When I Truly Let Go of Attachments, My Son Changes

(Minghui.org) My grandmother was a Falun Dafa practitioner before she passed away, and our entire family knew that Falun Dafa was good. I didn’t begin to enter Dafa cultivation before I got married. I was in poor health, and often had headaches, colds, and stomach problems. My grandmother saw that I was suffering, so she persuaded me to practice Dafa. Although I listened to her and started to practice, I was not diligent. If I felt physically well, I stopped practicing; when I felt uncomfortable, I picked up a Dafa book and studied for a few days. After getting married, I stopped practicing Dafa. I knew that Dafa was good, but I did not persist in studying the Fa and doing the exercises.

The arrival of my second child, a boy, changed my life. Because of the child’s education, I had a conflict with my mother-in-law. My mother-in-law thought I was too strict with my son, so she secretly indulged him behind my back. Under the connivance of my mother-in-law, my son deliberately looked for trouble with me every day, did not study at school, and kept making mistakes. Also, the teacher frequently asked me to come see her at school. My mother-in-law also tormented me with all kinds of tricks, and my son hated me more and more with the connivance of my mother-in-law.

By the time he went to junior high school, our relationship had turned for the worse, and we were even more incompatible. I was exhausted every day, and when I was angry, I would get dizzy and confused. There were several nights when I was so angry that I ran to the side of the train track and cried, thinking that I would rather die, because it was too hard to live in the world. While crying, I thought of the scene where I used to study the Fa with my grandmother, and my crying became even worse. Although I haven’t really entered Dafa cultivation, I knew the principles and understood how serious the consequences of suicide are.

In order to get out of my suffering as quickly as possible, I told one of my relatives, Amei, who is also a practitioner, about these things that had happened to me. With the encouragement of Amei, I re-entered Dafa cultivation.

Ever since I picked up the Faun Dafa book, I have come to understand that nothing happens for no reason, and that everything has a cause and effect. Slowly, I also let go of my sentimentality for my son and resentment towards my mother-in-law.

When I let go of my feelings and attachments, my son worked hard and barely reached the minimum score to enter high school. At this time, my attachments to fame and fortune rose again: in order to let him be admitted to college later, I tried every means to find a good tutor for my son at a high rate of charge, although I was in debt, hoping that in this way, my son’s grades could be improved a little more. But my son went to the tutor for three days, and he refused to study hard. The tutor also called me and said that he was not diligent.

My anger suddenly couldn’t be held back and exploded. I shouted at him: “I carefully save money to pay for your classes, and I don’t buy myself new clothes. But you don’t study well.” I scolded him harshly. He had a vicious expression and used bad language against me. I was so angry that I ran back to my parents’ house.

My mother said, “What are you angry about? You need to study the Fa and think about what Master said. What is your attachment? Isn’t this incident a good thing?” My mother also studied the Fa a few years ago, and she knows that Dafa is good. It dawned on me: Isn’t this Master’s using my mother’s mouth to enlighten me?

I then understood that because I am a Dafa practitioner, my son’s behavior was a test for me. I didn’t thank him, but fought with him. After figuring this out, I went home and sincerely apologized to my son. He changed his attitude and began to tell me his sincere thoughts. It was a good feeling to really let go of this attachment.

I truly let go of my attachments. After he started a new semester, he took the initiative to ask teachers questions, and his learning became more active.

On the issue of his education, I truly felt the significance of listening to Master’s words. When I really let it go, it was really like “After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)