diligently.
With Master's lead I have come this far. The local practitioners and I encourage one another, listen to Master, and become more and more diligent. We will continue to assist Master in Fa-rectification, save sentient beings, and fulfill our prehistoric vows.