I Must Cultivate More Diligently
Greetings, venerable Master! Greetings, Fellow Practitioners!
I have been cultivating for nine years and through countless tribulations. I don't have astounding or deeply touching stories like some other practitioners do. Nor have I had any hard-to-forget painful life and death experiences. I am a very ordinary practitioner who looks like an ordinary person. From the moment I obtained the Fa to the time before July 20, 1999, my heart was full of joy. Every morning I got up at four o'clock and practiced the exercises, rain or shine, winter or summer, regardless of mosquitoes bites. Even if I was by myself at the practice site, I would keep doing the exercises. My mind was full of the Fa. Every day I made progress. Though I had many attachments and a human heart, the Dafa of the cosmos was deeply rooted in my heart. I followed Master with strong determination and nobody could affect me. I respected Master and Dafa deeply. During that time I had laid a solid foundation in cultivation. I walked on my personal cultivation path smoothly and with diligence.
After July 20, 1999, the evil blotted out the sky and covered the earth and it seemed as if the sky would fall down. TVs and newspapers were filled with lies. Relatives, friends, and family members didn't understand me and said, "You are a fool," "You have been deceived," "You are obsessed," "You have mental problems," and "How come you won't quit." They bombarded me with all sorts of words. I didn't waver at all in my belief. I knew in my heart that it was they that were poisoned and didn't know the truth. They thought they were doing this for my benefit. But actually I worried about them because they were committing crimes against Dafa. My heart bled because Dafa had been wronged and persecuted. At one stage I became confused by the bombardment. I was sent to the brainwashing center and the forced labor camps by the 610 Office. I stumbled but I walked forward, though with difficulty. Because I had attachments and the heart of fear, I didn't walk the cultivation path straight and something which shouldn't happen happened. However, every time it was Master who dissolved the tribulation for me. Master bore it for me and took good care of me. In the persecution or under pressure, I recited Lunyu and Master's other articles again and again. I was often moved to tears. I experienced the greatness of this immense Fa. Master has imparted this immense Fa to us. I was melted into this huge Fa. I felt so blessed and powerful. Master bears so much for us in rectifying the Fa and saving sentient beings. Master gives everything to us. Thinking of this I often burst into tears and I couldn't keep my heart calm. Often I said in my heart: "Master, I miss you! Master's grace is immense. I will do the three things well and let Master worry less about me."
Once I was clarifying the truth to the students at my husband's school. I was reported to the principal. He came to have a word with me. He asked me to hand what I showed to the students (it was an MP3 player) and he threatened me that they would do such and such to me. But I knew that they didn't deserve to touch me. Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"Our Falun Dafa will protect practitioners from deviating. How does it protect you? If you are a true practitioner, our Falun will safeguard you. I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe."
I kept sending forth righteous thoughts. They didn't come to my home. Last year before October the first, two officials from the local township government (one of them was the director of the 610 Office in the town) and two principals from the school came to me. I didn't have any fear. I faced them squarely and kept sending forth righteous thoughts in my heart. As a result they didn't do anything to me.
On the issue of the three withdrawals (withdrawing from the Communist Party, the Youth League and the Young Pioneers), from several examples we can see the danger of not quitting the CCP. One instance was that during the May 4th period, my granddaughter re-joined the Youth League after she had withdrawn from it. In her dream she saw two round balls pressed down on her and she couldn't breathe. She was terrified. Another granddaughter was forced to re-join the Youth League when her teacher pressured her that she would be fined one yuan each day if she didn't re-join. Two days ago she saw in her dream two skeletons chasing her. She ran frantically. After she withdrew again, she didn't have any more nightmares. My brother got sick for several days without any reason. He felt unwell. I asked him if he had quit the CCP. I had mentioned it to him before. He suddenly realized that he hadn't withdrawn from the Young Pioneers. He withdrew from it immediately. Now he is OK again.
On the issue of getting rid of lust and desire, I was quite upset by this. I didn't understand the issue of getting rid of desire and lust between husband and wife from a higher level. Thus I had some interference. Now I understand that it is very dangerous if I don't let go of the attachment to lust and desire. The Fa-rectification is coming to the end. I must cultivate more diligently and do the three things well. At this last critical stage I shouldn't harbor any ordinary people's thinking. I should take everything seriously and with righteous thoughts and walk every step well.
Thank you, venerable Master!