Look Within and Eliminate Attachments During Conflicts

(Minghui.org) I slacked off in my cultivation after I got busy with my job title exams and work, and I started to have conflicts at work. At first I dealt with them like an ordinary person, but that led to more conflicts.

My immediate supervisor, who is also one of my older relatives, openly expressed her disappointment with my work. She was picky about my work and said my communication with other departments was poor. I was the only person in our department that she targeted.

She once said a report I created was not what she had asked for and that I was not listening to her. She said that my colleagues understood her and made the correct report. I asked a colleague for a copy of the report and found that it was the same as what I did. I showed both of the reports to my supervisor so she could see that they were the same, but she ignored me and told me to go back to work. 

I thought that she must be prejudiced against me. I tried to communicate with her, but what I received in return were questions and ignorance. Her attitude was tough and it frustrated me.

I didn't realize that this was a cultivation test that Master had arranged for me. I didn’t think of myself as a Dafa disciple when I looked at these problems, so I dealt with them like an ordinary person would. Gradually my cultivation state worsened.

I eventually realized that I am a Dafa disciple, and I must resolve these conflicts at work. I have to change. But I wasn't sure how I could change. I studied the Fa more and concentrated on what I was reading. I read the Fa more slowly, word by word. I resumed practicing the exercises in the morning. I paid more attention to sending forth righteous thoughts. Through Fa study, I gradually began to see more principles of the Fa.

Master said,

“You will be made to abandon all those attachments that cannot be given up among everyday people. As long as you have them, all of those attachments must be removed in different environments. You will be made to stumble, whereby you will become enlightened to the Tao. This is how one goes through cultivation practice.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

I understood that the environment at work was arranged by Master so I could relinquish my attachments. I found my attachments when I revisited the conflicts I had experienced at work.

I found that my emotions made me hope that my relative supervisor would give me recognition and praise. My supervisor was picky about my work because I pursued perfection and had an attachment to showing off. Her disapproval of me was a manifestation of my competitiveness, since I wanted to be better than others. I thought she was prejudiced against me, praising others but accusing me, when in fact it was due to my jealousy.

I sent a lot of righteous thoughts and asked Master to strengthen me to get rid of these attachments. After the elimination of my attachments, her attitude toward me changed. She is no longer tough and disdainful, and she is more considerate when I encounter difficulties in my work.

Thank you Master for your compassionate arrangement to help me improve in my cultivation. In the future, I will study the Fa more solidly and look inward when I encounter conflicts.