(Minghui.org) Despite the rampant persecution launched in July 1999, I was filled with righteous thoughts and didn’t have any fear. To call for rectification of the wrong and prevent people from being deceived, I distributed truth clarification flyers to households every day.

As my situation improved, I developed an attachment to comfort and slacked off in my cultivation. I found myself studying the Fa and clarifying the truth as if I were completing a task. If I had some flyers, I would distribute them; if not, I waited, but I wasn’t anxious to get any. I thought I had done the three things and I that I was diligent. 

The outbreak of the CCP virus marked a new stage of the Fa rectification. Truth-clarification brochures containing deeper content are available. I feel the urgency of cultivating myself well and offering salvation to sentient beings. Many fellow practitioners take as many as 100 brochures and distribute them in various ways. Some put brochures into people’s bicycle baskets or place them on car doors. I've always distributed brochures to households. Sometimes, I thought it was too tiring and it would be much easier to just put them in bicycle baskets. 

There has always been a lack of truth-clarification in the countryside because few practitioners live there. As far as I know people in some villages haven’t received any truth-clarification brochures for years. We haven’t accomplished what Master asked us to do in his poem,

“Awareness of Dafa is spreading to each house” (Glimpse of GoodnessHong Yin III)

Falun Dafa disciples have been following Master to rectify the Fa for more than 20 years and we have aged. Compared to my fellow practitioners, I’m relatively young and can still run and climb hills. I think I should have continued distributing truth-clarification materials with the same urgency I did years ago. 

A few days ago, another practitioner and I distributed brochures in an area we never visited before. Every village is now equipped with surveillance cameras. Dogs barked loudly. I was a little hesitant. I had the unrighteous thought: “I won’t go the countryside any more.”

As I reflected on myself, I found that my unrighteous thoughts arose from fear. What was I afraid of? I found that the root of my fear was my lack of faith in Master and Dafa. The truth-clarification materials I distribute carry my energy, either positive or negative. If I lack faith in Master and Dafa, how could I spread any positive messages or persuade people to believe in Master and Dafa? Haven’t I compromised our Fa-rectification activities?

Master has told us, 

“Didn't I tell you before that each of you Dafa disciples has eight types of Heavenly Law-Guardians protecting you?” (Touring North America to Teach the Fa)

“My Law Bodies will protect you all the way until you’re able to protect yourself, ...” (The Third TalkZhuan Falun, Translation Edition (Feb. 2003, North America))

“Our Falun Dafa protects students from going wrong. And how does it protect you? Our Law Wheel protects you if you’re a true cultivator. My roots are all deeply planted in the universe, and if someone could affect you, he could affect me, and to put it directly, he’d be able to affect the universe.” (The First TalkZhuan Falun) (Translation Edition (Feb. 2003, North America)) 

When people don’t listen to my truth-clarification or aren't willing to quit the Communist organizations, it's actually due to my lack of faith in Master and Dafa. When I tried to cover my human notions and fear, or try to clarify the truth in a “safe” way, the people I talked to won’t accept my words. Their response is actually a reflection of my lack of sincerity, compassion and faith.

Master has warned us,

“Any Dafa disciples who have not been diligent, or who are prone to acting in extreme ways, should immediately straighten themselves out, and sincerely study the Fa and work on themselves, for you are at great risk.” (“Stay Rational,” Team Yellow Translation)

When I read what Master said, I didn’t place myself in the “not diligent” category; but after I looked inward I realize that I've been covering my fear with high-sounding excuses like rationality and wisdom. My recent truth clarification efforts have been half-hearted. It’s equivalent to fooling myself.

After I realized how serious and dangerous this is, I decided to expose my lack of faith, disintegrate it and correct it. Fellow practitioners, let’s remind each other to look inward and see if we unconditionally believe in Master and Dafa.