(Minghui.org) I have been practicing Falun Dafa for 22 years. Whenever I’ve encountered difficulties, I have sensed Master Li's compassionate protection. It is Master who encourages me when I face tribulations and who has shown me the power of Dafa.
Eliminating Attachments
Four years ago, I discovered that my husband was having an affair. This shocked, angered, humiliated, and saddened me. Human notions filled my mind with thoughts of resentment and fighting, which escalated our family conflicts. The environment at home was very tense, and our child also became distressed.
I quarreled with my husband, and he finally told me that he would not see the woman again. But soon after, I found out that he still saw her, and I quarreled with him again. I did not cook for him for a week and ignored him. I often wanted to use ordinary people's ways show him how angry I was, and several times I wanted him to leave altogether.
I knew I was a cultivator and shouldn't do things that do not conform with the Fa, but I couldn't let go of my attachments. This went on for some time. I understood that, to get out of this situation, I had to study the Fa teachings more.
When I couldn't concentrate on studying the Fa, I watched Master's video Fa teachings. I realized if I couldn't get over this tribulation, Master would be saddened.
Once in a dream I saw that I killed my husband in a past life. I owed him, and now I had to repay this debt.
It was because I didn't cultivate myself well and hurt him that our family was in this crisis. I made up my mind to eliminate all my human notions of resentment, fighting, suspicion, fame, and fortune. The most difficult thing was to let go of my suspicion.
As I struggled, Master enlightened and reminded me. Whenever I got suspicious, I immediately recited the Fa to drive it away.
Master said:
“The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I finally got over this family tribulation. Two young practitioners helped me study and understand the Fa. I aligned myself with the high standards of Dafa, and I realized that Master used this to dig out all my human notions and completely remove them.
Now, because my husband and I run a small shop together, I am no longer domineering or self-centered. He cares about me, and we have reconciled.
In the process of cultivation, getting over tests, improving xinxing, and getting out of tribulations, I truly experienced Master's compassion.
Master said:
“Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
As long as we have righteous thoughts and actions and act in accordance with the Fa, Master will arrange the best for us. Master and Dafa gave me a happy family.
Letting Go of Human Notions
My daughter was born before I began practicing Falun Dafa. Three months after she was born, she would cry for no reason, at least an hour at a time. This was very unusual and went on throughout the night. She also often caught colds. I didn't know what to do.
In desperation, I thought of my mother's neighbor who was a Falun Dafa practitioner. I asked her to help take care of my daughter.
When I took my daughter to the woman’s home, my daughter did not cry or make noise and was very calm, which was amazing. Because of this, I started to practice Falun Dafa.
When my daughter started to talk, she stayed with me to study the Fa. After she was able to talk, I taught her to recite Hong Yin and read Zhuan Falun.
In elementary school, my daughter never went to after-school classes, but she did well in school. However, after she started junior high, I became like an ordinary person and spent money networking with people who could help her.
Then I registered her for after-school classes to help her get into a key high school, which is what an ordinary person would do. I did not treat myself as a cultivator, and the result was counterproductive. My daughter got tired of school, just like an ordinary child, and she began to rebel.
I was worried about her—she was so young. If she didn’t go to school, what would her future hold?
In fact, I couldn't let go of these attachments. When it was time for high school, my daughter was admitted to a very mediocre one.
By then, I refused to be driven by ordinary people's ideas to pressure her to take part in after-school classes. And, no matter how much she had to study, I insisted on studying the Fa with her.
She had always been among the best in her class, and after finishing the last college entrance examination, she said, “Master has given me wisdom!”
In fact, her final score was nearly 100 points higher than her mock test score, and she was admitted to an excellent university. She continued to study the Fa at university, studied hard, and was selected to study abroad. Master arranged the best for her.