(Minghui.org) I would like to share some of my experiences as a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple while clarifying the truth every day. At times when people do not accept the truth about Falun Dafa, I would feel sad and regretful, but would be happy and glad for them if they accepted the truth. Practitioners’ attachments often spark tribulations amongst each other. We are all steadfastly cultivating in Dafa and elevating our xinxing while doing the three things.

Looking Inward and Eliminating Jealousy

I have been going out to clarify the truth with a practitioner named Yuan recently. We were at an outdoor market clarifying the truth to people when it began to rain heavily, so we decided to head into a shopping mall to take shelter. 

While exiting the mall after the rain ended, we saw many clothes on clearance. Yuan said, “Look! This shirt is the same as yours!” When I asked for the price, the store associate told me that it was 69 yuan. I said, “When I bought it three years ago, it was 300 yuan!” The store associate encouraged me to buy another one and I could rotate between them.

I was indecisive and did not know whether to buy it or not. At this moment, Yuan tried the garment on and decided to buy it. While she was getting ready to pay for it at the register, I held her back and told her not to get it. I told her that the shirt did not fit her and that she did not look good in it. Usually Yuan would always listen to my advice and suggestions, but she seemed like a completely different person today as she was quite adamant about buying the shirt. 

I realized that my state was not right and I let go of Yuan immediately. I started to look inside after walking out of the mall. It was clear that I was being selfish as I refused to let anyone wear the same clothing as me. By further looking inward, I found that I had the attachment of jealousy, saving face and being afraid that people would look better in the clothes I normally wear. My attachment of jealousy was displayed quite strongly!

Master said,

“It is because jealousy is displayed very strongly in China. It is so strong that it has become natural and one does not even feel it.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)

“This person may start a conflict with a Buddha because his jealousy has not been eliminated. How can these things be allowed to take place? What should be done about it, then? You must eliminate all ill thoughts among everyday people—only then can you move up.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)

I was not as emotional when I saw Yuan buying that shirt after I calmed down. I was able to experience the wonders of looking inward. 

Treasuring Predestined Relationships and Changing My Human Notions

Mei is a practitioner in our Fa study group. Whenever we practice the fifth exercise or send righteous thoughts, she would always be drowsy and didn’t hold the posture correctly. I involuntarily let out a big sigh while practicing the third exercise one time. I blamed Mei and I was quite shocked at myself. I realized I had lost control of my thoughts and actions. 

I was ashamed. How can I, having cultivated for 20 years, lose control of my main consciousness? I was slacking in cultivation and did not realize the solemnity of the Fa. When I took a deeper look at myself, I enlightened to the fact that I was not respecting the Fa and Master. 

I noticed that other practitioners were also looking at Mei’s exercise movements. Mei was completely oblivious about her incorrect postures and her body was tipping over so much that she almost hit the thermos behind her.

Mei has been unresponsive to practitioners’ remarks on her incorrect postures and tried making excuses for herself.

Although Mei’s incorrect postures were not in accordance with Master’s standards, we, as Master’s Dafa disciples, were also at fault. I realized that I thought I was superior to Mei and looked down on her. I did not truly help her from the bottom of my heart and didn’t regard her as a Fa-rectification Period Dafa disciple. I only wished to change my surroundings and the people around me. What I really needed to do was to change myself for the better. 

I was unable to eliminate the Chinese Communist Party culture that affected my mind and needed to be humble and carry myself more calmly by following Master’s guidance and be more tolerant of others. Had I not reprimanded and held grudges against Mei, perhaps the evil factors that interfered with Mei might have been disintegrated already. We must have a strong predestined relationship to be able to assist Master in Fa-rectification in this lifetime! Shouldn’t we change ourselves first?

During this period of Last Havoc when we are to save sentient beings, it is a baptism for Dafa disciples in smelting true gold. What reasons do I have to resent and hold grudges? We are future kings and this is a magnificent, holy, and a once in a millennia opportunity! What reasons do I have to look down on Master’s disciples?

Upon writing this article, I realized I have similar problems as Mei; they only manifested differently. I am truly remorseful for not elevating my xinxing better. I always focused on other practitioners’ shortcomings instead of genuinely cultivating and abiding by Dafa. 

Master said,

“The benchmark that you must meet in terms of self-improvement is exceedingly strict, because Dafa disciples are meant to achieve a divine standing even greater than usual, and each of you is tasked with saving the countless, innumerable lives—lives of high levels—of your respective cosmic domain.” (“Another Stern Warning,” Team Yellow Translation)

“Cultivation and Fa-rectification are serious. Whether you are able to treasure this period of time is, in fact, a matter of whether you can be responsible to yourselves. This period of time will not last long, but it can forge the mighty virtue of magnificent Enlightened Beings, Buddhas, Daos, and Gods of different levels, and even Lords of different levels. It can also destroy overnight a cultivator who has reached a really high level but who has become less strict with himself.” (“Fa-Rectification Period Dafa Disciples,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)

Master’s Fa gave me a stick warning. I understood that cultivation is the improvement of ourselves. I was not looking inward, hence Mei’s cultivation state never improved. I am truly sorry to Master and to my fellow practitioners. 

In the days to come, I will cultivate diligently, do the three things well and not let Master down.