Letting Go of Attachments and Improving While Going Through Tribulations

(Minghui.org) I saw someone I knew on May 25, 2024, and he asked me for truth-clarification materials. I gave him three booklets along with Master’s article “How Humankind Came To Be.”

He later told me the local police saw us and took the materials from him. I took a bus home, but when I arrived at my doorstep, plainclothes officers, who had been following me, stopped me. They accused me of distributing Falun Dafa materials and searched my bag. Four more officers arrived, forced me into a police car, and took me to the police station.

Clarifying the Truth in the Police Station

I sent forth righteous thoughts and clarified the truth to the police. I told them to not persecute Falun Dafa, because practitioners follow the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance to be good people. I said that China’s General Administration of Press and Publication lifted the ban on publishing Falun Dafa books, so they were legal publications, and therefore, truth-clarification materials were also legal. I told them about the fall of the Berlin Wall, the trials of the soldiers who fired upon civilians, and that raising a gun just one centimeter higher could have changed everything. I also talked about Jiang Zemin, starting with how he ordered the persecution, and what happened to high-ranking cadres Zhou Yongkang, Bo Xilai, and Li Dongsheng, who all carried out Jiang’s orders.

When the police said they wanted to search my home, I said, “You absolutely should not do that. Breaking into a private residence is illegal.” They said they could issue a search warrant. I said, “That makes it even worse. Your names will be on it, and when Falun Dafa is vindicated, that will serve as evidence of your crimes.” I sent forth righteous thoughts and asked Master to help these people and save them.

They transferred me to the police station in the area where my household was registered. An officer named Pang said he knew me and said, “If you think Falun Dafa is good, just practice at home. Why distribute materials? If you get arrested, you’ll even lose your salary.” He told me to return on Monday, May 27, and bring my ID card. He told a community staff person to escort me home.

On our way back, I clarified the truth to the staff person. She said, “We all know Falun Dafa is good, but the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) orders us to arrest practitioners. We have no choice.” I told her, “Treat practitioners kindly, and you’ll receive blessings. Remember, Falun Dafa is good, and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” She agreed.

Looking Inward

Officer Pang said he knew me, but I didn’t recognize him. It dawned on me that nine years ago, after I filed a lawsuit against Jiang Zemin, an officer from the police station called me and asked if I practiced Falun Dafa. I answered yes. He then said the same thing, “If you think it’s good, just practice at home. Don’t distribute flyers.” Could it have been him?

When I went to the police station on Monday, I confirmed that it was indeed Officer Pang.

I said, “We really have a predestined connection. After we talked nine years ago you never harassed me again. During the New Year I thought of you and wished you well. I hope you remember that Falun Dafa is good, and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good! When you treat practitioners kindly, heaven will grant you blessings and peace. I wish you good fortune!” He smiled and said, “Your household is currently registered in my station; however, according to your address, you shouldn’t be under my jurisdiction. You should transfer your household registration to the police station in that district.”

Because he hadn’t harassed me for nine years I didn’t want to transfer. I asked, “If I transfer, will you report me to that police station and they will persecute me?” He replied, “No, I won’t say anything about this, as I haven’t opened a case against you. But if you don’t transfer, and they find out later, I’ll be held accountable.”

I thought I should have consideration for him and I should transfer. But when I discussed it with the other practitioners, they all said I should clarify the truth to him instead of transferring. However, when I called him, he firmly insisted that I had to transfer. He had withheld my salary card, and said he would return it only after I completed the transfer.

The other practitioners advised me to look inward. When I did, I found many attachments: fear, jealousy, arrogance, resentment, and more.

Some practitioners suggested I expose the situation on the Minghui website or have overseas practitioners to call him and clarify the truth. I disagreed. He hadn’t persecuted me, so I didn’t want to provoke his negative emotions, which would make it even harder to save him. My aunt, who is also a practitioner, asked me, “Could this be related to your doubts about Dafa when our aunt passed away?”

I asked myself: Since I began practicing Dafa in 1998, have I ever opposed Dafa? No, I hadn’t. Did I ever doubt Master or Dafa? No, I have not. Even though I didn’t always cultivate well, when the CCP persecuted Dafa and slandered Master in 1999, I firmly defended Dafa to my classmates, friends, and coworkers. My upholding Falun Dafa led to the end of my relationship with a good friend, but my faith in Master and Dafa remained unshaken.

In early 2000, the former Falun Dafa assistant visited my home and said, “If the police ask you to sign a statement saying you won’t practice anymore, you must sign it. I already signed mine.” I asked him, “Do you still practice?” He said, “Of course. This is just to get by.” I said, “But isn’t that lying? Dafa is so good. Why would I stop practicing? Is it wrong to be a good person?” He turned to my mother and said, “She’s too stubborn and will suffer because of it. That’s why I came to tell you this.” My mother and I did not listen to him.

From the April 25 peaceful appeal to the July 20 persecution, I went to Beijing twice. I was arrested and illegally detained. The first time, I didn’t know any better and I signed the record of my testimony during the the interrogation. But the second time, I gave zero testimony and signed nothing. Over the years, I’ve been determined to do as Master asked—study the Fa, practice the exercises, send righteous thoughts, and clarify the truth to save sentient beings. Even though I haven’t studied the Fa well or cultivated my xinxing well, I’ve stumbled my way through.

I understood that this was a tribulation and a test for me. I said to Master in my heart: I will let go of all human attachments and only follow you! I sent forth righteous thoughts, “Completely eliminate all evil beings and factors interfering with my cultivation of Falun Dafa! Eradicate all demonic entities, rotten ghosts, and the specter of communism! I am a Dafa disciple, and the old forces have no say over me! I will never let your schemes succeed! Eliminate my fear, strengthen my faith in Master, strengthen my faith in Dafa!” I sent forth righteous thoughts for half the night. With that, my fear was gone, and the bad thoughts disappeared.

Learning to View Things with Righteous Thoughts

At this time, a practitioner gave me a sharing article written by another practitioner. After I read it, I realized that I relied on others. Because officer Pang never harassed or persecuted me, I didn’t want to transfer from his police station. But this attachment to dependency had to be removed. Another practitioner came to visit me, and before she left, she said, “You need to have compassion!” I realized Master was using her words to enlighten me. I lacked compassion. I resented officer Pang, because the other officers did not take my salary card, but he did, and he used it to pressure me into transferring my household registration.

I thought to myself, every day I’ll recite Master’s words:

“Mercy can melt heaven and earth into springRighteous thought can save people of the world” (“Fa Rectifies the Cosmos”, Hong Yin II)

Yet when faced with real-life situations, I forgot to apply them.

My aunt and I read what Master said about compassion and eliminating fear. I finally understood—why didn’t I want to transfer my registration? Wasn’t it because I was afraid of being persecuted again at the new police station? I was arrested by them before, so I didn’t want to go back. But could I complete my cultivation if I held onto this fear?

I took my property deed and went to see officer Pang. He took me to the housing bureau to get proof of residence, and then we went to the other police station. On the way, I clarified the truth to him, but he wouldn’t listen and even yelled at me. I said, “I’m just telling you that treating Falun Dafa practitioners kindly will bring you blessings. The divine beings in heaven will record your good deeds, and it will benefit your health, bring peace to your family, and even help your career.” He lowered his head and remained silent.

When we arrived at the new police station, they said the paperwork was incomplete, so the transfer couldn’t be processed. When we came out, he was upset and said, “I should really file a complaint against them.” He then returned my salary card and said, “Don’t go out and distribute materials anymore. Just practice at home.”

I said, “You have several truth-clarification materials now. Please read them.” He said, “Here you go again.” I said, “I’m speaking the truth. I’m not deceiving you.” He nodded. I continued, “Also, be sure to protect and treat Dafa practitioners kindly. You will receive blessings! Remember ‘Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!’” He smiled and nodded.

Through this experience, I truly eliminated many of my attachments. While writing this article, I deeply reflected on what happened: because I hadn’t studied the Fa well, I used human thinking to handle situations, which led to a series of tribulations. My excessive human attachments only intensified these hardships. The old forces wanted to use the excuse of disrespecting Master and the Fa to persecute me; they thought that I was unworthy and they wanted to destroy me. Master never gave up on me, and guided me step by step through these tribulations and arranged for fellow practitioners to help me. Without other practitioners’ help, I wouldn’t have been able to pass these tribulations so quickly.

I am deeply grateful to our Master! Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners, who helped me! Thank you, sentient beings, who helped me improve.