(Minghui.org) There was a layer that separated me from understanding the Falun Dafa teachings, despite studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. Besides, my human notions re-emerged, including my attachment to precious stones and a competitive mentality.
Hidden Attachment to the Ending of Time
When I looked inward, I found the hidden attachment to becoming enlightened. I had been searching and reading news, prophecies, and comments that spoke of the ending of time in the year 2017. Thus, I hoped for the end of the Fa-rectification.
When I was doing the meditation exercise a few days ago and I was almost finished, I felt that time passed so slowly and that every note sounded too long.
I then came to understand that the music was the same as before, but my karma made it sound so long.
Master Li Hongzhi said,
“And some people can’t stand it if their legs are crossed for a little bit longer. But when they uncross their legs the meditation was in vain.” (Zhuan Falun)
Is the prolonged time of Fa-rectification the same as what Master said in Zhuan Falun? It can be a serious problem if we don't understand that the time is prolonged for us to cultivate to our levels and to save people.
Master said,
“Dafa disciples should not stay attached to time and should not neglect to go about doing the things you should do. I keep prolonging this time to give it to you and have you do things quickly!” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference”)
It is because we had not cultivated diligently and had not saved enough people, that Master prolonged the time for us. However, I developed the human notion to the end of time and became passive, waiting for it to end. I forgot that we have to cultivate.
Gaining Deeper Meanings
My wife complained that my alarm clock disrupted her sleep when it was time to do the exercises in the morning. At first, I argued with her and focused on how much I needed it. Then, I realized that I should not need an alarm clock to wake me up. Morning exercises and sending forth righteous thoughts should be routine.
So I turned the alarm off before going to sleep, reminded myself to wake up on time. and asked Master to strengthen me. As expected, I woke up on time the next morning – without the alarm. When I positioned myself correctly, life became harmonious.
A symptom similar to rheumatism appeared at the beginning of the year and lasted for a long time. I sent righteous thoughts, continued to study the Fa and do the exercises, but held the thought that doing the exercises and Fa-study could cure the ailment. I had treated the symptoms as an ailment.
Recently, the symptom of rheumatism appeared several times. My wife worried about me, but I told her that the symptom would disappear after doing the Dafa exercises. They did disappear the next morning.
When it felt as if I had gallstones, I remembered to negate any arrangement by the old forces and let Master decide. I meditated and entered into deep tranquility. After the meditation, I recited “On Dafa” and poems from Hong Yin. The pain disappeared.
When I looked inward, I noticed many human notions, such as a desire to eat meat, to live a more comfortable life, and finding a better arrangement after retirement. I also bought drinks and cigarettes for the driver's license teacher in the hopes to be treated preferentially. This behavior did not conform to the Fa. If I did not pay attention to my behavior in my day to day life, small things would turn into big issues.
Believing in Master and the Fa
I realized that when a practitioner trusted Master and the Fa, Master would always give us the best.
Another aspect of trusting in Master and the Fa has to do with clarifying the truth about Dafa face to face. Human notions had stopped me many times from clarifying the truth to people. These opportunities were arranged by Master and we only need to talk to them.
Once a customer talked about gods and divine beings. I wanted to clarify the truth to him but stopped myself because other people were listening. I was regretful that I missed the opportunity to talk to him.
However, he returned with another project manager. I got a chance to talk to him alone about the persecution and the truth of Falun Dafa. He understood the truth and thanked me for telling him.
Looking back at my cultivation, I noticed a large gap between what I am now and what Master expects of us. And the reason I lagged behind is because of a lack of trust in Master and the Fa.
Category: Improving Oneself
