(Minghui.org) My husband attentively watched the news reports on NTDTV as the coronavirus turned into an epidemic. He's not a practitioner, but after watching the programs he understood why I clarified the truth to people. He was still afraid of being persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), however.
The roads leading into our village were closed right after Chinese New Year and no one was allowed to go out. People were frightened.
Distributing Truth-Clarifying Materials during the Lock Down
I stayed home, along with everyone else. But after several days I suddenly realized that people who were stuck in their homes must be bored. Our truth clarification materials offer them hope and a new perspective. Now that they had plenty of time to read them they might renounce their CCP memberships. So I began downloading and printing Minghui journals.
Since hardly anyone was on the streets I began distributing materials to each household by sticking them to the doors. The printer had an issue so I had to insert each sheet of paper manually, which was very time-consuming. In addition, I was the only Falun Dafa practitioner in my village.
Let me explain my situation. I have two daughters, one is 18 and the other is 11 years old. They read Zhuan Falun but not Master’s new articles. They don’t do the exercises or anything to clarify the truth to people. My husband started doing the exercises with me in the Spring of 2006, but he stopped a month later, and he never finished reading Zhuan Falun. I'm the only practitioner in my area, so it's my responsibility to deliver materials to each household.
The situation in the surrounding area relaxed after a few weeks, so I copied the truth-clarification materials onto a USB flash drive and arranged to meet with Ms. Xia and Ms. Liu in a neighboring village. I told them how many copies I had distributed and how to produce them.
They are both elderly, and neither knew how to browse the Internet or download anything. After I transferred the files from my flash drive to Ms. Xia’s computer, they began printing materials.
They cooperated very well with each other. Ms. Xia was responsible for printing, while Ms. Liu took care of the distribution. They were able to deliver the materials to neighboring villages, and even supplied other practitioners. They did a great job.
After I covered my entire village I knew I needed to keep going. There are five villages west of mine with no practitioners. But, due to the lockdown, getting there would be a challenge. I thought about crossing through a field at night, then entering the village from the side. I told Ms. Xia my plan and asked if she could produce the materials. She immediately said yes, and both of them wanted to go with me. We met at a prearranged location and then the three of us distributed materials in the closest village. We managed to cover more than half of the entire village, and returned home safely.
Identifying My Attachments during Tribulations
We had to prepare materials for our next distribution. We agreed to meet at a certain place on March 4. After Ms. Liu arrived, she handed me a pack of A4-size paper and I put it in my basket. A man a few meters away began shouting and walking towards us. He took out his cell phone and said he would report us to the police.
This man is from my village. When I had tried to clarify the facts to him in the past, he not only refused to listen, butcursed at me, and also refused to take any materials from me. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate any negative entity that was controlling him. After we talked to him for a while he finally said he wouldn't call the police, but he continued cursing at us. I asked Ms. Liu to leave.
As I walked away that man caught up with me. He continued swearing at me and threatened to report me to the police. I tried to ignore him. Finally, I said, “Go ahead.” But he kept following me. I asked him, “What good will it do to report me?” He tried to grab my basket, and finally took it from me. As he headed towards the village office I ran home.
As soon as I came home, I told my husband that someone had reported me, so he quickly moved my printer and Dafa books to his mother’s house to hide them. I kept sending righteous thoughts. After a while, the village head phoned him and told him to come in. After I sent righteous thoughts for more than 20 minutes, I recalled what Master said,
“Remember: Wherever a problem occurs, that's where you need to clarify the facts.” (Fa-Lecture During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference)
So I went to the village office. As soon as I entered I greeted everyone. The village head asked if he needed to report me to the police. I pointed out that I hadn’t done anything wrong. I then explained how the man swore at me, threatened me, and then grabbed my basket. The man who reported me was furious, and shouted that I got myself into this trouble. After I challenged him, he had nothing to say. But he then threatened me and said that he would report me whenever he saw me.
The village head said that since the CCP didn’t allow us to practice Falun Dafa we should obey. I replied that China's constitution guarantees freedom of religion. It was the CCP that was persecuting us. He said he'd let me go this time, but next time he wouldn’t protect me. I told him that I would continue practicing, as Falun Dafa was truly wonderful. He agreed with what I said. He gave the paper to my husband and told me to go home.
I came home but I couldn’t calm down. I sent righteous thoughts, but I still couldn’t calm down. I also had a hard time focusing while I read the Fa. I started to recite the Fa, and as soon as I began reciting, I felt my cultivation state change for the better. I was even able to write two paragraphs of Fa from memory.
My husband returned home from work and I prepared his meal. While I was copying the Fa, I heard him talking on WeChat. He mentioned that someone reported me. When I heard that I immediately felt unbalanced! I forgot all about maintaining xinxing and I began to vent my anger at him. He didn’t say anything. After I calmed down, however, he slapped me.
I realized that this must have happened because I had an attachment to resentment. I resented the man who reported me. Instead of eliminating the attachment I went along with it and became angry at my husband. This was also why I couldn't focus when I read the teachings, or sent righteous thoughts. I always felt agitated.
When I reflected on why I was reported, I considered two possibilities. One was that when we do a most righteous thing, like clarifying the truth to people and saving them, it frightens the negative elements in other dimensions. So they manipulate people to interfere with us.
The other reason was that my attachments hadn't yet been eliminated, such as lust. After this incident I'm determined to eliminate my attachments, so that they cannot interfere with my ability to save people.
Category: Improving Oneself
