A New Practitioner's Cultivation Experience
I am 36 years old, living in Henshui City, Hebei Province. I was fortunate to start practicing Falun Dafa in March 2004. Three years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer, which resulted in the removal of one of my breasts. I thought I had fully recovered, but just three months ago, I felt very uncomfortable again. A big lump grew in a lymph node in my neck, which made me unable to lift my head. My whole body was weak. I could not eat or move, and lay in bed for several days. My health became worse and worse. My family was very worried and told me to see a doctor. I recalled my painful experience in the hospital three years before, and trembled at the thought of my suffering. I felt I would rather die than go to the hospital again.
Just then, my mother, a Falun Dafa practitioner, came to my home. She has been practicing Falun Dafa since 1996 and had benefited greatly, both physically and mentally. When she learned of my situation, mother said, "Since you don't want to go to the hospital, then practice the Falun Gong exercises with me." I gave her a noncommittal response.
The next day, mother brought me the book, Zhuan Falun and Master Li's lectures on video. I began by watching Master's lectures and followed along with mother to learn the exercises. In a few days I felt very comfortable all over. Two weeks later, Master removed the lump in my neck area. I felt a discharge of chilling qi from my neck to my thigh, and finally down to my feet. This sensation was accompanied by a sound of "Whoosh." I was so cold, as if I were immobilized in a cold cellar; all I could do was to hold Master's book to my chest. With the sound of "Dong, Dong," above my right breast, it seemed that the energy channel was being opened and my body could move again. After discharging the chilling qi for three or four days, the lump in my neck disappeared, and I was also able to lift up my head. In addition, my hemorrhoids, from which I had suffered for many years, were also cured. I am now free of illness and feel very comfortable throughout my body. I can do anything, in addition to the cooking and housework.
Falun Dafa is so wonderful that no words can express it. For these three months, through studying the teachings of Falun Dafa and doing the exercises, the change in my heart had been huge -- from doubt at the beginning, to trust, and now to belief. During these past three months I came across many tribulations, which were all demonic interference to try to stop me from learning Falun Dafa, but I got through them and remained steadfast in my belief.
There was a period when demons interfered with me in my dreams, and I often woke up frightened. One night during my dream I saw a being looking half-ghost and half-human, reaching out to seize me. It gripped my hair and scared me enough to wake me up. My yelling even woke up my family. I shivered all over. Having no other way to control myself, I held Master's book to my chest with both hands. I immediately calmed down and was not frightened anymore. Master stated in Zhuan Falun, "There is another form of demonic interference. You know that through qigong practice our Celestial Eye can open. With the Celestial Eye open, some people may see some frightening scenes or scary faces while practicing qigong at home. Some have messy, long hair, and some want to fight you or even make various moves that are quite frightening." I had actually experienced this.
I started to practice Falun Dafa late, but daily I diligently study the Fa (1), do the exercises, send forth righteous thoughts, and go out every day to hand out truth-clarification fliers in order to rescue sentient beings from the lies of Jiang's regime. Only now do I really recognize how fortunate one is to learn Falun Dafa and what a large blessing it is. I am very grateful for Master's benevolent salvation. I have no way to return his mercy and can only present Master with my heart that is turning toward goodness.
May 13 is Master's birthday and also World Falun Dafa Day. On that day, some of the practitioners in Henshui City held an experience sharing conference. It was the first time that I attended such a great Falun Dafa conference. Together we stood in front of Master's picture and reverently did the two-hand heshi gesture (pressing both hands in front of the chest). When the veteran practitioners who presided over the Fa conference said, "We send our most sincere greetings to revered Master! Master, all of your disciples are thankful for Master's benevolent and arduous salvation!" almost all the attendees wept. During the conference, fellow practitioners talked about their personal experiences in studying the Falun Dafa teachings, clarifying the truth of the persecution to the public, and sending forth righteous thoughts. This conference helped me understand more Dafa principles, and my mind was upgraded. It also let me recognize that as a Dafa practitioner, I should always be strict with myself according to the standards of "Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance" and strive to become a truly noble person.
I indeed cannot express my feelings at such a time. This is what I have experienced in my three-month cultivation in Falun Dafa. If there is anything inappropriate, please be compassionate to point it out.
(1) Fa: Law and principles; the teachings of Falun Dafa.