Comfort Wears Down The Will
(Clearwisdom.net) After reading fellow practitioners' articles on removing fundamental attachments, I have been looking unceasingly for my own fundamental attachments. I found them by chance when I chatted with my neighbor. I said, "I only seek a harmonious, commonplace, and peaceful life." On the surface, such request is not of a high level, but for a Dafa practitioner it reveals a deeply hidden attachment and is dangerous. It diverted me for many years and provided the old forces with the opportunities for persecution.
To put it simply, do I seek harmonious life? The old forces manipulated my husband to have an extramarital affair. Do I seek a commonplace life? The old forces manipulated my child to behave unreasonably. Do I seek a peaceful life? The old forces manipulated my husband and child to squander all of our money. My husband went so far as to spend money from a loan. As a result, our family was in turmoil. My xinxing slid down and I was both physically and mentally worn out. Thanks to Teacher's grace, I found my fundamental attachment at last. I then removed it immediately. I behaved all the time according to Teacher's requirement,
"If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of mind, when you run into problems you'll handle them well because it will give you space as a buffer."(Zhuan Falun, 2003 Translation Version)
I thought highly of others' merits and little of their shortcomings. After I truly attained that state of mind, both my husband and child made favorable turns. My husband gained a new understanding of Dafa, and they both helped and supported me with Fa-rectification issues. My xinxing improved further.
After my life became harmonious, however, I stopped forging ahead diligently. I was restricted by some kind of force and became foolish. After I realized this state, I just felt anxious. When exchanging thoughts with fellow practitioners, I lamented that I did not study the Fa or practice the exercises enough, and I could not keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification. I just could not overcome that force, which held me very tightly and prevented me from studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and clarifying the truth about Dafa. I just indulged in creature comforts.
I calmed down and repeatedly looked for the reason. Finally I found the ridiculous attachment of comfort, which had been taken advantage of by the old forces. After experiencing all kinds of interference, I gained a stable life and was unwilling to give it up. As a result, the attachment was imperceptibly aggravated. The stronger my attachment, the happier the old forces felt. It gradually destroyed my will and made me apathetic. The fact that I was a Dafa disciple during the Fa-rectification period faded from my memory. I lost my direction and righteous thoughts. The old forces' ultimate goal was to destroy me.
I could not help but put my palms together. Tears ran down my cheeks. I was affected by the
grand grace of Teacher. I know I must thoroughly deny the arrangements of the old forces, remove all kinds of attachments, strengthen my righteous thoughts, and follow the path arranged by Teacher.
January 7, 2007