Ridding Myself of Character Flaws While Clarifying Facts of Falun Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) Ever since I began practicing Falun Dafa, I have been subjected to the lust test on many occasions. Master has also mercifully given me hints in my dreams. After experiencing failure and success several times in passing this test, I thought that I had risen above ordinary people's thinking and that I had made solid progress in rejecting lustful desires.
Last winter, I sang some songs written by practitioners at a large gathering. The purity, mercy and beauty of the songs, touched many hearts. Some said that the songs were melodious, very touching, and had intangible power. Someone from the audience sent me a message praising my singing. I believed that audience had a karmic relationship with Dafa. I clarified the facts of Falun Dafa to them according to their comprehension and showed them the beauty of Falun Dafa. By chance, I recently met the person who sent me the message. I gave him a Chinese Spectacular DVD performed by the Divine Performing Arts. I received a quick response from him. He expressed his gratitude for the DVD, praised the dancing and the stage lighting results in the DVD, and then invited to me to lunch. I had never gone out to lunch with a stranger. In addition, the stranger was a man. When I got the call, I had various scary thoughts, including thoughts of lust. I rejected the invitation, but my mind was not clear. I realized that it was a chance to save sentient beings and that I should treat the invitation seriously.
I started to clean out my own dimensional field and asked Master to strengthen my righteous thoughts. I accepted the invitation later, when he again invited me for lunch. After I left the office and finished sending righteous thoughts at 12 p.m., I went to lunch. He complimented me a lot, however, my mind was clear and unmoved. I told him the facts of Falun Dafa and suggested to him that he withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). After lunch, I gave him Falun Gong fliers and a "Walk Through Rain And Wind" VCD. I talked naturally and behaved appropriately. There were no awkward moments. I knew that I was under Master's merciful care.
Several days later, we had another meeting. Again, I told him the mighty power of Falun Dafa and explained the karmic relationships between people. I answered some of his questions and read Master's articles to him. He expressed his respect for Dafa and withdrew from the CCP. I was pleased that his being was saved.
I was not swayed by the compliments during the meetings. But after one or two days , I heard the words echoing in my mind. I thought about them a lot. The thought karma even interfered with me when I was sending forth righteous thoughts. After discussing the issue with fellow practitioners, I understood that I experienced interference because some aspects of lust remained deep inside of me and the evil took advantage of it. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it. Master also gave me hints while I was reading the Fa, "Let's say there's somebody who has all the emotions and desires ordinary people do, and he's suddenly allowed to go up and be a Buddha. Think about it, could that happen? Chances are, he'd see how beautiful those Great Bodhisattvas are and start having indecent thoughts." (Zhuan Falun) I recited Master's words repeatedly during the day. While I was sleeping, a pile of dead snakes appeared in my dream. When I got up in the morning, I knew that some bad things were cleansed from my body. My heart was not troubled any more. I felt peace and harmony. Thank you Master.
I have my limitations. I look forward to input from my fellow practitioners.