China Fahui | Rectifying Myself and My Surroundings after Being Imprisoned for Three and a Half Years

(Minghui.org) Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!

Shortly after I was released from prison in November 2019, COVID broke out, and I felt the urgency of saving people. Throughout these years, I’ve really felt that Master was by my side protecting me, and I also took to heart what Master said: “Dafa disciples are the sole hope for people’s salvation.” (“The Only Hope,” Hong Yin III).

I. My Husband Said, “My Wife Is the Best.”

Being persecuted for three and a half years in prison took a heavy toll on my health. My hair turned gray and was falling out. My vision was blurred. My vertebrae were fractured, yet the guards still forced me to sit on a small stool. As a result my legs were numb—an early symptom of paralysis. My back hurt so much after sitting for even a short while that I had to lie down flat on my back. The guards often secretly put unknown drugs in practitioners’ food, and I suffered severe memory loss. The guards tried everything to prevent practitioners from communicating with each other. When I returned home, I thought that I could finally see fellow practitioners. I was so happy!

But when I got home, the reality was that, due to the threat of persecution, my husband watched me all the time and refused to let me go out. He said, “The police are watching everywhere these days. It’s best to not contact other practitioners.” This was a heavy blow to my heart. Before I was sent to prison for my belief in Dafa, my husband supported my cultivation and even helped me do some things to validate the Fa. What happened?

He told me, “I sold our store and our home. I’ve moved everything here.” I looked at the piles on the floor and asked him, “What about the things I asked you to look after for me?” He said, “These past few years, I even thought of killing myself. I had no energy to care about those things!”

My resentment immediately surfaced. I thought, “You did everything I told you not to do. I asked you so many times to take care of the truth clarification materials for saving people, and now they are gone. I told you to keep our apartment, but you sold it. You promised me you’d take care of things but you did not.” I was really angry and felt terrible. I calmed down and studied the Fa more. I told myself not to blame my husband and to regard all of these as good things in my cultivation.

I let go of my wish to see other practitioners. Apart from studying the Fa and doing the exercises every day, I began sorting through the piles. My violin that I’d owned for 40 years had been soaked by the rain and broke into pieces; the camera that I always carried was gone; my ID card, favorite clothes, and stamps I’d collected for many years were all gone; half of the speakers to the sound system that cost 10,000 yuan were missing. Although I no longer complained about my husband, when I thought about the things that had disappeared, I felt so sad that I wanted to cry.

While I was imprisoned, my husband was always in a bad mood and lacked energy. The income and expenditures from his work were all disorganized. I helped him check the receipts one by one, write them down, and organize them into a book. My physical condition only allowed me to work for a short while and then I had to lie down. My husband’s health was not good, either. He mostly laid in bed and was still in a bad mood. He would suddenly get angry and sometimes even threaten to divorce me.

I couldn’t contact fellow practitioners, couldn’t get on the Minghui website, and couldn’t go out to save people. I felt so anxious! Whenever I had trouble forbearing, I silently recited Master’s Fa, “If both you and I are nice to each other and sit there in harmony, how can increasing gong be possible?” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun) I reminded myself again and again, “I must not get angry with him. I must understand him. I must remember that this suffering is a good thing and adjust my mentality.” With the help of Master’s Fa, my heart became more and more relaxed, and I was able to gradually let go of my resentment and attachments.

I was no longer affected by my husband’s behavior. I realized that his mental state was also caused by the CCP persecution, so I should be understanding. Because of the persecution I left home, and then I was imprisoned. I was seldom home.

I realized that being a good wife is also part of validating the Fa. Every day I cooked delicious meals for him. When he suffered from a frozen shoulder and couldn’t lift his arm, I helped him dress, take a bath, wash his hair, and so on. One day he said to me from the bottom of his heart, “My wife is the best. Thank you!”

After I saw how he’d changed, I told him, “While I was persecuted in prison the other practitioners were all very concerned about me. Now that I’m back, they still don’t know how I am, and they must be very worried. I want to go see them.” He reluctantly agreed and said, “I will go with you, but you can only visit one person!” He drove, and after several twists and turns, I finally met the practitioner. I couldn’t control my emotions and I wept. I silently thanked Master in my heart. The other practitioners gave me a lot of encouragement. They also gave me Master’s new lectures, the updated exercise music, and new software for overcoming the Internet blockade. I felt so much better because I’d returned to the group cultivation environment.

After I returned home, I played the divine culture stories from the Minghui website for my husband. After listening for a while, he said, “This is quite good.” Then I played stories on Minghui Radio, Sound of Hope, etc. for him every day. Sometimes I also read him cultivation stories and the miraculous experiences some people had after saying, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” I told him that it would help him if he recited it. He accepted this. However, when he heard things about the evil nature of CCP, he would immediately get upset and say, “I don’t want to hear that!” I knew that the CCP factors in him were afraid, so I did not force it. I sent righteous thoughts to clean up my own dimensional field and disintegrate the negative factors that were interfering with him.

When I first tried to write articles to expose the persecution, he said, “What are you writing? You can’t send that to Minghui.” Whenever I began writing, he came over and checked on me. I thought to myself, “I can’t be writing behind his back all the time, because that would not be cultivation.” So one day, I picked up the pen right in front of him. He saw it and said, “Why do you always write?” I said, “You can edit for me after I finish.”

I wrote about how my father loved and cared for me when I was a child, and after I grew up, especially after I began to cultivate, the small things that showed how devoted I was to my father. The lines were filled with kind thoughts. After I finished I read it to him and asked him to edit it for me. He said, “It is pretty good. I don’t know what to change.”

I gave the short article to Father on his 88th birthday, along with a booklet about the persecution. My father read them and was very happy. From then on, whenever I wrote something and it was getting late, my husband expressed his concern and said, “Go to bed early. You need to take care of your health.”

Whenever my husband got angry, I reminded myself that he had also suffered due to the CCP’s policies over the past few years. I didn’t argue with him and tried to let go of my attachments. He also gradually changed when he saw that I did not argue with him. As my xinxing improved, Master helped me and cleansed my body. Gradually, I could sit for a long time without needing to lay down.

Master also helped me find a practitioner who lived nearby. In March 2020 my husband and I were taking a walk inside our locked-down community. A neighbor was talking to a custodian, and what she said was something I’d read on Minghui. I knew that she was a practitioner. When I said hello to her, she recognized me immediately. She said that the fellow practitioner I had been looking for had moved even closer, and both of them now lived less than 100 meters away! I was so happy that I thanked Master from the bottom of my heart! I couldn’t keep up with the progress of Fa-rectification for three and a half years, but now I received a lot of help from other practitioners.

I constantly rectified myself with the Fa, and my husband also changed a lot. He now carries a Falun Dafa amulet and says “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” every day when he goes out to walk. His health greatly improved and he no longer stays in bed. I said, “Master also cleansed your body, because when one person cultivates, the whole family benefits!” I suggested he read Zhuan Falun and he agreed. After reading a few lectures, he said, “This book really teaches us to be good.” He gradually felt more energetic and was able to go out to meet his friends.” I said, “When you are not at home, I will also go out for a walk (to tell people about Falun Dafa).” He responded, “Just be careful!”

My husband recently told me that his younger brother had a skin disease but it was not getting better even after using medicine. I said, “Tell him to say, ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.’” He told him the next day.

Now my husband goes to my 90-year-old parents' home every night, which allows me to spend more time validating the Fa and saving people.

II. Cherishing Master’s Arrangements

1. Taking the Initiative to Find Relatives and Friends to Clarify the Truth

On Chinese New Year’s Eve in 2020, dozens of my relatives gathered together. I normally would not get to see them and didn’t even know some of them. I knew that Master had sent them to me, so I must cherish this opportunity. One older lady was a retired CCP official. I’d clarified the truth to her many times but she’d never agreed to withdraw from the Party. I sat next to her at the table and said, “You have praised me since I was a child. You saw that when growing up I didn’t make my parents worry. At work I was recognized by everyone as the best worker. But the CCP still persecuted me and imprisoned me for my belief.” We talked a lot, and she finally agreed to quit the CCP.

The pandemic restrictions were later eased. At the time, my husband still didn’t want me to go out by myself. I said, “I want to go visit the relatives I didn’t see during the Chinese New Year.” That evening, when I was clarifying the truth to relatives, my husband came in. He was very angry, saying that I’d been gone for too long. I realized that this had happened so that I could eliminate my attachment to saving face. I was not moved by his attitude, and I cheerfully helped the relatives withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. Then I went home. By that time my husband had calmed down and said, “It was so dark. I was afraid that you would not be able to see, so I went to look for you.”

When spring arrived, I said to my husband, “Let’s go with my former coworker and her family to the countryside to collect wild vegetables.” He was happy but told me to be careful about what I said to them. My coworker was happy to see me. I told her about withdrawing from the CCP while we collected vegetables, and she agreed to quit. She then took me to meet a friend the next day. I clarified the truth to her and she also withdrew. I later met her son and helped him quit. Shortly after, I went to her son’s ex-wife’s family and helped them withdraw.

I wanted to visit my former neighbors. That evening my husband and I took a walk in our old neighborhood. I said, “I remember Mr. Wang’s home is that way, right?” He said, “After you pass the bridge, it’s inside a big compound.” The next day, I took a taxi to the compound. After I entered the gate, just when I thought that I couldn’t find which unit Mr. Wang lived in, I saw a lady less than two yards away that looked like Mr. Wang’s daughter. I called her name. It took her a while to recognize me, but she happily took me to see her father. That day, I helped their family withdraw from the CCP and I also wrote down the phone numbers of Mr. Wang’s other relatives. He took me to see another neighbor.

The neighbor and his wife were so happy to see me and said, “It’s been so many years. We usually go out for a walk every day, but we just happened to not go today.” The wife was very warm and friendly and showed me a photo of her son’s family. I took note of her son’s phone number. Her husband had been a city-level model worker for many years before he retired and was deeply poisoned by the CCP. He finally understood the persecution and quit the Party. Later, I called their son and talked to him. Next I went to his wife’s workplace. They all withdrew from the Party.

I also went to see Mr. Wang’s sister. After she agreed to quit, she told me her son’s phone number, and I helped her son and daughter-in-law withdraw. I also went to visit Mr. Wang’s son’s, third daughter’s, and youngest daughter’s homes, as well as the fourth daughter’s workplace, and helped them quit. Two of Mr. Wang’s other relatives also agreed to withdraw.

I just went from one family to the next like this, and I also talked to my old coworkers. I went out every day, and when I took a taxi, I talked to the driver about renouncing the Party and gave him a USB flash drive that contained the truth about Dafa and the persecution. Fellow practitioners gave me many USB flash drives, and I distributed all of them.

One day, my husband said to me, “You go out every day. Where have you been going?” I couldn’t lie, so I just kept silent. Seeing that I wouldn’t argue with him, he was unhappy at first but soon returned to normal.

I looked inside myself: “Why did he say this to me?” On the surface, he was worried about my safety, but in reality, perhaps Master was giving me a hint that I must hurry up and be more diligent. I was in prison and wasted several years. During that time, even if I only saved one person a day, that would still be more than a thousand people! When my husband asked, “Where have you been going?” I understood that I hadn’t been to enough places to save people, and perhaps my method of finding people was not comprehensive enough. So, I copied down all the numbers from my parents’ phone book, my sister’s phone book, and my husband’s phone book. I also used one relative to find the next relative’s phone numbers. Master saw my heart and helped me meet a practitioner who clarified the truth by calling people. So I went to her home, and we made phone calls to people. One day, I used her mobile phone and helped 15 people to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.

When I was in prison, a prisoner secretly took care of me. I saved her sister’s phone number. I called her and told her about quitting the CCP and its affiliated organizations. She then gave me the phone number of her brother-in-law and I called him and helped their family quit. I also helped another prisoner’s daughter quit.

The practitioner I coordinated with found a list of phone numbers of the people who worked at the labor camp where practitioners were persecuted. She called every number and told them with compassion, “The disasters we are going through right now are all because of the CCP’s tyranny. The heavens will destroy it. You were forced to be tied to the Party and it persecuted practitioners. Even though this group of kind people was persecuted, we have not forgotten about you.” There were more than 100 people on the list and about 5% withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.

Another time, I collected the phone numbers of many government officials. I gave the list of 142 people to the practitioner, and she helped 73 quit. Among them there were four county deputy mayors, four town mayors, and one deputy mayor of a county-level city. They all thanked her.

She and I went into a workplace where we knew a lot of people. The guard at the gate was friendly. He heard that we knew so many people, so he handed me the phone book and I took a picture of it. There were 137 people on the list and the fellow practitioner helped 35 people withdraw. These people were usually difficult to find and talk to face to face.

In late June 2020, I went to a friend’s home. After we spoke, she understood the urgency of the current situation, and she brought along her brother, sister-in-law, nephew, nephew’s wife, children, and grandchildren and asked me to help them all quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. She was also very happy to accept the materials I brought, including USB drives, circumvention software, and the book The Ultimate Goal of Communism.

I also talked to retired government officials I’d worked with in the past. I brought some of them gifts and visited them in their homes. Others I invited out to eat. I talked to those who were not in my city anymore on the phone. While talking to them, I asked them to give me the phone numbers of their friends and relatives. Just like that, I talked with more than 30 people. After I talked with one old colleague, he said to me, “Next time when you go in to ask for your salary, let me know and I will go with you and testify for you.”

2. Do Not Be Selective about Saving People

The pandemic came in waves. Thinking that so many people still did not know the truth, I did not dare to slack off a bit, and I went out to find more people to talk to. I would pay attention to what was going on, find appropriate topics to start up a conversation, and look at things from the person’s perspective to really try to understand them and care for them from the bottom of my heart. Master has given me wisdom, and I was often able to come up with a good subject to chat about right away. Sometimes I encountered people who called the police, people who didn’t want to listen and started screaming, and people who took pictures of me. But I was not moved and would immediately look inside to make sure my mind stayed very pure for saving people.

On November 1, 2021, I clarified the truth to a young man waiting for a bus. He was a member of the CCP, and after hearing the truth, he agreed to withdraw from it. Then he said to me, “You are very lucky today!” When I heard that, I knew right away that he must be a police officer. I said, “You are even luckier today because you made a good choice. I am so happy for you.” When he asked me if I knew what he did for a living, I said, “If you do business, your choice today will make your business better. If you are a police officer, your future will be very bright!” He took out a bunch of keys from his pocket, and said, “Do you know these?” I said, “One of my relatives is your colleague. So I know these keys (skeleton keys).”

He then said, “I am very down right now. I pretty much have nothing.” I understood that his question was why his life wasn’t going well even though he didn’t oppose quitting the CCP. I said, “Your choice today will benefit you, your parents, and your family. Good and bad actions are repaid. Take a look at the two former directors from our city procuratorate. They thought they could avoid going to jail by retiring early. But their crimes were still found out and they were sentenced, right? Why? People have to take responsibility for what they have done. That’s heaven’s law and it balances everything in the world, including our destiny, which is determined by heaven. Today, you made the right choice and you are the most fortunate for that.”

I told him several stories. He listened to me for more than half an hour and he finally understood. We shook hands before we parted.

In March 2022, I noticed a young man smoking in front of a bank. I greeted him and said smoking was bad for his health. He smiled, and I asked him how old he was. When he said he was in his 30s, I said, “You look much younger than that!” He said, “I work in the Disciplinary Inspection Commission.” I thought to myself, “It’s hard to meet people in this department. I must save him.” I smiled and said, “Oh! That department is very special. It is really a blessing to have such a good job at such a young age. Do you travel often?” He said, “Yes. I just came back from an inspection.” I said, “These days, there are no officials who are not corrupt. Those national and ministerial level officials are even more corrupt.” He said, “We can’t do anything about that. We only take care of the grassroots level.” I said there was also a lot of corruption at the grassroots level and gave several examples in our city. We chatted for quite a while.

I told him, “Remember to be honest, kind, and tolerant. This is the standard set by heaven. The reason for this pandemic is that people now have disobeyed the standard and are not in line with heaven. You must stay safe during the pandemic.” He told me that he was a CCP member. I said, “You are an outstanding young man and so you were selected. But you should invalidate the oath you made to the CCP. Don’t give your life to it. Use a nickname to annul those three oaths, and everything will go well.” He said, “Okay, thank you.” I told him, “Always say, ‘Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.’ That is the only way to be safe for sure.” He thanked me several times and also wished me well.

Whether I talk to seniors, the middle-aged, college students, middle school students, or children, I often start the conversation with something I know they may find interesting, such as photography. I then tell them to say, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” and help them withdraw from CCP and its affiliated organizations.

III. Opportunities to Improve My Cultivation

Clarifying the truth to save people is also part of our cultivation, and it is very serious. If we do not cultivate well and eliminate our attachments, not only will we not be able to save sentient beings, but it will also lead to losses.

In February 2022, I was waiting for a bus at a station and clarified the truth to a young man in his 20s. At first he listened. I then told him about the Hidden Character Stone in Pingtang, Guizhou Province, and told him that he could look it up on his mobile phone. He suddenly asked me what my last name was. Then he quickly dialed a number on the mobile phone and said, “There is a Falun Gong here!” I knew he’d called the police, so I hurried to the other side of the station and told the other practitioner. She left quickly. The young man grabbed me and wouldn’t let go. Later, with Master’s protection, I was able to leave.

After this, I knew that I must have had an attachment and it was taken advantage of. I looked back at my cultivation process since I started to clarify the truth face to face. From the beginning of breaking through and getting out of my home, to being able to help a few people withdraw every day, and then to a dozen people a day, 20 people a day, and the most at 31 people a day, as the number went up, I gradually developed the attachment to doing things. Sometimes, seeing the joy in people after they understood the truth, I got overly happy and gradually developed the attachment of zealotry.

Last year, my husband began to read the Fa with me, and I was happy for him. But because he hadn’t really solidly cultivated yet, he often gave his opinions and said things like a certain part was impossible or he didn’t believe some things Master said. That made me very angry. I was also afraid that he would incur karma for saying those things, so I stopped him with strong words. But he didn’t care. I would then get even angrier and say a lot of things to accuse him. I completely forgot that this was also my cultivation environment. After I found my issue, I tried to explain to him the sacred nature of Dafa and why we should respect Master and the Fa. He knew that he was wrong and said, “I will not say anything disrespectful of Master. If I don’t understand something, I’ll just let it go and hopefully I’ll gradually understand it.”

There’s a small garden across from the local train station. People often sit on a bench there to wait for buses and trains. They come from all over the country. I know that they are all predestined people who are here to be saved. I often go there and clarify the truth to them. I realized that the cleaning person was often there when I clarified the truth, and he would sweep near us so he could listen to our conversation. I thought that he was there to interfere. Sometimes when I encountered someone who didn’t want to listen, I thought, “Is he a plainclothes policeman?”

Gradually I realized that these thoughts were not good and I needed to watch my mind and improve my xinxing. I should replace these negative thoughts with righteous thoughts. They are all beings who are here for the Fa, and maybe they came for help. After realizing this, when I met people who seemed to interfere or didn’t want to listen, I would treat them as my family and hope that they would make the right choice. Once I eliminated my negative thoughts, the energy field became calm and peaceful.