“Changing My Ways” After Learning Falun Dafa
(Minghui.org) My relationship with my ex-husband was troublesome. We were together ten years and fought that entire time. My husband had an affair, so we got a divorce in 2002. After our divorce, I cried every day. When I saw a couple with their children happily together, I felt sad and wanted to cry. The doctors diagnosed me with depression.
One day, my daughter locked me in the bathroom and said, “You have beaten me for ten years. I want revenge.” Indeed, when her dad and I fought, I would take my anger out on my daughter. Eventually, she went to live with her grandma.
In 2005, my daughter called and wanted to come live with me again. I didn’t want her to live with me because she was older now and would be more difficult to discipline.
One day, a friend told me that he practiced Falun Dafa. He said that if I read the main book of Falun Dafa, I would know how to parent my child. I didn’t believe him at the time.
A few days later, he gave me the book Zhuan Falun, a portrait of Master Li Hongzhi (the founder) and other truth-clarification materials. I opened the book and read “On Dafa” and also watched the videos that he gave me. I learned that the Self-Immolation Incident at Tiananmen Square was faked in order to frame Falun Dafa practitioners.
At that moment, my daughter called again and wanted to stay with me. I told her to come because now I had the Falun Dafa book and would know how to parent her.
When she came into the house and saw me reading the Falun Dafa books, she took Master’s portrait off the wall and attempted to deface it. I realized that she didn’t know the truth about Dafa. I told her that Falun Dafa teaches people to be good citizens and live by the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I also showed her the video that revealed the lie about the self-immolation incident.
My daughter understood the truth after watching the video. She said to me, “The self-immolation incident is full of flaws. But many people have been fooled by the incident and think that the incident is real. Mom, I support you.”
Ever since then, my daughter would ask me to read to her whenever I was studying the Fa. One day she said, “The paragraph that you just read applies to our situation right here. Master is right. Dafa is amazing. I want to practice Dafa as well, and I want to follow the principles of Falun Dafa.”
On one occasion I saw my daughter talking to Master’s portrait, “I am sorry, Master. I shouldn’t have damaged the portrait. I didn’t know the truth back then, so please forgive me.”
Since then, my daughter and I study the Fa and do the exercises together. We also tried to share Dafa with our family and friends.
Sharing Dafa with my family
After I started practicing Falun Dafa I was happy, and I no longer cried. I understood many principles that I didn’t know before. I know that my purpose in life is to return to my true self, and that my sufferings were caused by karma I have gathered throughout reincarnations.
“Because of karma created from past wrongdoings, one has illnesses or tribulations; suffering is repaying a karmic debt, and thus nobody can casually change this. Changing it means that one would not have to repay the debt after being in debt, and this cannot be done at will. Doing otherwise is the same as committing a bad deed.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I finally let go of my hatred for my ex-husband. I thought that perhaps I had done something wrong to him in a past life. So I visited him and his current wife, and I helped them renounce the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
In order to tell my mother-in-law the truth, I took the train to visit her. My sister-in-law remarked how young and pretty I looked. My brother-in-law’s wife fell ill and I told her to recite “Falun Dafa is Good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” She recited the phrase every day, and now, she feels healthy again. My brother-in-law saw the changes in his wife and also agreed to renounce the CCP.
Becoming a True Practitioner
I lived strictly by the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and changed all my bad habits and behaviors. For example, I used to manipulate the electric, water and natural gas meters so I paid fewer utility bills than I was supposed to; I had accepted a bike that one of my friends stole, and I watched cable TV without paying the cable bills. I know now that those were not virtuous actions.
“One practitioner works in a textile factory in a city in Shandong Province. After studying Falun Dafa, he taught other coworkers to practice. As a result, the factory has taken on a new look. He used to take home pieces of towels from the textile factory, and so did the rest of the employees. After he started practicing Dafa, instead of taking things home, he brought back to the factory what he had taken home before.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
Through studying the Fa, I quickly turned my utility meters back to normal, returned the stolen bike and stopped watching the cable that I didn’t pay for.
CCP Persecutes Good People
While I was distributing Shen Yun DVDs to people in November of 2012, I was arrested by the police. The police trespassed into my house and stole Master’s portrait, Dafa books, my laptop and other items. The police asked my brother to convince me to stop practicing Dafa. He refused. The officer threatened him, “If you refuse, we will lock you up and not let you go to work.”
I was illegally sentenced to seven years in prison. My daughter’s parents-in-law were also illegally sentenced to nine years in 2011. Her father-in-law is still imprisoned today.
My daughter’s wedding was scheduled for May of 2012, but since her parents-in-law were being persecuted by the CCP, she had to cancel her wedding. No one except her husband took care of her the month after my grandson’s birth. Her own mother and her in-laws were in prison.
My daughter lives overseas and just had her second child. Her mother-in-law and myself were going to visit her and take care of her, but the police department refused to give us a passport. When asked why they refused, their response was that we practiced Falun Dafa.
When we returned from prison, her mother-in-law’s retirement fund was suspended, and my employer refused to pay me or let me return to work. Our family is one of the many Falun Dafa practitioner families that the CCP persecuted and broke apart. There are reports about this on Minghui every day. All of this occurred only because we wanted to be good people and practice Falun Dafa.