Tribulations Caused by My Attachment to Smart Phones

(Minghui.org) I loved watching TV dramas since I was a child. After I began practicing Falun Dafa, I still could not get rid of my fascination with TV.‎

Master said:

“All things are material. When you have heard something, it has been infused into you, and it enters your body.” (“Fa Teaching on World Falun Dafa Day,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XII)

There are countless related sharing articles on the Minghui website, and I’ve read many of them. However, I still could not end my obsession with watching TV. I could not focus when I read the Fa, could not calm my mind when I did the exercises, and could not focus when I sent righteous thoughts. Because I could not eliminate this attachment, no matter how many things I did to save lives, they were not as sacred or effective as they should have been. I lost my job because of the ‎‎persecution and was eventually divorced. I was worried that I couldn’t bear the persecution but I still wanted to do well assisting Master in the Fa-rectification. I left China.‎

‎After I moved I actively engaged in doing the three things. However, I was homesick and missed my relatives. I picked up my smartphone and began watching dramas again. I wanted to distract myself and avoid the pain of homesickness. I often watched videos on my phone for an entire day or night. My mentality of pursuing comfort, my attachment to lust, and the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture’s influence in me were not discarded and instead inflated.

Whenever I was about to have a problem, Master gave me hints. I would become diligent for a short time, but soon return to my old habit. I sometimes even felt that I was not worthy of the title of Falun Dafa practitioner. I felt ashamed for not being able to discard this attachment after cultivating for more than 20 years.‎

‎‎One afternoon when I was looking at my phone, I suddenly felt bursts of cold substances penetrating my body. Hot and cold flashes ran through my entire body, and my head hurt so badly that it felt as though it had cracked open. I wanted to throw up, and my legs felt weak. I examined myself to see why this happened. I found that my most obvious attachment was to my smartphone.

While I was thinking about what to do, a thought came to me, “Let’s see who will help you this time. You must leave this world.” I realized that this was not my own thought. The old forces were trying to harm me. I immediately said, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” over and over again. I told the old forces, “I am not afraid of death but I will not follow you and leave. I will not jeopardize Dafa’s reputation. I only follow my Master’s arrangement. Although I did not cultivate well, I will correct myself following my Master’s teaching. You tried to inflate my attachment. You should be eliminated.” I gathered all my strength and went home.‎

After I got home I kept reciting Master’s Fa and sending righteous thoughts. I told myself, “I should not consider myself a patient. I only admit my mistakes to Master and I will correct myself following Master’s teaching. I don’t accept this interference. I will cultivate diligently and discard my attachment to my smartphone.” I begged Master to help me.‎

Suddenly my phone rang. A practitioner asked me to go out with her to promote Dafa, and without hesitation, I agreed. Throughout the following days, I kept reading the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending righteous thoughts. I also kept going out to promote Dafa. Meanwhile, I kept reminding myself that I must persistently control my thoughts every moment so they would not go astray. I felt Master’s strengthening all the time, especially when I felt extremely tired.‎

‎I did not diligently cultivate myself in the past, however, Master did not give up on me. Master strengthened me, helped me to remember the Fa, and encouraged me to maintain righteous thoughts. I was determined to cultivate every one of my thoughts and deeds diligently from then on. I want to be a true Dafa practitioner. I kept resisting and rejecting the interfering thoughts for about a week. Finally, seeing my sincere desire to cultivate, Master removed most of my karma.‎

I watched the DVD of Master’s “Fa Teaching Given to the Australian Practitioners.” I also read many articles written by practitioners about eliminating their attachment to their smartphones. Some practitioners said that they saw with their celestial eyes that Master’s hair turned white due to saving people and helping practitioners return to their heavens. I felt pained that I had not cultivated diligently.

At that moment, the voice sounded again in my ears, “You won’t succeed in cultivation. There’s little time left now and you have too many attachments. You will not succeed no matter how hard you try.” I told the voice, “It is time for you to disintegrate. I will cultivate diligently from now on, Master did not give up on me, and I will persistently cultivate to the end. I won’t worry or wonder if I have enough time. But you must disintegrate because you are interfering with my righteous thoughts.” I sent righteous thoughts. When I said the word Mie, (Extinguish), my mind calmed down. By correcting my thoughts and deeds, I recently gained a deeper understanding—something I did not have before when I read the Fa.

‎After experiencing many tribulations, I came to understand that nothing is trivial in cultivation. There is no other way except to cultivate oneself diligently with solid steps. I wrote this article to expose my attachment, and to discard it through cultivation. I also want to remind those practitioners who have the same attachment to use my experience as a warning. As a Dafa practitioner, one must sincerely follow Master’s teaching to cultivate solidly and be worthy of Master’s salvation. Otherwise the consequences may be serious because we made a vow to Master.

Please point out if there is anything not on the Fa.

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