(Minghui.org) When I arrived at my Fa study group yesterday, I realized that my fellow practitioners changed a lot.

Our last sharing ended very abruptly after we finished discussing our understandings. I believe the reason was due to my ordinary human thoughts and judging what the other practitioners were saying. I was not looking inward and looked at things at the surface using my notions; I was not viewing things from the Fa perspective. I forgot Master’s words,

“Cultivation is about looking inside yourself. Whether you are right or wrong, you should examine yourself. Cultivation is about getting rid of human attachments.” (“Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles”) 

“That’s why I tell you that whenever any problems occur or whenever you feel uneasy inside, you should look inside yourself for causes.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Singapore”)

Through Fa-study, I looked inward and found several attachments: the mentality of showing off, failing to cultivate my speech and jealousy. These attachments make me easily frustrated and prevent me from thinking of others.

When I looked inward, I also found that I haven’t cultivated my speech. Oftentimes when I meet with conflicts or problems, I would complain to my husband. Isn’t this an issue of cultivating speech? Why do I feel so uncomfortable when one practitioner says things that are not appealing to me? Isn’t this an attachment? As a true Falun Dafa disciple, I should not be like this.

As a matter of fact, I am the one with cultivation issues. Master said,

“Could it be that their negative aspects were utilized to have us see our own negative aspects?” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Singapore”)

Yes! Everything happens for a reason. It appears as if that fellow practitioner does not cultivate his speech or look inward. However, isn’t this a mirror to reflect my issues? Master is showing me this to help me cultivate and look inward.

Many years ago, I remember having many conflicts with other practitioners. Back then, I always thought I was right. I have subconsciously let this attachment fester. Now I’ve realized I should get rid of it. When I see one particular practitioner, I feel very uncomfortable; this is a problem that I need to change. A practitioner should not feel this way towards anyone. Feeling uncomfortable is an attachment to wanting to feel comfortable. By sending righteous thoughts and eliminating this attachment, my heart became brighter and clearer.

Through sharing with other practitioners, I’ve seen the seriousness of cultivation and many of my attachments. Only by being strict with myself can I get rid of this attachment. If I disregard this attachment, I would be following the old forces’ arrangements.

Interestingly, after I changed, so did the other practitioner. When we met, before I said anything, that fellow practitioner said, “I’ve cultivated my speech for a week and did not say anything that was unnecessary. My son, daughter-in-law, and daughter were all very courteous to me. My son who usually has a bad mouth found no reason to be mean anymore.”

That fellow practitioner also said, “Why haven’t I thought about how important it is to cultivate my speech? When I realized that it was an attachment for me to get rid of, it was too late.” I went on to say, “It isn’t too late. What happened last time between us was all my fault. I should have put myself in your shoes before speaking to you so abruptly. I am truly sorry! Please forgive me.”

This is the first time in two years that we are able to communicate so peacefully. I know that it’s due to both of us looking inward and carrying ourselves like true practitioners. Master has cleared our environments.

The fellow practitioner told me, “For the past couple of days, I haven’t been able to sleep so I have been up listening to Master’s lectures. There have been nights that I wasn’t able to sleep at all but by listening to Master’s lectures, I felt fine the next day.”

Her relationship with her daughter-in-law has also improved. As I listened to her sharing her experiences, I felt very grateful to Master and told him your disciple has been improving too slowly. From now on, I will be more diligent and elevate my thoughts and xinxing. As a practitioner, I think that looking inside is something each of us should not forget to do.

I changed and so did that fellow practitioner. Thank you, benevolent Master! We will continue our path to the end.

These are my personal understandings. Please point out anything inappropriate.