Experience and Insights Gained from Cultivation
Establishing a Family Informational Materials Site
Establishing a family informational material site is not difficult. What's challenging are the human notions. When I decided to buy a computer, I experienced interference, mainly from my family, because we are not rich. My mother said she was getting older and she wanted to help me out by giving me the several thousand yuan that she had saved. I decided to use this money to buy a computer.
I asked that Master strengthen me to eliminate any interference from the evil beings and factors. Soon after, I bought a computer. But I had never used a computer, and knew nothing about computer technology. I didn't even know how to use the mouse! A fellow practitioner who had computer experience gave me a brief explanation on how to get on the Internet. Within half an hour, I visited the Minghui website successfully. I was so happy! Now everything became straight-forward. But before I got this computer, I had the notion that it was such a difficult thing to do.
The Process of Producing Materials is also a Process of Cultivating Oneself and Improving
With fellow practitioners' support, I obtained additional equipment that I needed. In the beginning, I didn't know anything about computer accessories or supplies. When encountering difficulties, I always recited,
"When you are overcoming a real hardship or tribulation, you try it. When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it." (Zhuan Falun, Lecture Nine)
Very soon, everything will be resolved.
Looking at the materials produced by my site, I gradually developed the attachment to complacency and a show-off mentality. I thought that I was doing great. Without realizing it, I had a different, perhaps inappropriate attitude. Now I was always eager to show my materials to other practitioners so that I could show off. But when I delivered the materials to the fellow practitioners that I coordinated with, they always would find issues with them. At that time, I did not think that I may have had an inappropriate mindset. I did not look inward to examine myself. I just thought that my fellow practitioners had an attachment to complacency and the showoff mentality. After I studied the Fa, I realized that it was I that had some issues. The fact is, my fellow practitioners' behavior was acting as a mirror for my behavior. I understood that Master was showing me what looked like my fellow practitioners' complacency and showoff mentality to make me realize my own cultivation issues. There was no reason for me to pick on other fellow practitioners. After I came to this realization, I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate the attachment to complacency and showoff mentality. It was not mine. Even if I have an attachment, I will not let the evil take advantage of me. The evil factors were immediately eliminated.
Looking Inward and Cultivating Xinxing
I have a big family, and I take care of everything at home. I also have a job and have to produce Falun Gong materials too. From an everyday person's view-point, I must be so tired. Some practitioners even commented, "How can you do so much? Aren't you tired at all?" Sometimes, I asked myself, "Why do I have so much to do? Is it the evil forcing this on me or is it because of my attachments?" I was bothered by this.
While studying the Fa, I finally understood that this is my cultivation environment. My husband has many siblings. Their financial conditions are all better than ours. But nobody takes care of my parents-in-law. Wasn't this arranged for me to eliminate the attachments of resentment, jealousy and a combative mentality? In the past, I did not do well in this area and it had caused tension in the family. Nobody wanted to listen to anyone else. I felt that this was all reflecting my own attachments. Indeed, one's family is one's cultivation environment Master arranged this for us. Because I was able to eliminate my attachment to resentment, I have been happy no matter how tiring things are. I have also managed to make everything organized and efficient.
Once, when I sent righteous thoughts, I saw several boats in front of me, all going in one direction. I was standing in the water helping people climb on-board. The people filled the boats, one after another. My husband and child were on one boat. They saw that I had saved so many people, they shouted at me, "Hurry up get on-board yourself! Don't you feel tired?" I said, "No, I'm fine. I need to save more people." At that moment, my tears began to flow. I felt a warm current running through my body. I knew that it was Master purifying my body. Everything is done by Master. How would I feel tired?
I developed an attachment to doing everything perfectly. So once again, I went to an extreme. For a period of time, I always felt as if I was carrying a bag on my back. I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate it. For a while it became better, but then it came back again. I could not figure out the root cause of this problem. Master gave me a hint through a fellow practitioner's mouth to remind me of my attachment to doing things perfectly. I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate it. The bag on my back was gone. I felt so relieved. No matter what the attachment is, the moment one identifies it and eliminates it by sending righteous thoughts, it is disintegrated immediately. It is critical to study the Fa well in order to identify any attachments.