(Minghui.org) Before I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2001, I used to suffer from a multitude of health problems, including migraines, gastritis, neurasthenia, depression, and gynecological conditions. In an attempt to cure my ailments, my husband drove me around the country to consult well-known specialists.
When Western medicine failed, we turned to Chinese medicine. When that too failed, we turned to alternative therapies, including Tai Chi and yoga, but I saw little improvement.
Soon after I began to practice Falun Dafa, my many illnesses disappeared, and I found myself brimming with boundless energy and stamina. Having witnessed this miracle with their own eyes, my husband, children, and sisters were particularly impressed with the power of Dafa.
Overcoming Life-Threatening Situations
I neglected my cultivation practice over time. My understanding of Dafa remained superficial and I did not apply the principles of cultivation to my daily life. My emotional attachments were also very strong.
When my sister turned to me for advice after having a conflict with her mother-in-law, I used my human notions to deal with the situation and sided with my sister. My interference created karma for myself.
Soon after, a fellow practitioner asked me to mediate between two other practitioners who were arguing over the direction of a truth clarification project. I conducted the mediation session while clinging to my impure notion of justice, judging both parties as being good or bad using ordinary people’s thoughts. However, practitioners are supposed to use the universal standard of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance as a guide in everything we do.
I continued to be led by my human notions, despite experiencing multiple tribulations that left me aggrieved and resentful. I couldn't let go of my notions, and the old forces exploited my gaps to interfere with me. I began to experience overwhelming episodes of worry, fear, anxiety, nervousness, irritability, and extreme anxiety, which put me under tremendous pressure.
In April 2016, I began to experience severe stomach swelling and pain, gut cramps, poor appetite, and diarrhea. The old forces bombarded me with negative messages, attempting to deceive me and shake my determination to cultivate in Dafa.
By May, my stomach began discharging some sort of liquid. Fellow practitioners had become aware of my condition by this time and began to visit, encouraging me to believe in Master and the Fa, to maintain my righteous thoughts, to search inwards without reservation, to follow Dafa's principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance when encountering problems, and above all to remain a Falun Dafa practitioner.
Their advice gradually awoke my main consciousness and I started to diligently study the Fa, practice the exercises, and go out to tell people about Dafa daily.
I sent forth strong righteous thoughts whenever the pain became unbearable and said in my mind, “I am a disciple of Master Li Hongzhi (the founder of Falun Dafa). I refuse to acknowledge any other path not arranged by Master. Any agreement previously signed in my past is now invalidated. I will only accept the cultivation path arranged by Master. The old forces are not allowed to interfere in my life.”
I knew that my cultivation state remained insufficient. My weight began to plummet, leaving me weak and frail. Eventually, my family took me to the hospital.
There, I continued to remain firm in my belief, studying the Fa, doing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts. I begged Master for help and continued to deny the old forces' attacks on me. I had let Master down, but Master did not give up on me.
Master said,
“Remove your human thoughtsand evil will naturally die out.”(“Don't Be Sad” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
“Stand up when you fall, and that is the most remarkable. Start again and do well!” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference”)
“For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference IX)
Master's teachings continued to resound in my mind, a reminder of the thousands of years spent waiting for this moment of Fa-rectification. I could not afford to lose my way and had to pick myself up and stand on my own.
I searched inwards and discovered many human attachments, preconceived notions, and negative thoughts that I had acquired over the years.
I swore to change and eliminate my attachments. Whenever I discovered a negative thought, I would work to suppress and eliminate it. With much effort, I managed to overcome this life-threatening tribulation.
This taught me to cherish the chance granted by Master, to do well the three things in this limited time left and to save more sentient beings.
Category: Improving Oneself
