I Found True Happiness

(Minghui.org) Before I started practicing Falun Dafa, I was like a small boat helplessly tossing about on the sea of suffering—I drifted aimlessly and at any moment, I could be swallowed up by the winds and waves. Because I had no goal, I felt distressed and confused, and I often complained about my fate and blamed others. In the summer of 1995, I came across a book Zhuan Falun, and since then I have felt that I’m the luckiest person in the world—my life has been rewritten.

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I’m a cashier at my workplace. When I first started working, I had no experience. Due to a careless mistake, I transferred a collected payment (3000 yuan) to a coworker, but she did not give me a receipt, and there were no proper documents from the finance department. It appeared as though the funds were in my possession. I was at a loss for words. My coworker maliciously schemed against me and claimed I embezzled. She spread rumors about me everywhere. This was a huge blow for a girl in her 20s who hadn’t even started a family. I just wanted to die and put an end to it all. But somehow, a thought struck me: someday I would rise above this.

One morning when I was on my way to work, an elderly neighbor asked me, “Do you want to practice Falun Dafa?” I told her that I didn’t have time. However, a miracle happened. I heard very beautiful music when I was heading home the following day. I looked around to see where it was coming from, and I saw a group of people doing the third Falun Dafa exercise in a courtyard. I joined them.

The first Falun Dafa book I read was Falun Gong. Master said,

“Yet as a practitioner you will find the things that people take seriously to be very, very trivial—even too trivial—because your goal is extremely long-term and far-reaching. You will live as long as this universe. Then think about those things again: It doesn’t matter if you have them or not. You can put them all aside when you think from a broader perspective.” (Chapter III, Falun Gong)

I suddenly I understood. I found my supervisor and told him that I would reimburse the money that was missing. He asked, “How do you have the ability?”

I said, “If I save all my salary for one year, it will be enough to pay it off.”

I knew Master was already taking care of me because he let me understand a lot of heavenly secrets; Master saved my life. From then on, I was no longer pessimistic and passive—I became optimistic and positive. I was always the first one come to work and the last one to leave the office. I was conscientious and meticulous. I was highly recognized by my supervisor and coworkers, as well as upper management. The practice site was located in my workplace. I was bathed in the Buddha’s light every day. I felt really happy.

Cultivating in My Family Environment

My mother in-law is suspicious and arrogant due to the hardship in her life and her unpleasant marriage. I don’t get into conflicts with her on the surface, but I felt uneasy inside due to my resentment. Once during the Chinese New Year holiday, I expressed my thoughts on how we should bring new year gifts and visit relatives. My mother in-law suddenly started to make a scene and scream. She banged on the bed and cried loudly, as if her authority in the family had been challenged.

I was a bit confused. In desperation, I went to a practitioner’s home. When I described the incident, and the practitioner reminded me that Master said,

“Yet the humiliation and embarrassment that a cultivator endures among everyday people are not necessarily easier than that. I would say that friction among one another that tempers your xinxing is not any easier than that and can be even worse—it is also quite tough.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

I suddenly understood. My attachment that I can’t stand her touched upon her negative factors. She was indeed helping me. I saw my filthy human attachment, and I wanted to get rid of it.

On the way home, I bought some tangerines, which are my mother in-law’s favorite fruit. I walked into her room and gently said, “Mom, I was wrong just now. Don’t be mad at me anymore. Don’t be upset with me.”

My mother in-law replied with embarrassment, “It was not all your fault.”

Even though this was a small matter that happened quite a few years ago, when I think about it, I felt that’s the beginning of my real cultivation in my family environment. When I asked my family to recite “Falun Dafa is good” in the past, they didn't take it seriously. However, this time I validated the Fa with my own actions, and they indeed experienced the wonderfulness of Dafa. My husband started practicing Falun Dafa.

During cultivation, I felt when my human heart became lighter and lighter, my heart is peaceful and joyful. I often told my mother in-law some stories like “good deeds are rewarded but bad deeds are punished” or some miraculous stories that happened to practitioners. Our family environment is very good, harmonious and warm, and often filled with laughter and joy.

My mother in-law had a stroke, and was paralyzed for six years. I stayed by her side and took care of her attentively and meticulously, day and night. Sometimes, she defecated in her pants. I almost vomited when I cleaned her. I knew my attachment to filth hadn’t been eliminated, and I hadn’t met the standard of the Fa. Because her arms and legs didn’t function well, I had to feed her. We used the same pair of chopsticks. She ate one bite, I ate one bite. I felt it was normal.

One time, a friend of my brother came to my home and saw this. He was really touched. He said with emotion, “I saw this with my own eyes, who could do this?”

My sister in-law once told me, “You have a gentle character. Even if you didn’t practice Falun Dafa, you would still be good.”

I said, “It’s not easy to take care of a paralyzed patient. Over time, anyone can get weary. In the past, I used to feel upset inside, but after I practiced Falun Dafa, I treat her with genuine joy from my heart, without complaints or anger. It truly feels good.”

My mom came to my home and saw that I took care of my mother in-law attentively. She was jealous and said, “I am your mother, yet you haven’t treated me like that.”

I smiled and replied, “Mom, you can walk and move around. You are in much better shape than her [my mother in-law]. She can’t move. If I didn’t treat her well she would be suffering. You have such a great daughter, you should feel happy!”