Master Lifted Me Out of Misery

(Minghui.org) I’m a 67-year-old Falun Dafa practitioner from a rural area who began practicing Falun Dafa to improve my poor health.

Before I began practicing in 2001, I had several ailments, including chronic tracheitis (inflammation of the windpipe), inflammation of the gallbladder, and an overactive thyroid gland. I took many kinds of Chinese herbal medicines and pills every day. The cold of winter brought on the tracheitis. If it was a mild case, I took medication; when it was more severe, I needed an IV drip. I was sometimes incapacitated for up to two weeks.

By the time I was in my 40s, I could no longer do much. I felt bitter seeing others my age, or even older, move around easily with so energy while I struggled. I often complained to heaven that I was being treated unfairly and asked why I had to suffer so much. No answers were forthcoming, and I just had to endure the torment.

In the spring of 2001, I took a turn for the worse when I developed severe stomach problems. My stomach ached, and I could not eat much. I visited all the nearby hospitals and spent a lot of money, but nothing helped.

In just a few months, my weight dropped from 120 pounds to 100 pounds. I was skinny and weak, and I lay in bed all day. My family was very worried about me. I was depressed and couldn’t sleep at night. I was miserable.

A Falun Dafa practitioner in my village told me about the practice. Desperate, I started practicing it. At first, I had a very shallow understanding of the Fa. With my limited enlightenment, I did not believe in Master Li’s teachings. I thought, “Will he still take care of me since I’ve just begun to practice? Will I be okay if I stop taking medicine?” So, although I read Zhuan Falun,I continued taking medicine.

Finding a Reason for Hope

I finished reading Zhuan Falun in a few days, and a sudden sense of clarity washed over me. I found answers to questions that had puzzled me for years. I understood why people get sick and the purpose of life. I stopped complaining and realized that taking medicine only suppresses the illness, while karma, the cause of the illness, remains and will eventually resurface. I decided to throw away hundreds of yuan worth of medications and began to learn the Dafa exercises.

The beautiful exercise music cleansed my dust-laden heart, while the slow, fluid movements made me feel as if I were in a wondrous fantasy land. I felt refreshed and invigorated, my mind was at ease, and my spirits soared. It was a lightness I had never experienced before!

After a period of Fa study and doing the exercises, my ailments improved significantly, and I was able to fix meals. Two months later, my stomachache and other symptoms disappeared. I experienced the joy of being free from illness and repeatedly said, “Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master!”

Elevating My Character by Cultivating

My husband and I had many conflicts. He had a bad temper and disliked being criticized. We often argued over trivial issues, leaving us both feeling upset. In his eyes, everything I did was wrong. He often picked a fight with me and refused to let it go. However, he didn’t have an issue with anyone else who did similar things.

I once swept the floor but did not dispose of the dust pile. He complained nonstop. I did not study the Fa well at the time and was unable to deal with such situations. I continued to find fault with others whenever conflicts arose and failed to look within.

I wondered why he was always at odds with me. My attachment of disliking criticism flared up. I complained to myself, “What’s the big deal? Why are you so angry? I threw away the dust a little later. Is that a crime?” We argued nonstop, and neither of us would yield. In the end, we both felt physically and emotionally drained.

I took the initiative and tried to speak with him. I invited him to join me for lunch, but he just ignored me. I thought to myself, “I practice Dafa now. If I didn’t, I wouldn’t even be talking to you!”

By studying the Fa more, I came to understand that conflicts are not coincidental. Maybe I owed my husband from a past life, and he was helping me pay back karma. I felt more at ease. When a conflict arose again, I reminded myself to be tolerant and kept in mind he was helping me improve and gain virtue. Whenever the attachment of resenting criticism surfaced, I told myself, “I must be able to accept criticism and develop compassion.”

When I was having a hard time during a xinxing test, I begged Master to help me expand my heart’s capacity. Master has told us, ““When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.”” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun) I recited this passage over and over. My xinxing gradually improved, and I advanced in cultivation.

Dafa Gave Me Wisdom

Master has asked us as Dafa disciples to do three things well. The most difficult task for me was clarifying the truth to people. Initially, I didn’t know how to approach people and start a conversation. I went out several times but returned home without speaking to anyone and felt terrible.

I burned incense and begged Master to give me wisdom. Soon afterward, Master arranged for a fellow practitioner to accompany me when I went out. At first, I sent righteous thoughts while she talked to people. After watching her several times, I could eventually approach people and start up a conversation about the persecution.

I began by telling my relatives and friends about Dafa. Gradually, I could talk with acquaintances, visitors, and even strangers. Later, whenever I was out walking, shopping in the market, or attending an event, I seized every opportunity to approach people. Usually, I first sent righteous thoughts to eliminate all interference, then asked for Master’s help.

Ten years ago, I read an article suggesting that all practitioners would benefit from visiting the Minghui website. I thought it was a good idea, so I bought a laptop. I had never even touched a mouse, let alone used a PC. A fellow practitioner’s daughter offered to teach me. She patiently showed me what to do several times and let me practice more than once before I left.

But when I got home, I had completely forgotten what to do. A few days later, I went back to my friend’s place. This time I wrote down each step and went home to practice. I was soon able to access the Minghui website with ease.

Not long after, I set up a truth-clarification material production site in my home. I provided practitioners with flyers, booklets, and copies of Minghui Weekly. While making the materials, I was conscientious about doing quality work. I used coated paper on the covers of the booklets, and the finished product looked crisp and vibrant. I carefully checked to see if the print was blurry. If so, I would print a new page to replace any blurry ones. The booklets I made were well received. I have been doing this for 10 years now.

Every Wednesday, I download the Minghui Weekly files, which include a selection of cultivation experiences written by practitioners. Every Friday, I delivered printed versions of Minghui Weekly and other truth-clarification booklets to nearby practitioners, uploaded the names of people who’d quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations, and submitted practitioners’ solemn declarations to resume practicing. I try to meet everyone’s needs and know that the abilities I’ve gained are due to Master’s strengthening, along with help from fellow practitioners.

When I look back on my 20-plus years of cultivation, I feel that time has flown by. I have experienced heart-wrenching pain while trapped in tribulations, and I have felt joy after improving my xinxing. Although I sometimes feel overwhelmed and tired, I’m fulfilled and happy . I know this is my mission, and I am honoring the vow I made before coming to this human world.

This is the first time I’ve shared my experiences. Fellow practitioners, please point out anything that is not in accordance with the Fa.