Why I Study the Fa But Do Not Obtain the Fa
(Clearwisdom.net) It seemed that I studied the Fa and did the exercises every day, but it did not play a role when I met with trouble. I felt that I was studying the Fa but did not obtain the Fa. I wondered why this was so. When I studied the Fa, I was absent-minded and always thought about other things. I could not remember the Fa that I had just studied. I did not know where I had stopped reading if I stopped for a little while. As time went on, I could not see the cause of this state. I did not understand it. Later, I slackened my resolve in doing the exercises and reading Dafa books. I did not dig out the root deeply. Then the old forces began to harass me. I felt so sleepy when I studied the Fa. I fell asleep when I sent forth righteous thoughts. Sometimes, my body leaned forward. When I erected my palm, my hand would bend downward and I even felt difficulty in breathing. I felt sleepy and my head would swing when I listened to the Fa. I asked fellow practitioners to help by sending righteous thoughts for me. My fellow practitioners told me that I should strengthen the main consciousness. I was not convinced and tried to find excuses. I made blunders again and again but I could not understand the reason.
Once when I was at group Fa study, a fellow practitioner said, "We practitioners must have clear minds. We cannot always hold onto ordinary people's stuff. We should fill our minds with Dafa and then we will have more righteous thoughts. " When I returned home, I thought, "Is there lots of ordinary people's stuff in my mind?" Then I thought of what Master said, "The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." (Essentials for Further Advancement II, "Drive Out Interference" )
From then on, I have studied the Fa, done the exercises, sent forth righteous thoughts and clarified the truth without leaving any omissions. Every day, I act according to the requirements of Master and the standard of Dafa. Soon, I returned to the previous status when I was not harassed.
I feel that as a practitioners, if we do not practice cultivation diligently, we will make more mistakes that we will regret later.