(Minghui.org) I went to a mall yesterday to buy a pair of shoes. After paying for the shoes, I told the store owner about quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) for a safe future. She agreed. As I continued telling her the truth about the persecution of Falun Dafa, her phone rang. She then started playing mahjong on her phone, so I left.

I saw a woman handing out flyers on the street, but no one was taking them. After I offered to help her hand out a few flyers, we started to chat. She said the pandemic was not over yet, and everyone wanted to be safe. She also wanted to be safe and agreed to quit the Young Pioneers. I tried to bring up the topic of Dafa, but many people started coming over to take her flyers. She was too busy to listen to me.

When I got to a supermarket entrance, I saw a gray-haired woman sitting on a three-wheeled electric cart with a two or three-year-old girl learning on her. I went over and greeted her. I told her about quitting the CCP and its affiliated organizations for a safe future. She agreed to quit the Young Pioneers without hesitation. When I was about to tell her the facts about Dafa, she drove away with a smile, saying, “I am safe now!”

I felt so bad. These three people withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organizations, but none of them listened to the truth about Dafa. I went home with regret.

Looking Within To Find the Cause

That evening, I felt bad when I uploaded the list of those who had quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations to the Epoch Times website.

I asked myself, “What was wrong? Why didn't anyone have time to listen to me?” Looking within, I wondered about my cultivation state for the past month. I recalled how I could not calm down to read the Fa, and my vision was blurry when I read. I had a hard time remembering the passages, and I felt sleepy when I was meditating. My palm also wouldn’t stay up when I sent forth righteous thoughts, and the police were monitoring my phone

I knew my incorrect cultivation state caused those situations, and I was very anxious. I repeatedly looked inward and tried to get rid of my attachments. But the effect was not great.

Enlightening to Fa Principles

The more I looked within, the more annoyed I was. I felt exhausted. Suddenly, Master Li Hongzhi’s words appeared in my mind:

“Thoroughly analyze your shortcomings,and progress with renewed diligence”(“Rational and Awake,” Hong Yin II)

I committed my mind, fully believed in Master, and let go of everything!

The following day when I was doing the exercises, I could not stop my racing thoughts. I then recalled the following passage:

“…‘I’m Li Hongzhi’s disciple, I don’t want other arrangements or acknowledge them’—then they won’t dare to do that. So it can all be resolved.” (Teachings Given on Lantern Festival Day, 2003)

Suddenly a flow of heat penetrated my whole body, and I cried. The other day, when I read an article on the Minghui website, I was struck by Master lyrics in “A Chance In The Twinkling Of An Eye” (Hong Yin III): “Heaven and earth were created by the Fa (Way)”

I enlightened that Dafa created everything, and I am a particle of it. Master was taking care of me. There was nothing to worry about!

My heart was immediately grounded, and I calmly did the exercises. Then a dream I’d had a month before came back to me.

I was in a big waiting room in a train station with many people. My train arrived, but I could not push through the crowd to get to the gate. I was so upset. I suddenly remembered that I could take the staff commuter entrance.

I ran around but couldn’t find the commuter entrance. Out of breath by this time, I noticed that the door of the operation room was open, so I asked the station manager to let me go through the duty room to the platform. He smiled and nodded.

I didn’t even bother to thank him, ran out, and flew onto the platform. Because I ran so fast, I lost my luggage. By this time, the train was already moving, and I desperately climbed on board. After getting on the train, I realized that it was a black boxcar. I was so upset. I had clearly seen that it was a green passenger carriage. I thought, “This won't work. I must go to the next station and get on the green carriage!” When I looked around, I saw many fellow practitioners sleeping on the floor of the carriage. I also saw a place reserved for me.

I stopped doing the exercises and thought about the dream, “What does Master want me to enlighten to by having me remember this dream?” I had this same dream a month ago, and it still haunted me. Only one section of the train was black. So why did I get on that section?

I looked back at my cultivation. I had been trying hard to do the three things well. Yet what happened recently was no coincidence. What was the root cause?

I realized that I was attached to the end time of Fa-rectification. This attachment was hidden deep in my subconscious. I unknowingly became lax and relaxed my will to be diligent.

What appeared to be interference with my cultivation was actually a test set by Master to see whether I firmly believe in Dafa. I was affected by the interference. This was a fundamental issue, whether I believe in Master and Dafa. That was why I got on the black boxcar, indicating that I took the path arranged by the old forces.

Master said:

“If you, as a student [of Dafa], do not follow Master’s requirements, it is definitely no simple thing. The old forces have arranged for all Dafa disciples a set of their things, so if a Dafa disciple doesn’t follow Master’s requirements, he must be following the old forces’ arrangements. The old forces are in essence gigantic trials and tribulations that accompany you at all times, focused on whether in Fa-rectification Dafa disciples are able to step forward.” (“Be Clearheaded,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress III)

“If after going through this ordeal some students are still not clearheaded, then they will miss [the opportunities presented in] all of this. Only when you follow Master’s requirements are you validating the Fa and cultivating yourself as a Dafa disciple, and only then are you a true Dafa disciple.” (“Be Clearheaded,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress III)

“I also want to tell you that your nature in the past was actually based on egotism and selfishness. From now on, whatever you do, you should consider others first, so as to attain the righteous Enlightenment of selflessness and altruism.” (“Non-Omission in Buddha-Nature,” Essentials for Further Advancement)

A fellow practitioner asked me the other day, “Do you want to be a person who aligns with Dafa, or someone who assimilates to Dafa?” I immediately thought of the last two sentences of “On Dafa:”

“Any person who can align with Dafa is truly a good person, and will be rewarded and blessed with health and happiness. And any cultivator who is able to become one with Dafa is an enlightened one—divine.” (“On Dafa,” Zhuan Falun)

Some practitioners are unconditionally assimilating to Dafa, letting go of selfishness, breaking out of the law of the old universe, and firmly believing in Master and Dafa. These practitioners have reached the standard of 24K gold, and they can naturally sit in the green carriage.

Others, like me, are only 18K gold. So we have to lie on the floor in the black boxcar. This dream was really a wake-up call to save me from delusion.

Master said:

“Human or divine—the difference lies in one thought.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XI)

Master hinted for me to write this dream down to wake up fellow practitioners who are in a similar situation. Fellow practitioners who are sleeping in the black boxcar, wake up! The train is coming to the next station. We have to let go of our human notions, assimilate to Dafa, and reach the standard of the new universe. Master is waiting for us!

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