Cultivating Myself Well to Save More Sentient Beings
(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in 1997. I am ashamed to say that when Dafa was being persecuted, I did not step forward to validate the Fa or clarify the truth, nor did I study the Fa wholeheartedly or practice the exercises regularly. Officers from the police station often visited and harassed me. As a result, I once compromised with the police. I was rejected whenever I clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to someone, and I was afraid to strive forward.
It was reading "Teaching the Fa at the 2005 Manhattan International Fa Conference" that changed me. Teacher said:
"I'd like to take this opportunity to tell you this: while saving sentient beings, don't forget to cultivate yourselves. You need to do all of the three things. You should always keep your thoughts righteous, and when you are confronted with evil or with certain situations, you should send forth righteous thoughts a lot; you need to clarify the truth and save sentient beings, but even more so should you cultivate yourselves well."
Since then, every day I have basically maintained a regimen of spending three hours memorizing the Fa. I am now starting to recite Zhuan Falun for the fifth time. I am able to keep my righteous thoughts by reciting the Fa. I am strict with myself by measuring myself against the Fa constantly.
By coordinating with fellow practitioners in my school, we have successfully advised several dozen faculty members and several hundred students in the school to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations. Whenever someone has called at my home looking for me or asking for my husband for a favor, I have treasured every opportunity to explain the facts about Falun Dafa to them. Although my husband is not a cultivator, he too believes in Dafa, and he takes money very lightly. When someone sends him money or a gift to repay him for a favor, he always refuses to accept anything.
One time someone came with two thousand yuan and asked my husband for a job transfer. The person would not quit until he got what he wanted. My husband could not do anything for him. I took a long walk with him on his way out and started clarifying the truth to him. He would not listen and he said something to attack Dafa. I silently recited, "Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy" ("Rationality" from Essentials for Further Advancement II) in my mind. I then readjusted my mindset. I explained the facts to him, from his family's monthly income to his children's living expenses, from society's morality to mankind's declining moral values. All these problems were created by this corrupt Party. Many government officials have already withdrawn from the CCP organizations because they no longer wanted to be tainted by the CCP. Before I even finished talking, he put the two thousand yuan back in his pocket and said, "I am not going to follow the CCP anymore. You can also do something for me and help me quit the CCP!" I gave him a pseudonym, but he said, "I'll just use my real name." Seeing those kinds of people that initially come to us to ask for a favor and leave understanding the truth makes me truly feel Dafa's boundless power.
One time at a relative's wedding ceremony, I clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to everyone present, and I advised more than 30 people to quit the CCP organizations. I later told fellow practitioners what I had done, and I was very pleased. When I returned home that night, however, my husband kept picking on me, even to the point of playfully hitting me. I looked within myself and realized that it was my attachment of zealotry and showing off that caused him to behave that way. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors of the CCP and the dark minions and rotten ghosts behind him. Afterwards my husband was like a different person, asking me questions about my day. I again felt that only by studying the Fa with a calm mind and cultivating ourselves well can we do better to save more sentient beings.