Sickness Karma Awakened Me
(Clearwisdom.net) I would like to share my experience of passing the test of sickness karma. I would also like to express my gratitude for everything our benevolent and greatest Master does for me.
I had not been diligent in cultivation recently. I often watched TV dramas of interest to everyday people. Although I still practiced the exercises every day, I did not study the Fa enough. When I sent forth righteous thoughts, I was usually not calm enough. I had not even been thinking about saving sentient beings. One day towards the end of March, I got a huge lump on the right side of my neck. So I did what an everyday person would do and went to the hospital to have it looked at. The doctor gave me a comprehensive exam and then asked me to prepare to pay 10,000 yuan for an immediate operation.
After I returned home, my mother shared her thoughts from the perspective of the Fa with me. She also asked me to read Master's lecture "Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles." Master said in the lecture,
"But how could a divine being have ordinary people administer treatment on him? And how could ordinary people heal a divine being's sickness?"
I suddenly realized that I was a Falun Gong practitioner and that this situation was a reflection of my not being diligent in cultivation. In my current cultivation state, how could I be considered a true practitioner? How could I not be taken advantage of by the old forces? I must be diligent again and completely negate the evil persecution.
I was awakened and started focusing on studying the Fa and doing the three things. Several days later, there was no sign of change in the lump, and I started having a little doubt about whether Master still took care of me. Right then, my family and friends started pressuring me. Some said that if I didn't go to the hospital, I might be risking my life. Others suggested Chinese medicine treatment, and some said that my swollen neck was scary, and they warned me not to endanger my life. I always just smiled and said, "No worries." But in my mind, I became anxious and thought, "Why is it still not getting better?"
On my day off, I met with two fellow practitioners. After they learned about my situation, they first sent forth righteous thoughts for me and then pointed out my doubts about Master and the Fa. They said that Master had done a lot for me in other dimensions. It was just that since we cultivate in the maze we can't see it. If we doubt Master like this, the old forces would have more excuses to take advantage of us, in which case Master can do nothing even if he wants to help. Help from fellow practitioners strengthened my righteous thoughts, and I realized that I had been making mistake after mistake. From then on, I became more diligent and sent forth righteous thoughts on a regular basis.
I again read all of Master's new lectures since 2003, and I came to understand many Fa principles that I hadn't realized in the past. I also increased the time I practiced the exercises. Gradually I noticed some changes in the condition of my neck. It went from being a hard lump to a red pustule. I couldn't turn my head, and the pain often woke me up at night. I was also unable to move my right arm for several days. At that time, my mother and my aunt sent forth righteous thoughts for me and asked me to dig deeper for my attachments and loopholes.
When I calmed down and examined myself, I found my attachment to lust, my attachment to comfort, and my laziness. I didn't study the Fa enough, and I didn't firmly believe in Master and the Fa at every moment. From then on, I became more diligent in my cultivation, strengthened my righteous thoughts, and eliminated the attachments and incorrect thoughts as soon as they came up.
Soon after that, the pustule broke and emptied. New skin grew in that area, and my neck fully recovered!
Around the same time, my coworker's father happened to have a similar lump on his neck. My coworker worried about her father, so she came to ask me how I managed to recover. I took that opportunity to clarify the truth about Dafa and the persecution to her, and I exhorted her to quit the Chinese Communist Party. She believes in Dafa and returned home to ask her father to often say, "Falun Dafa is good." My friends and family all witnessed the wonderfulness of Dafa.
This experience of karma elimination made me realize that we came to this world to assist Master in Fa-rectification and to save sentient beings. We are not here to enjoy the life of an everyday person. We should do well the three things and never take it for granted. In this process, nothing is coincidental. Everything is set up for us to improve. From now on, I will be more diligent in doing the three things well and fulfill my vows and missions.