I Had Only Dafa in My Mind When Facing Tribulations

(Minghui.org) I was fortunate to find out about Falun Dafa from my aunt in 1998. I first joined a Fa study group, and when I heard fellow practitioners reciting Master’s “Lunyu,” I felt that I had found out about the Fa too late. When I got home, I worked hard to memorize the Fa. I had only memorized half of Essentials for Further Advancement when the evil Party began its suppression of Dafa on July 20, 1999. Memorizing the Fa laid a solid foundation for my cultivation.

Tortured in Brainwashing Sessions

TV broadcast scenes slandered Dafa and Master almost daily after July 20, 1999. I cried at home and felt I could not sit still. When I saw fellow practitioners going to Beijing to validate the Fa, I thought that I wanted to do the same. Since I had never traveled far, I hired a van to take me to Beijing. The driver asked me where to go in Beijing, and I said Zhongnanhai. But, we were stopped as soon as we entered Beijing (vans were not allowed in the city).

After returning home, I still couldn’t sit still. I went to Tiananmen Square with another practitioner a few days later. I clearly remember the moment I walked onto Tiananmen Square. I couldn’t express the shock with words. My heart suddenly felt broadened, and I then felt Master pulling me up. It was a rocket-like rapid improvement that I cannot forget to this day.

It’s a pity that I had an attachment to fear and was obsessed with success in cultivation. I was picked up by the local police from our city before I could shout “Falun Dafa is good” at Tiananmen Square. I was illegally detained and taken to a brainwashing session.

I was handcuffed to a big tree at the brainwashing session. The bad guys pulled my hair and beat my legs with a broom handle. The broom handle was split, and my legs were bruised. I recited in my mind:

“The trials that a cultivator goes through are something an ordinary person could not endure. That is why throughout history so few people have succeeded at cultivation and achieved Consummation.” (“Position,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress II)

I knew that as long as I had Dafa in my heart, I would definitely be able to let go of all my attachments.

I went to Beijing to validate the Fa. My child was still very young, but I went anyway. I was detained and force-fed. But when I truly let go of life and death, the police immediately stopped the force-feeding. In the end, I was taken to a psychiatric hospital and injected with unknown drugs. I was taken home when my eyesight went blurry.

I went to Tiananmen Square again in 2000. This time I didn’t feel the fear I had the previous time. I had only one thought in my mind, that I must validate the Fa and clear Master’s and Dafa’s name. I shouted, “Falun Dafa is good!”

The local plainclothes police put me in a vehicle. There were many fellow practitioners who came to Beijing to validate the Fa in the car. We all shouted loudly, “Falun Dafa is good! Falun Dafa is good!” We were taken to the Dongcheng Detention Center, from where we were taken back to our respective cities by the local office in Beijing, and then taken to brainwashing sessions.

The police took turns beating us one night in October 2000. They rolled up the Dafa books, slapped our faces, and asked us if we still wanted to practice. They ordered us to badmouth Master and Dafa. But I had only one thought in mind, “I will practice even if they beat me to death,” and kept reciting it. The harder the person beat me, the harder I recited it in my mind. (Note: This thought was correct at that time, letting go of life and death, but we cannot acknowledge the arrangements made by the old forces.)

The police dragged all the practitioners to the courtyard one day and yelled at us, ordering us to kneel down and curse Master and Dafa. I refused to kneel, let alone slander Master and Dafa. They beat us on the legs with wooden poles, but I would not kneel. They had me and another practitioner stand facing a big tree. They found wooden boards to beat both of us.

While beating us, they wanted us to say that we were good practitioners of Master Li Hongzhi’s. I was stunned. Before I spoke, the fellow practitioner opposite me fell down. I thought to myself, “After all, they are also deluded beings, and we cannot let them continue to persecute Dafa practitioners.” I also fell down.

They were frightened seeing us fall, and immediately stopped persecuting all the practitioners. They carried us to the sofa in the house. They called my name, pinched me, poured water on me, and stepped on my feet. A fellow practitioner later told me that the person who beat me had sweat dripping from his head.

They discussed taking me to the hospital. They stayed up all night and kept observing me and asking fellow practitioners to give me water. From then on, we were no longer persecuted in the brainwashing session.

Spreading Dafa Articles and Studying the Fa in Labor Camps

The police took me to the local labor camp for three years of forced labor. The police put those of us who did not “transform” into the same group. I recited the Fa, and also encouraged fellow practitioners to do the same.

Practitioners outside also tried their best to bring us new scriptures and lectures published by Master. Whenever a new article was distributed several of us stayed up all night, and each of us copied a page of the article on a piece of folded paper. We lay on our sides and copied the article word for word. We couldn’t make any noise because people were checking all night. We did not want to harm Dafa or Dafa practitioners.

We produced a handwritten copy of the new lecture and passed it on to fellow practitioners in other groups. Only after all groups had read the new lecture did we read the new lecture ourselves. Master said that we should cultivate to, “…attain the righteous enlightenment of selflessness and altruism.” (“Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature,” in Essentials for Further Advancement) At the same time, we also have the responsibility and mission to awaken fellow practitioners who are being persecuted and deceived by lies.

We worked during the day making artificial flowers. I recited the Fa to fellow practitioners when we studied the Fa as a group. We made the artificial flowers quickly and well despite reciting the Fa at the same time. The captain heard it and just asked us to quiet down our voices.

The labor camp checked for our scriptures from time to time, but fellow practitioners reacted smartly. A fellow practitioner pulled apart the used toothpaste tube along the bottom, put the scriptures in, and put it in the basin.

An elderly practitioner, who had strong righteous thoughts, was afraid that new practitioners would be deceived. She said to people when she saw them, “Transformation is wrong! Transformation is wrong!” She once went to the washing room and said this to the person next to her while washing her hands. When she looked up, it turned out to be the captain. They both laughed.

Many ordinary people understood the truth about Dafa. They helped us pass on scriptures, buy paper and pens, and buy a digital watch so we could send forth righteous thoughts on the hour.

What moved me the most was when an elderly practitioner in his 70s, who was almost illiterate, put the scripture under her pillow. She took a look at it at night, memorized a few words, covered it, and then read and memorized a few more. By memorizing a few words at a time, she finished memorizing the whole scripture.

I understood that this was the wisdom that Master has given us. Whenever a scripture was passed in, I recited it to my fellow practitioners every day and we all studied it. Because I knew that as long as one has the Fa in mind, one can escape that evil cave.

I walked out of the labor camp and was picked up by the local police and taken to a brainwashing session in October 2003. Because I refused to eat and was weak, the police asked my family to take me home. I calmed down, studied Zhuan Falun more, and did more of the exercises. I also sent righteous thoughts more often to save more people, so I could make up for my losses. I quickly integrated into the current of the Fa-rectification. I also started a small truth-clarifying materials production site at home.

After so many years of ups and downs, I realized that it was the Fa that allowed me to have firm righteous thoughts and believe in Master and the Fa in the face of torture. It was the Fa that allowed me to let go of life and death and make the evil afraid. Therefore, if we study the Fa more and do the three things well, we will be able to follow the cultivation path arranged by Master. We will also fulfill our prehistoric vows and help Master rectify the Fa and save all sentient beings.