Given Master’s Protection, I Passed the Tribulation of Life And Death

(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1996 in Australia, at the age of 26. After the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) launched the persecution of Falun Gong, I went to more than 30 countries to clarify the truth about Dafa. In 2002, I began working on sales for our media.

I have been through many tribulations, but I never thought I would face a severe sickness karma tribulation. I always thought these things happened to elderly practitioners.

I began experiencing abdominal pain after several months of light bleeding in June 2021. It was not severe in the beginning, so I continued to work as usual. I increased doing the exercises and sending righteous thoughts.

The situation soon worsened. By the end of the month, the pain at night was so bad that I was unable to sleep. I felt a lump in my lower abdomen, and the bleeding increased.

I was not able to finish doing the exercises or send righteous thoughts due to the pain. Soon the pain was non-stop 24 hours a day.

I thought there might be a tumor or something in my lower abdomen, and that I should have an operation to remove it. I went to the hospital for an examination. The doctor said that I had ovarian and uterine cancer. It was in the late stages and already spread to the lungs, liver, stomach, bones, and lymph nodes. My right lower abdomen was almost full of cancer cells. The doctor asked why I waited so long before seeking medical treatment and told me I only had a few months to live if the problem was left untreated.

I’ve practiced Dafa since 1996. I hadn’t gone to the hospital or used any medication except when I gave birth. I never took sickness karma very seriously. I did not begin practicing Falun Dafa because of health problems.

At that moment, I felt my tolerance to the pain in my body had reached its limit. My weight dropped sharply. I lost 20 kilograms (45 pounds) in two months. I was only 53 years old, and I had been full of energy since I began practicing Falun Dafa. I could not comprehend this sudden blow, and I did not understand why this happened.

I had to stop working and focus on dealing with this tribulation. I stayed home, read the Fa, did the exercises, and sent righteous thoughts.

I went to the hospital for an examination again six months later, in January 2022. All the cancer cells were gone. My doctor and the cancer specialist couldn’t explain it. They could only say that I was very lucky and it was a miracle.

I would like to tell you about my cultivation experience.

Truly Looking Inward

Facing such a huge tribulation, negative emotions such as panic, fear, pessimism, etc. at the beginning are very normal. If a person cultivates really well, he or she will not encounter such great difficulties. When such an intense tribulation takes place, it must be because of a big loophole in one’s cultivation.

I calmed down, looked inward very carefully, and reviewed my cultivation path of these past years. I used a piece of paper to record every thought I found which was not aligned with the Fa. I wrote down 14 items.

Identifying My Attachments

For many years, I was not able to calmly study the Fa, do the exercises, attend group Fa study, or read fellow practitioners’ sharing articles. I did not really improve my xinxing. It is in fact very dangerous for a cultivator to stay away from the cultivation group. I gained many human attachments. In my daily life, I was in contact with a lot of ordinary people. Unconsciously I gradually went further and further away from the Fa, and I became more and more like an ordinary person. I had fewer and fewer righteous thoughts.

I was busy with projects, work, truth clarification, and family. I was running like a robot around the clock. I exhausted my energy, but I did not cultivate in the Fa. Without the power of Dafa, huge tribulations occurred.

I had attachments to human sentiments and desires. Because I often watched ordinary people’s videos, which were full of lust and obsession, my human heart grew. For a while, I even thought that since my child would soon be an adult, I should consider my future, find a partner and get married. In fact, what I should have done was completely cut off the root of human emotions, and I must not make any mistakes in this regard.

I must get rid of all resentment. No matter how much I dislike a person, I should immediately let it go. My heart should not contain a tiny trace of it! Resentment is like a poisonous snake entwining a cultivator. If you want to practice, you must let it go. Instead, love the person you hate the most, and smile at them.

I also had a fighting mentality, and I often argued with people who were right or wrong. I also had heavy attachments to showing off and zealotry. I often spoke in a loud voice expressing my own emotions, which hurt others. A fellow practitioner once jokingly said that if anyone wanted to improve their xinxing, they should spend time with me. With such comments, I still did not look within. When I examined myself I saw I was self-centered. I rarely considered or cared about other people’s feelings.

I stood in front of Master’s portrait and said, “Master, I did wrong. I will correct myself.”

Let Go of Life and Death

Death seemed to be drawing near. I was worried and scared: Am I really going to die? I knew that if I died, Master would arrange a position for me. Even though I did not cultivate diligently, I knew Master watched over me.

However, if I died, my relatives and non-practitioner friends - what would they think of Dafa? I would bring disgrace to Dafa’s name! It would make the old forces happy, but my death was definitely not arranged by Master. I didn’t want this kind of ending. Meanwhile, I couldn’t shake my fear of death.

The doctor insisted that I undergo chemotherapy. So did my family members. My xinxing was low at the time, so I felt that ordinary people’s methods may ease the situation. Before undergoing chemotherapy, I asked Master whether I should do it. In a dream, Master showed me that a bigger snake was eating a smaller snake. I understood that chemotherapy was more toxic than cancer cells, and I shouldn’t do it. But the doctor repeatedly urged me, so I did it once. The third night after the treatment, I was very uncomfortable. I could not get up, I could hardly eat, and my liver became stiff.

That night, I felt that I was one step away from death. I looked at Master’s portrait and suddenly understood: My life was created by Master. At this critical moment, I didn’t believe in Master who created my life—instead, I believed in chemotherapy and the hospital. How could I be so stupid?

When my life was hanging by a thread, I found that everything in the world - family, friendship, fame, fortune, and all kinds of feelings of love, hate, joy, anger, and sorrow ... were distant and unimportant. They did not have any effect on me. Only Master is what I yearn for all my life. The only way forward is to give myself wholeheartedly to Master.

That night, I repeatedly recited Master’s poem:

“If you have fear, they will grab youOnce your thought is righteous, evil will collapsePeople practicing cultivation, filled with FaSending righteous thoughts, exploding rotten ghostsGods are in the world, validating Fa” (“What’s There to Fear”, Hong Yin II)

A practitioner told me that she recited this poem whenever she was scared. I recited it again and again. At the beginning of this tribulation, whenever I was alone at home I felt cold and afraid. I kept reciting the poem every day, and this feeling was less and less.

One day, a thought came to my mind: There is nothing to be afraid of! Do the old forces want my life? My life belongs to Master. Only Master decides whether I live or die. No one else is worthy to arrange it! I haven’t cultivated well, but I’ll cultivate better now. If I make mistakes Master will arrange for me to make up for it. Master is in charge

As my fear lessened I was able to let go of life and death.

View Sickness Karma from the Fa, Not from Human Notions

Master spoke of sickness karma many times in his lectures. I repeatedly read what he said and realized regarding cancer as a terminal disease is an ordinary people’s understanding. My fear was exactly based on this human understanding. Every tribulation humans experience is caused by their karma. Isn’t cancer also caused by karma? It’s just bigger karma with greater density. It requires me to endure more.

I kept telling myself: Don’t be afraid. Normal karma elimination eliminates one portion of karma. This time, I want to eliminate one thousand or even ten thousand portions of karma! It may not be easy. But it can be done since I have Master and the Fa.

I repeatedly read, “Your Mind Must be Righteous” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)

Focus on the Fundamentals of Cultivation

I had a bitter taste in my mouth, pain in the liver area, and I could not eat. A practitioner suggested that I watch the video recordings of Master’s Nine Lectures. After I watched the first lecture for an hour and fifty minutes while sitting in the double lotus position, I felt hungry and ate a lot.

Every morning fellow practitioners meditated with me for an hour and a half. After breakfast, I did the first, third, and fourth exercises three times. I then meditated for an hour and did the second exercise for an hour. In the afternoon, I listened to the recordings of Master’s lectures. After dinner, I meditated for another hour or I did the second exercise. I also sent righteous thoughts from half to one hour each time. The longest time was two hours.

I felt like I was fighting a war. The process of eliminating karma was like a war between good and evil.

Many times, as soon as I sat down to send righteous thoughts, there was lightning and thunder outside. I knew that although the karma was inside my body, it was also reflected in this dimension during the process of eliminating it. I cannot see other dimensions, but I could feel the fierce battle between good and evil. Since the density of karma pressing in my body was so high, I must race against time to eliminate it.

I stopped accepting other practitioners’ visits or answering phone calls except for a few practitioners who accompanied me to study the Fa or did the exercises, or who also experienced tribulations of life and death. Every day, I concentrated on doing the exercises, studying the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and eliminating karma. I knew the old forces would never show mercy to Dafa disciples. A fellow practitioner said she saw a red dragon breathing fire at my lower abdomen while she sent righteous thoughts for me. I knew I should completely negate and eliminate the interference. Dafa disciples who are in great difficulty need to send more righteous thoughts to mobilize their Dharma powers to protect themselves.

Once when I sent forth righteous thoughts, a thought came to me: Stop doing this, it won’t work. I was immediately alert and said loudly: Don’t disturb me, my sending forth righteous thoughts will work! I continued to send righteous thoughts. Then, I felt another thought telling me: I am dying, and I will kill you too. I replied loudly: I will not die, you are going to die because you interfered with Dafa disciples.

Fear or worry is useless. Only by facing it calmly and believing that you are a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period and you are the most precious being in the universe can you make it through. After persisting like this for a while, my condition improved.

Master Watched Over Me During the Entire Process

As soon as this huge tribulation began, Master arranged practitioners who could really help me, to be with me. One practitioner had a similar experience, which she shared with me. This was very helpful in strengthening my righteous thoughts and passing the test. Another practitioner meditated with me. When my legs became too painful that I wanted to take them down, she encouraged me to continue. When I was not very clear on the Fa, some practitioners gave me a rational analysis of the Fa and encouraged me. Some with their celestial eyes open described to me the fierce battles between good and evil they saw when they sent forth righteous thoughts for me. When I passed the test finally, a practitioner whose celestial eye is open told me she saw that the gods were very happy for me.

I remembered when the doctor told me that if I didn’t continue chemotherapy, I only had a few months to live. I decided not to do the chemotherapy. That night, I dreamed of Master. I sat beside Master, I talked a lot, and Master listened to me. I told Master there are still many things I could and wanted to do. In a dream, Master enlightened me on some causes and predestined conditions of this tribulation. Master also used homonyms in dreams many times to encourage me to be strong and told me the root of the karma had already been eliminated. Without Master’s protection, I would not have survived this tribulation.

During the karma elimination process, every night I kept playing Master’s lecture recordings. When I had some quiet time, I kept reciting “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” or Master’s poems in Hong Yin.

For a long time, whenever I looked at Master’s portrait, my tears couldn’t stop. In this dimension, I know that Master saved my life. In other dimensions, I don’t know how much Master has paid to save me!

I passed the catastrophe this time. I know that I am still far from meeting Master’s requirements, and I still have a long way to go. I am grateful to be alive today, and I can still practice Dafa.

When my health improved, I went to distribute truth-clarifying materials on the street again. I couldn’t calm down for a long time. How lucky I am! How many beings in the universe are envious of me? I must cherish this rare opportunity to cultivate and I must cultivate well! No words can describe Master’s great mercy. The only way to repay Master’s kindness is to cultivate diligently.