(Minghui.org) My brother and his wife live in another city. They came to visit and stayed for one night in December 2020. I was happy to see them. But putting away the bedding after they left, I fell from the chair I was standing on.
The back of my head hit the corner of the wardrobe, and blood gushed out. I immediately asked Master for help. I grabbed some tissue, sat down, pressed on the wound, and the bleeding stopped.
When my grandson walked in I put on a hat so he could not see the blood. I thought: “I’m a practitioner Master is looking after me, I will be fine.”
I wondered why I fell. What did I do wrong? I realized it could have been my sentimentality towards my brother. I did not want him to sleep in the living room, so I offered him and his wife my room. I keep Master’s portrait and my Falun Dafa books there. Letting my brother and his wife, who are not practitioners, sleep in my room was not correct—this must be the reason. The gash on my head healed.
Six months later I slipped and fell when taking out the garbage. The neighbors hurried over and helped me. My left arm hurt a lot. I was in so much pain that I forgot to send righteous thoughts—which are most crucial at such times. Instead, my human feeling surfaced, and pain was the only thing on my mind. My arm ached for several months, I believe because I cultivated poorly.
My left arm was useless after the injury, so I used my right hand. I did not do the Falun Dafa exercises. My daughter, who is also a practitioner pointed out that I could still do the exercise with my right hand. She was right. So I continued doing the exercises with just one hand.
My son and his family live close by. They checked on me and brought me food. In the beginning my son was worried that my arm might be broken. He knew I was stubborn, so he asked my daughter to try to convince me to have it checked out at the hospital.
I told him, “I’ve practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. Haven’t I overcome many obstacles with Master’s help? If I seek out medical treatment, who knows how long it will take for me to get better? Who knows what the prognosis would be?”
He thought about it and reluctantly said, “You must be careful then.”
“Master is watching over me, don’t you worry.” I told him.
I knew these two falls were meant to help me with cultivation, but I could not figure out what I did wrong. My daughter said, “You live by yourself now. Without family to look after, it’s time to let your sentimentality go.” She also pointed out that I spent too much time looking at a social media app. Even though I kept searching inward I still could not find the root of my problem.
To show my children the power of Dafa, I did my best to go about my days as normal, including doing the three things.
I am part of a team that makes phone calls to China. Our mission is to clarify the truth about the persecution against Falun Dafa to officials in the Public Procurator and Law Division. Recently we spent more time calling in the afternoon.
Because I could only use one hand, showering also took a long time. Luckily, it was winter, so I skipped some days. Even though I did not know how to search within like some practitioners do, I firmly believed only Dafa and Master could change my situation. It is my 22nd year of cultivation, my belief in Dafa never wavered. My faith is unshakable.
As a practitioner, having faith in Dafa and Master is the only way to make it through a dangerous situation.
“You say that you must be firm and sure-footed. With this determination, if you can indeed be firmly resolute at that point, you will naturally do well because your xinxing will have already improved” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
As long as you improve your xinxing, you can overcome them. Unlessyou, yourself do not want to do so, you can make it, provided you want to overcome them. (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
For so many years, I relied on strong righteous thoughts to break through one obstacle after another. Despite my age I’m energetic. My children have witnessed this.
As for Master’s new article “Wake Up,” my understanding is limited. However, it is obvious that there is no time for us to waste. The first thing I decided to do was to quit the habit of looking at my smartphone. I saved time by stopping sharing photos and videos with family and friends. During our online group Fa study, I either put my cellphone in another room or turn it off. I also turn off the landline phone in the room, so incoming phone calls will not interrupt me. I treat reading the teachings seriously so I sit cross legged during Fa study.
I began practicing Falun Dafa more than 20 years ago, and I’m 78 years old. If it were not for Master’s compassion in looking after me, I would have left this world long ago.
There are so many things I did not do well, but I did not even realize it. Looking back, I know I’ve disappointed Master.
Fa-rectification is coming to an end and I’m just noticing my mistakes! I am ashamed of myself! My only wish is to do what Master wants us to do. Time is limited, I want to do better to save more people. This is what Master wants.
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