Thoughts after Reading Teachers New Article "To the Australia Fa Conference"
(Clearwisdom.net) As soon as Teachers new article, "To the Australia Fa Conference" was published, I immediately memorized it and deeply felt Teachers mercy. Teacher again and again reminded us to pay attention to Fa-study. How well do we do? Just as Teacher said: "There have been so many lessons involving this." Many fellow practitioners, including myself, have not really paid attention to Fa-study; therefore Teacher again told us to pay attention to Fa-study, how to treat Fa-study, and how to study the Fa well. In the following, I would like to share some experiences on Fa-study with my fellow practitioners for mutual encouragement and to help those who do not pay attention to Fa-study and do not study the Fa well.
I began to practice Falun Gong in 1997. At that time I did not really study the Fa earnestly. Later, due to a strong attachment to doing things, I was busy setting up a practice site and did not study the Fa well for a long period of time. Afterwards, when I read "Zhuan Falun" I became sleepy. Although I persisted in reading every day, it was a formality and I did not study the Fa with focus. Especially after July 20, 1999 [when the persecution began], I was busy doing things and neglected studying the Fa well. Now I think that since I did not study the Fa with focus, my xinxing dropped because the Fa was unable to guide me. No matter how much I did, it was only an ordinary person doing Dafa work.
Later on when I read Teachers Fa discussing the end of individual cultivation, I formed a notion that I did not need to cultivate myself and I only focused on validating Dafa. One can imagine the consequences of this. Although I overcame tribulations one after another under the protection of Teacher, Teacher again and again gave me hints on studying the Fa well and cultivating well. However, I did not understand and, finally, I was persecuted. I was arrested and taken to a brainwashing center and a forced labor camp. Because I was not guided by the Fa and I still had so many attachments, I believed the lies of the evil and went to the opposite side. I did a lot of things against Teacher and helped a tyrant to do evil. During the critical Fa-rectification period I deviated from Dafa for three years. Finally, I came back to Dafa under Teachers calling again and again, and with the help of fellow practitioners. The lesson was painful and dangerous.
When I resumed my path of cultivation, I knew clearly that my having fallen was due to the fact that I hadnt seriously studied the Fa well. Now, with a clear mind, I am able to summarize the lessons from my fall. When I decided to study the Fa well with a clear mind, the interference was enormous. Whenever I studied the Fa, interference emerged. Its easy to eliminate external interference, but its very hard to get rid of the interference that originates mainly from my thought karma. For a long period of time when I read the book, thoughts of other things occurred at the same time. Even when I read the book aloud I still could not study the Fa with focus; I did not even know what I had read after studying. There was another serious interference in that when I read a Dafa book, it felt as if there was a huge millstone pressing on me, and at the same time I could not open my eyes because of nausea and heart palpitations. I could not get rid of this interference by any means.
At the end of last year, after I read cultivation experience sharing articles from "Minghui Weekly" by fellow practitioners about memorizing the Fa, I made a promise that I would also memorize the Fa. At that very moment, Teacher encouraged me by making every Chinese character appear very large in front of my eyes. I asked my daughter for her help and asked her to look at the book when I was memorizing the Fa word by word. However, memorizing the Fa was very hard for me, and sometimes I couldnt remember a single word correctly after having repeated it many times. My daughter even complained to me that she had never seen such a thickheaded person as me. I also vexed myself; however, I thought to myself that no matter how hard it was, I should never give up. Several days later, because my daughter was helping me memorize the Fa, she herself also began to study the Fa. And from then on, even now, she has insisted on doing so.
However, I didnt persist with memorizing the Fa every day, especially when some officials started harassing me at my home. During that long period of time, I stopped memorizing the Fa. Several days ago, when I was trying to save sentient beings by trying to persuade them to quit the Communist Party and its related organizations, since I was worried about my performance and nursed a human desire for quantity and speed, the evil forces took that loophole of mine and made me very busy, so that I didn't study the Fa with a clear mind for several days. In my heart, I felt quite worried, yet I couldnt break away from it. As a result, everything went wrong: my husband had a quarrel with me about my going out to distribute truth-clarification materials; something went wrong with my computer at home; and, after having it checked, I was told that the hard drive was damaged and the only thing I could do was to buy a new one or buy a new computer. At that very moment my mind became clear, and I dropped everything and forced myself to study the Fa and memorize the Fa.
My mind has been clear for several days, and the speed at which I am able to memorize the Fa has increased. Also, the energy field has been reinforced dramatically when I send out righteous thoughts. Several days later, I had my computer repaired and it only had some minor problems and operates normally now. When I logged onto the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, I saw Teachers new article, "To the Australia Fa Conference." I was very excited and I deeply felt our revered Masters enormous benevolence. Enfolded by Buddhas infinite grace, we would feel sorry if we couldnt study the Fa well and do the three things well.
Teacher told us in the article, "To the Australia Fa Conference,"
"Don't just go through the motions when you study the Fa. You should study with a concentrated mind, and you must really be studying."
We must follow Teachers teaching and study the Fa well. Then we can really obtain the Fa and do the three things well that Teacher has asked us to do. In this way we can walk well on the path of Fa-rectification.