Some Understanding of Selflessness
There was a time that I felt complacent and engrossed in my accomplishments; for example, certain articles were written by me, certain things were done by me, etc. Now I realize that this kind of mind-set is not right. I? Who am I? Teacher said, "Without my Law Bodies doing these things, even protecting the people in charge could hardly be ensured, let alone spreading the Fa widely. So don't always think of yourselves too highly." ("A Heavy Blow" in Essentials for Further Advancement) Without Teacher, without the Fa, how can there be anything in this universe? Among the things I have done, are they really accomplished by me? No, they are all due to the Fa. Even myself: am I not just a particle of the Fa? Once I have the notion of myself, am I not already separated from the Fa?
I used to think that when doing things, as long as I didn't think of selfness or myself, and only thought of how to make contributions to the Fa rectification, then I was regarding myself as a particle of the Fa, and this should be good enough. Now I realize that I had not actually achieved selflessness, since there was still a concept of "self" in my mind. My very thinking about how to let go of selfishness revealed my selfishness, and that I had already separated from the Fa.
A fellow practitioner once asked, "In the 'Lecture in Changchun,' Teacher said, 'you need to exist for yourself.' Isn't that selfish?" I think it is not. What is meant by 'you need to exist for yourself?' When holding all sorts of human ideas and calculating our personal gains, do we exist for ourselves? No, because in this situation, our true selves do not exist, only our degenerate notions. Only when truly melting into the Fa and existing for the Fa, do we really exist for self. Without the Fa, there will be no us. We are particles of the Fa, and when we exist for the Fa, we actually exist for ourselves. There is no you, me or him, only Fa! Thus, whatever we accomplish, is it not accomplished by the Fa?
In his lectures, Teacher said again and again that we are one body, but when we have the concept of self, how can we merge with that oneness?