Do Not Get Stuck in Human Reasoning

(Minghui.org) I have attachments to complaining, blaming, and resentment. Master recently arranged an opportunity for me to eliminate those attachments.

I arranged to meet fellow practitioner Qing at a certain time and place, but she wasn’t on time. At first, I told myself not to worry, as perhaps something had come up and she was running late.

I was anxious but remembered what Master said:

“Don’t complainStay good and kind.” (A Sacred Song, Hong Yin IV)

I calmed down and waited some more, but after 30 minutes, I was ready to go. Then I heard Qing’s voice: “I was waiting at the wrong place, and I didn’t see you. I just realized this is where we were supposed to meet, so I hurried over.”

“How could you forget? Where is your main consciousness? Why are you always so forgetful?” I was muttering. “You’d better dig deeper and find the source of your attachment; you either come early or late, or even at the wrong time. How can you be so careless and irresponsible?”

After we finished what we’d planned to do, Qing apologized again: “I’m sorry to have kept you waiting so long.”

“Does an apology make it all right?” I was still upset and kept blaming and complaining, saying it was all her fault.

After Qing left, I realized that I had just reminded myself,

“Don’t complainStay good and kind.” (A Sacred Song, Hong Yin IV)

How could I turn around like that and completely forget it?

Digging deeper, I realized there are still corrupt things and factors in my spatial field and in my heart that have not been removed and eliminated. My cultivation is not solid; I have only cultivated the surface, and my heart and mind are not up to the standard, and then these corrupt things come forth to cause trouble.

Master revealed them to me so that I could see them, acknowledge that I must cultivate them away, and eliminate them so that I can improve and elevate. This was Master’s painstaking arrangement.

When I got home, I listened to a practitioner’s sharing article. It was about practitioners thinking of Master’s Fa when they have conflicts:

“When you butt heads with that person, it actually equates to butting heads with me.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan,” Collected Teachings Given Around the WorldVolume X)

I suddenly realized that Master had arranged for Qing to help me elevate myself! I did not realize it the previous few times, because I used human reasoning to look at the situation and thought it was all her fault. When I butt heads with her, I was butting heads with Master. When I complained about Qing, wasn’t I complaining about Master? What a sin that was!

But Master didn’t blame me, a dull disciple, and gave me opportunities repeatedly. This was another opportunity Master arranged for me. How could I cause Master to worry about me again and again?

When I saw Qing again, I sincerely apologized to her. “It was my fault in the first place, and yet you apologized to me again.” What a good fellow practitioner Qing is! I blamed her repeatedly, but she never got upset or made excuses. I feel so bad about what I did; I deeply regret it and blame myself.

I realized that superficial right and wrong are reasons at the human level. As cultivators, we have higher principles to guide us. Only then can we elevate beyond the human realm and cultivate toward a higher realm.

Qing helped me to get rid of my impatience, resentment, and competitive mentality. She helped me improve and elevate. When I stuck with human reasoning, I looked outward, demanding that others look within. How can I make progress in cultivation? I am so grateful for Master’s painstaking efforts to save me. Master has really worked hard to help his disciples improve.