Returning to Falun Dafa after a Long Detour
(Minghui.org) I watched Master Li Hongzhi's exercise videos in the summer of 1998. As soon as I saw Master, I felt like he was a family member, and I wanted very much to learn the exercises. I soon felt something rapidly rotating in my lower abdomen and my body felt very comfortable. I didn't know why I had that feeling.
Stopping, Suffering, then Starting Anew
The next morning, I knew that my body had been purified and my gynecological diseases were healed. My abdominal pain was gone too, and my body felt light when I returned home from the practice site that day. I had previously been uncomfortable, and easily became tired after walking even a short distance.
My husband threatened to divorce me, however, if I kept going to the practice site. In order to stop me from going, he pulled off my clothes, tore them up, and started crying. I was shocked and felt forced to stop practicing even though I hadn't completed reading Zhuan Falun even once. My husband’s friend took away my copy of Zhuan Falun.
In the following five years, a gynecological disease, neurasthenia, and other health problems caused me much suffering. My medical expenses totalled more than 30,000 yuan. I needed IV injections to the point of having no veins left on my hand to insert the needles. The veins in my feet were then used for the IVs. I often had nightmares and thought about killing myself to end the continuous pain.
As Master said:
“If you don’t follow the Law’s requirements you don’t belong to our Falun Dafa. Your body will be returned to the level of ordinary people, and we’ll return the bad things to you, because you want to be an ordinary person.” (Zhuan Falun)
I was suffering a lot of pain and was depressed. One morning, when I went out for some exercise, a Falun Dafa practitioner was demonstrating the fourth exercise, saying, “Look at this movement—this is good for your health.” I was suddenly enlightened and remembered the practice I had given up. I thanked the practitioner and said that I would practice Falun Dafa from that day onward.
After I returned home, I threw away all the medicines and IV injection equipment. I then told my husband that I would be learning Falun Dafa, and that nothing would stop me because I had already suffered enough from my ailments.
My husband saw my firm commitment and said, “You can study it at home secretly, but do not let others know if it really cures your illnesses. You can learn it and I have no way to stop you.”
I immediately contacted my husband's friend who had taken my Dafa book. He gave back my copy of Zhuan Falun and also brought me three other Dafa books that I didn't have before, including The Great Way of Spiritual Perfection, Essentials for Further Advancement, and Lectures in the United States.
The friend told me that he had been transferred to work in a 610 Office where there was a storage room full of Dafa books. He took three of them and gave them to me. He also said that those books were treasures worthy of being stored. He said he helped practitioners while working there, but the job went against his conscience. A few days later, he quit working at the 610 Office.
I knew I was slacking off too much and that time was passing by very quickly. I knew I had to attentively study the Fa and do the exercises. I clenched my teeth in order to complete the one hour sitting meditation, and my body was sweating from the pain. One week later, all my ailments were healed.
With a greater awareness of Dafa’s principles, I was very happy each time I endured sickness tribulations. I appreciated how Master purified my body and dissolved my karma again and again.
I had cold symptoms one day, and two days later, I lost my voice completely. I then dreamed about a person using tweezers to extract something from my body. When I woke up, I shouted for my husband but it wasn't loud enough for him to hear me.
When my husband saw me, he became scared and suggested that I go to the hospital immediately. He called my mother, my elder sister, and my younger brother and told them that I refused to go to the hospital, so if anything happened to me, they shouldn't blame him.
I knew that this tribulation was purifying my body and that I would soon be fine. I studied the Fa and sent righteous thoughts. I wasn't worried at all. I believed in Master and the Fa, and twelve days later I had recovered.
My husband witnessed how I regained my health without ever taking a pill. He told everyone he knew about my great recovery under the care of Falun Dafa.
One night, a friend invited my husband and me out to dinner. After dinner, just after the friend left, I suddenly fell into a coma. When I woke up, I was in the hospital with an oxygen tube in my nostrils. I had been unconscious for over two hours and taken by ambulance to the hospital. I sat up and crossed my legs to send righteous thoughts for an hour. I vomited a lot and then felt relaxed.
The next morning, when the doctor came and wanted to examine me, I said there was no need and that I was fine.
Through this sickness tribulation, I identified a pile of attachments I had such as seeking profit, competitiveness, resentment towards my husband, an anxious heart, and being unkind. All in all, I had not behaved as Master had told us to.
“Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy.” (“Rationality” from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Clarifying the Truth
I came to believe in Master and the Fa more and more. So as long as any person with a predestined relationship came to me, I gave them Falun Dafa information. Those in my social circle to whom I clarified the truth all accepted what I said and quit their memberships of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations, including police officers, court employees, and peasants. Some listened to me only once and decided to quit the CCP, but some needed to hear what I said several times. I spoke with one school principal a dozen times before he quit the CCP.
One teacher reported me to his school principal. The principal then spoke to me while my husband was there, “Will you stop practicing Falun Gong?”
I answered, “That is impossible.”
The principal said, “Then will you stop talking to others about it? Can you just talk to me? What if others report you to the police?”
“If I am reported it means I haven't done well,” I said. “If I am completely doing this for others, how could they report me? That would be impossible.”
The principal threw another question at me, “Do you choose your husband and children or Falun Dafa?”
“I choose Falun Dafa.”
After the principal left, my husband passed out after hearing what I said. We immediately called a doctor to treat him. My second son called my elder son, my elder sister, and her husband, and they came and started criticizing me. The principal then returned and joined in with the criticizing.
While they were talking, I kept quiet and looked inside to find my faults. I realized that my language had been a little too aggressive. Without compassion or consideration of others, I was interfered with by human notions and competitiveness, and I wasn't thinking about others’ ability to accept what I was saying.
That type of attitude was coming from the CCP’s cultural elements still inside me. If I had spoken to my relatives in a way that aligned with Master’s teachings, would I have created such a negative situation?
Master told us:
“If you always keep a compassionate heart, and a peaceful state of mind, when you run into problems you’ll handle them well because it will give you space as a buffer.” (Zhuan Falun)
I sent righteous thoughts to eliminate any interference, adjusted my mindset, and calmly described the changes in me from practicing Falun Dafa.
With my character being constantly lifted, I tried my best to do well according to Master’s requirements while clarifying the truth. My husband no longer opposed my talking about Dafa. Sometimes he drove me and fellow practitioners to different areas to put up Dafa banners and stickers or to hand out information. He occasionally even helped us speak with people about quitting the CCP.
The Fa-rectification is speeding up, and little time remains for Dafa disciples to save people. Just as Master told us:
“So how can Dafa disciples—who are to achieve the celestial rank of a being who is saved by Dafa and who have the most convenient cultivation way—not be even more diligent when they are given this most glorious honor of Fa-validating cultivation in a brief cultivation period that passes in the blink of an eye?” (“The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be,” from The Essentials of Diligent Progress Vol. III)