Dafa Helps Me Get Rid of Atheistic Indoctrination

(Minghui.org) Before I went to medical school, I had been living in a small county. From elementary school, junior high school, and through high school, my outlook on life and the world was shaped step by step, and I had wholeheartedly believed that Marxism was the universal truth. Although I didn’t like to learn Marxist theory, and I didn’t learn it well, I had never doubted it and thought it was a profound philosophy. Although I didn’t understand “advanced theories” much, I had been convinced by “Marxist atheism” and it was unquestionable in my mind.

On October 10, 1998, some large banners for Falun Gong, also known as Falun Dafa, appeared beside the road on campus. I was quite stunned that they had appeared on the university campus. Back in my dormitory building, there was an introduction to Falun Gong being held near the door of the building. I said aloud to myself, “How can this be promoted on a university campus?” Behind me I heard a voice: “Why can’t it? This is not superstitious.” I turned around and saw a girl with glasses who had heard me talking to myself. She handed me a card and said, “A video of Master’s lectures is being played in classroom 105 tonight, so you can go and watch it.”

I took the card. Perhaps because she had said “this is not superstition” so confidently, firmly, and sincerely, I hadn’t said a word of rebuttal at the time. But after I walked away I naturally retorted in my head, “Aren’t you making a confession willingly? What’s not superstitious about this? You, a college student, believe this?”

I encountered a scene the same day that surprised me even more: dozens of students from other schools appeared on our campus, standing in line in front of the dormitory building to practice Falun Gong. I couldn’t understand why these young people who were just like me believed in this. When I passed by them, I looked at it for a long time, and when I went back to the dormitory building, I went up to the roof and looked down from above, looking at them for a long time. The impact on me was so great because they were also college students. Are these people more foolish than me? Have they been deceived? Now that I look at the mentality I had back then: I really lacked knowledge, what I had known was so limited, and I was deeply indoctrinated by atheism.

Several students in our dormitory talked about Falun Gong being promoted on campus. Most of the students already knew about Falun Gong and said that there were many people in their hometown who practiced it. I said, “I only heard my cousin talking about it during the summer, and I really didn’t expect that our university campus would let them promote this.” With this mentality, I went to Classroom 105 with two classmates to watch Master Li’s lectures in Jinan. Before playing the video, a male student said a few words briefly, and the few sentences I remember most clearly were: “I am a graduate student. We have indeed benefited from this, otherwise we would not have introduced it to you. This is the only university in the city that has not yet set up a Fa study and practice site.”

From that day on, I insisted on watching the videos of the nine lectures. I was really “persistent,” because I didn’t understand it well, and I often got distracted and sleepy. It wasn’t because what Master said was obscure or that I was not smart, but that Master’s words such as qigong, cultivation, celestial eye, supernatural powers, gods, and Buddhas drew blanks in my mind. To be precise, it would be nice if it was really “blanks,” but my mind was full of negative understandings: ignorance, superstition, and unscientific ... no positive understanding.

Since I was in such a state at the time, and no one was forcing me, why did I insist on watching the videos of Master Li’s lectures? I now know that there was a deep factor in my life, the desire and predestination for Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance were planted during the long history. Here, I will not go into detail about the deeper reasons, but the most superficial reasons were my curiosity and the desire to seek knowledge.

At birth, the human brain is like a blank piece of paper, with no notions. My parents were indoctrinated by Marxist-Leninist heresy, and the idea of “atheism” occupied a large part of their minds. My grandfather had even said to the younger generation, “After death, there is nothing.” My elders had failed to help me establish a correct understanding of the divine, and after going to school, we had to take ideological and political courses based on “Marxist materialism and atheism,” which are mandatory courses. That is to say, the originally blank piece of paper that was my brain at birth had been smeared with the strong mark of “atheism.”

Falling into the spiritual opium of “atheism,” we are totally unaware that we are indoctrinated, and we think that we hold the truth and laugh at others for being ignorant. After watching the videos of Master Li’s lectures, we set up a Fa study site. The female student who had said to me, “This is not superstition,” was a member of the student union, and she had begun practicing Falun Gong a year earlier and had become a volunteer assistant for the newer students. I remember this assistant told us: “If you are interested, you can come to learn, and if you don’t want to learn, don’t come. It’s casual and voluntary.”

I remember saying, “I am an atheist, and I just want to learn about it in my spare time.” I really had this type of mentality, walking in with curiosity and even bad intentions to look for faults in Dafa. What I thought was “wrong” in the book was measured by my notions, but were my notions right? I asked a classmate who studied the Fa with me: “Do you think there are gods?” He said, “Maybe there is? There should be, right? I kind of believe there is.” There were some students who were very active in studying the Fa and doing the exercises, so I thought they must believe in the divine.

When I first read Zhuan Falun, my biggest impression was that Master Li was teaching people to be good people. But I really couldn’t believe the parts in the book that mentioned Buddhas, Taos, and gods. In the process of studying the Fa, I gradually formed a view: Master Li may have seen the decline of our social morality and wanted to save the declining morality of mankind by having us “believe in the divine.” If more and more people learned and believed in the divine, and that good is rewarded and evil meets retribution, they would not dare to do bad things, and they would be able to improve their morality. Those who do not believe in the divine do the opposite.

In the past, I had often cared about some trivial things. For example, I had been unhappy that I had more dormitory cleaning duties than my roommates. After studying the Fa, I took the initiative to clean the dormitory more. Unconsciously, my mind was really improving.

In the past, I often had wild thoughts for a long time before falling asleep. After I studied the Fa and did the exercises, I could fall asleep right away. But I thought at the time that maybe I was in a good mood because I had participated in Fa study and practice. I didn’t think that Master Li was helping me purify my mind and body, because I didn’t even believe in the divine, let alone miraculous things.

Day by day, although I still couldn’t believe in the existence of the divine, when I studied the Fa I felt happy. I felt that the environment was good, and everyone tried to be a good person together. This was a pure land for the soul. The bad intentions I had to find faults in the Fa were gone. My initial curiosity also faded. Seeing the state of other classmates’ belief in the divine and the Fa, I began to worry why I didn’t believe in the divine.

I had a thirst for knowledge, so I often went to the school library looking for books related to qigong and supernormal abilities. I remember that I found a book by Qian Xuesen (a famous Chinese scientist who believed in qigong) on human science and supernormal abilities, as well as a book on scientists studying the reincarnation of the soul. After reading these books, I knew that the supernormal abilities of the human body are real, because great scientists were studying them, so they are not superstition. But I still had doubts about reincarnation.

One weekend, the assistant took a few students to participate in a Falun Gong practitioners’ experience-sharing meeting. The auditorium was very large, full, and there were people standing and listening. Practitioners took turns speaking to share their cultivation experiences. The speakers were from all walks of life, and I remember that most of them were young and middle-aged well-educated people. I listened very carefully, and several practitioners, all of whom were deeply grateful to Master, said they were grateful that Master had purified their bodies and eliminated their pain.

I had never seen such a scene in my life, and the most touching to me was that they all had truly benefited from Dafa, truly believed in the existence of the divine, and truly believed in Master and Dafa. That kind of gratitude from the bottom of their hearts was absolutely not put on, and it was absolutely not about treating belief in the divine or belief in Dafa as a kind of spiritual support or psychological comfort. That was my impressions at the time. And practitioners who truly believe in the divine, Master, and the Fa would not even think about whether the speakers were pretending to be sincere.

In fact, at that time many of my thoughts were indoctrinated by “Marxist heresy” from textbooks, so I used these wrong thoughts to measure everything, believing that faith was only a kind of spiritual sustenance and psychological comfort. I thought that in ancient times people believed in the divine and Buddhas because of the underdevelopment of science and frustrations in life.

Gradually, the ice of atheism in my mind began to melt, and the toxins from “Marxist heresy” were removed little by little. However, it was a slow process. I asked myself if I believed in the divine. The answer was “I can’t believe it,” and then gradually it became “I don’t believe much,” “I don’t know,” and “I believe a little.” I gradually changed from a staunch atheist to neither an atheist nor a theist.

One day in a park, I saw a dentist helping patients, and the scene was basically the same as the southerner setting up a stall on the street to pull teeth for people that Master Li had mentioned in the book Zhuan Falun. In the book the guy used a matchstick to remove the tooth. It caused no pain, no bleeding. The man I saw was using a small set of tweezers instead of a matchstick. No other devices. Seeing with my own eyes that this potion was so amazing, it was not something that I could explain with my knowledge of Western medicine. I told my classmates about it. I said, “Maybe Master is encouraging me.” Indeed, since then the “atheist” ice in my head melted a little more.

One night, I lay down for a while, as if I was asleep, and felt that I was gradually leaving the position where I was lying. I was not under my control, and I was moving onto the bed of my roommate, but I didn’t feel like I was touching her body. I was frightened and wanted to go back to my bed. I woke up after moving back, and I realized that it was as if my soul had left my body just now. This had never happened before. Later, a similar state appeared again. I knew that Master was helping me break through my atheism by helping me understand that people are not only in this physical body, but also have a soul that really exists in another dimension. In this way, Master helped me step by step to get rid of the spiritual opium of atheism.

The Chinese Communist Party then began the persecution. It can be said that this is the persecution of our traditional beliefs in the divine in China by the atheist Marxist-Leninist heresy from the West.

I wrote about my thought process during the early days of obtaining the Fa to serve as a reference for the world, especially Chinese people who are still indoctrinated by Marxist-Leninist heresy. I know deeply how difficult it is for an atheist to get rid of the ideological shackles of atheism, so I will not force you to change your notions of the divine and atheism, but only hope that you will be a person with independent thinking and won’t let Marxist-Leninist heresy imprison your thoughts. I will recommend a few books to you: Marx’s Road to Demonization, The Ultimate Goal of Communism, and Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party.

After reading these books, I understood that Marx himself was not an atheist, he was a Christian in his youth, and later changed his mind, joined Satanism, and remained a Satanist until his death. So why did Marx preach materialist and atheistic heresy that he himself did not believe? Did he have an ulterior motive? Yes, Marx believed in the devil Satan, the communist evil spirit, which was the devil’s pawn in the world and aimed to destroy all of mankind. Mao Zedong was not an atheist; he repeatedly asked experts to tell his fortune. Many high-ranking Communist Party officials burn incense and worship the gods, and this is no secret.

After practicing Dafa for more than 20 years, Master has taught me three major things in life: where I come from; the purpose of coming to the world; and where I should go. Therefore, my friends, I also recommend you read three articles that Master has written for all people over the past two years: “How Humankind Came To Be,” “Why the Creator Seeks to Save All Life,” and “Why This World Is a Realm of Unknowing.” After reading these three articles, you will surely have a correct understanding of these three major issues in life.