(Minghui.org) Due to the CCP virus (a.k.a. coronavirus) pandemic, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) had all the local communities under lockdown. So it became even more imperative for us to go out to help people learn the facts about Dafa and the persecution. People who continue to follow the CCP are putting themselves in danger. 

I prepared to go out and clarify the truth to people on the second day of the lockdown, but my husband and son would not let me leave the house. 

I said I was going out to buy groceries, so my son immediately went out to buy them for me. When he returned, he said that there were security guards monitoring each community, and only one person from each household was given a pass to leave. He said it was too dangerous outside, so I couldn’t leave the house. 

I calmed down, studied the Fa and looked within to find where I needed to improve. Practitioners need to let go of themselves and save people. I sent forth righteous thoughts to disintegrate all the old forces’ interference and eliminate any attachments I still harbored. I also asked Master Li for strength.

After I finished doing the chores, I prepared to go out again. My husband and son tried to stop me, but I told them, “I know that you guys are worried about me. You know that I am a Dafa disciple and Master has saved me. Sentient beings are in danger, and I should save them. This is my responsibility. Please rest assured, I have Master taking care of me!” I then left.

When I got to the gate of the community, several guards asked which building I was from and where I was going. I said I needed to go grocery shopping. When they asked if I had a pass, I replied that I didn’t know I needed one. They said that I had to bring it next time. I told myself, “I’m not under your control but under Master's control.” I asked Master for support, and they eventually allowed me to go through. After that day, they always let me leave without asking any questions.

Although there weren’t many people out, I could always meet someone with a predestined relationship who wanted to hear about Dafa. 

When I met someone who brushed me aside or even cursed at me, I would look inward to eliminate any attachments I still had. In this way, I can better assimilate to the requirements of the Fa. My efforts also improved as I elevated my character and thinking.

One afternoon, after I had helped a man quit the CCP, a young man walked over and asked what I was doing. He claimed to be a police officer and asked for my name. I said that I didn’t know him and walked away. 

At home, I calmly looked within and was shocked to find my shortcomings. I had gradually developed the attachment of zealotry, just as I was beginning to do the three things well.

In fact, I had already developed zealotry earlier without realizing it. I had gone out with my husband one day, and the security guards had only stopped him for questioning. After we returned home, my family members asked why they didn’t stop me too. I boasted, “I am not under their control!” 

I also developed fear whenever I was followed by a CCP agent. During that time, I had become lax in sending forth righteous thoughts. After recognizing my shortcomings, I sent forth strong righteous thoughts to eliminate any interference and persecution by the old forces. I also asked Master Li to help me break through the attachment of fear. 

Although I didn’t completely eliminate my fear, I haven’t slackened off and I continued to go out to save sentient beings. My situation is improving.

As I was waiting for the traffic light to change one time, I greeted a quiet woman next to me, and said that fate had allowed us to meet. I express my wish that she and her family would have peace and happiness. I also told her about Dafa and the persecution. 

She readily accepted the facts and put her palms together as a gesture of gratitude. I told her to thank Master Li Hongzhi (the founder of Falun Dafa) instead, because He had asked me to save her. She then bowed three times and said “Thank you, Master!” 

I will be more diligent in my cultivation to be worthy of Master’s salvation and follow Him to return to my true home.